'honk kong', here i come.
see you on monday.
be good, kids


xoxo
(my knees are wobbling)

tag replies 23rd - 24th November
Syiqs: (replied)
tagger: nonsense uh you. hahaha!
aman: oh? you still cant fit into my luggage, i can only bring 15kg there sorry. hahaha
aman: diam eh kau.
yenshan: hahaha alright, thanks!
yenshan: happy uh you?! hahaha!
jiali: (replied)
sihao: eh hao, stop it eh. hahahahaha menyampah tau!
farahfilza: hehehehehehehe ^^ alright thanks!
zavier: hello zavier thank you zavier
Nisa: hahahaha! okay babeh ;D
Fuzz: kau ok tak? hahaha!

okay wow wow i wrote three songs in two days
and i want to thank Ahdila's photography,
plus Zulfikar for the inspiration.
(:

and by the way, hot news.
Zul wants to be a princess. -___-
see? i havent forgotten you!
=D

my brother said he wants to start writing songs the way Hafiz (Jainal) and I write.
my brother uses guitar pro 7 so
hes not exactly figuring out the chords and melody
and okay zany macam faham, idk what im saying.
hahahahaha
he said he wants to write using power chords like Hafiz,
and make own melodies like me!
yay yay yay


and by the way, YKID IS BACK!
WELCOME BAAAAAAACK YYYYYYYY!
his dream came true!
he became a Mat Thailand for more than a week!
happy nampak, happy nampak!
HAHAHAHAHA
and yes you still owe me the Baybeats guitar pick tyvm, sonny.
ps. mom never lepak one okay.


oh my God, i'll be staying overnight in school tomorrow
and then i'll be flying off to Hong Kong at around four in the morning!
looks like there's no turning back.
i'm hoping i might catch a glimpse of Peter Pan in Neverland.
and i'll stalk him and bring home his red-feathered hat
or a strand of his hair or something.

oh my God people,
im seriously going to Disneyland.
for real, for shit.
isnt this what you've always wanted, Zany?!
sigh.

okay today's band practice sucked a little,
and i feel like stabbing tbff to death
because he missed practice again.

so the band has to learn a grade four song
(i said FOUR STARS HAHAHA WTF)
in three practices which is slightly impossible.
hahahaha
but impossible is nothing. -___-

anyway the piece is Fate Of The Gods by whatshisname
and there are three 1st trumpet solos.
they are very fatal.
Jam picked the second solo for herself
leaving me the third one which required flutter tonguing a high F. (or F sharp, idk)
(flutter tonguing = doing the RRRRRR sound with your tongue
and blowing into the trumpet at the same time)

Miss Yip the trumpet tutor eee-ni-mini-my-nee-mo
and picked me to play the first solo.
i swear today's practice is a nightmare
and idk how im going to survive in Hong Kong.

God, please stay by my side.
i dont want to die of embarrassment,
i dont want my valves to get stuck midway,
i dont want my legs to tremble,
i dont want to pee in my pants,
i dont want to laugh halfway,
i dont want to cry halfway,
i dont want to make a complete ass of myself
]=

i am very, very, very, very, very nervous.
and thank you Tiac Woo for your never ending kindness.
hahahaha!

today i ate mom's home-made burger for lunch
and Mrs Jean got mad with Sery and Audrey and me
for eating at the corridors,
she said we're councillors and 'this won't do'
and stuff like that so we went down to the canteen
and i helped Shaffiqa fix her guitar string and tune it
and Sery restringed (?) her guitar
and we talked talked play play sing sing
and Hafiz got excited when i played "My Favourite Jumper."


(old video of Ahdila and me singing and strumming randomly.
read description on youtube page tyvm)

by the way, who cares about Friendster now eh?
i swear i cant be bothered,
so here's my sincerest apologies for not replying most comments.
=/



okay i am lazy to blog.
l-a-z-y.
so goodbye people.
please please please,

pray that i dont get abducted in Disneyland,
pray that i will not die halfway through the performance or solo or workshop,
pray that i get to see Peter Pan,
pray that my two rolls of film is enough for my Holga,
pray that the food there is awesome,
pray that there's enough room in my luggage for never ending shopping,
pray that my bloody time of the month wont come,
pray that my roommate is nice,
pray that the hotel isnt haunted,
pray that i dont fall for a random Hong Kee stranger,
pray that i will miss you.



ps. Si Hao is calling me 'gal HK'.
he really mintak kene tendang, ya.

read between the lines, mthrfckrs
*smiles sweetly*

hahahahaha

tag replies for 22nd November
Nisa: hahahahaha SUKA?!?!?! i miss you too Nisa! =D what do you look like now? hahaha
audrey: hello AUDRINA!
dian: ok terima kasih ye Dian. hahahaha i will play you a song one day. (: hahaha!
tagger: YOU WANT WHAT?!?!?! hahahaha!
guest: hello! hahaha ,nice blogskin?! hahaha gosh, thanks! thank you thank you thank you! =D
aman: you cant fit into my luggage lah ass. hahaha
Syiqs: okay babeh. hahahahaha ^^
Shafu: suka eh, Shafu! hahahaha! then you thought its your handphone ringing or what? hahaha ok never mind. hahaha
SYAIFULLAH: PADS?! why would there be Snickers PADS?! Syaifullah ehhhhhh *kening tak relax*

ps. OH NO I'LL BE FYING TO HONG KONG

IN LESS THAN THREE DAYS!
(i count Tuesday in because i'll be sleeping overnight in school)

so i wont be blogging for approximately a week.
and i shall take this opportunity to thank people like Yenshan and FARAHFILZA(:
for reading my blog every day
and FARAHFILZA(: for even putting my blog under her favourites.
i dont know for sure if there are others,
but if there are, thank you.
(and if you want me to add your name here
for the great glory of having your name in my entries,
HAHAHA WTF, feel free to tag)

thank you very very much for minding my everyday musings and whines
and i know i get really annoying sometimes.
]=

still ...awwww, you'll miss me, wont you?
hahahahahaha

im getting a new pair of jeans today!
okay not much has been happening these days
but things are going pretty well, thank you Allah =D
i'll start revising in December
because i miss my tutor very much. *crosses fingers*
hahahahaha

eh?
okay this was supposed to be a 'ps.'
it turned out longer than i thought. -___-

okay bye bye bye bye bye bye

ps. i made my 3 year old cousin cry last night
peace to all

i've read every novel, every magazine lying in the house.
i need inspiration, i need to do something.
i can't just sit here all day.
i want to write a song.

i need new strings.
like, now.

when was the last time i completed reading a novel?
a few months back.
when was the last time i wrote a song?
a few months back;
Down By The Broken Treehouse
and it's not even frigging complete.

and where is my fluorescent orange guitar pick?!?!
i bet that lizard is behind this.
the point of it's existence is to make my life miserable,
i just know it.

i'm really annoying, aren't i?
hahahahaha

okay bye everybody.
stay beautiful

tag replies 20th - 21st November
xoxo: yay aku budak sial!
Nisa: tu pasal uh! nak?
Nisa: tu pasal uh! nak? hahahaha abeh tag reply exactly the same eh!
passerby: hahaha power uh? thanks babeh!
yenshan: different! rats are gross. mouse cuter!
tagger: *inserts name*... heeeeee, you uh! (:
IASFiiOna: hahaha nice to the max. now you know, go Candy Empire. $6.80 only =D
lufee: terima kasih ye. chill uh mag (?)
sihao: ya, nak tendang muke kau, ya! lu jangan step sense of humour ya. nanti betul-betul tendang, we'll see who's laughing (?) hahahaha
Syiqs: where am i? here uh. ok i will try.
Syiqs: ape ni woman! nak gift ke tak?! =D
nasir: hahaha ini blog under construction ok. :D
Huimin: finally it has found its true home!

okay first things first.

unlike all my previous entries,

i dont sound like a pre-pubescent 13-year-old here.

moving on.
i went online to check on my blog
and had the shock of my life when i saw that it was all white.

it slipped my mind;
i edited the codes with my eyes closed this morning,
because i was terribly sick of seeing my face
(almost) everywhere in my blog.
hah. loser.

now my blogskin is very boring, no?
say yes.
i didnt put much effort in editing it.
it's sloppy which is alright because i AM sloppy.
=/

but i think it's high time i changed my blogskin.
change is good, they say.
i crave change.

i swear sometimes i just feel like screaming
and running and losing control of myself.
i dont get to do that all the time;
there is only one person who would stay with me
the whole time i start having the momentum to scream on impulse
and lose control of my mind,
and that person would even willingly join me make a fool of myself.

(:

i want to do that every day.
i want to be able to run and sing and dance and shout and
laugh so hard that i choke on my own saliva
and i swear i dont care if i die in the process.

but hey, welcome to society.

honestly, my parents don't believe in screaming in public
and they dont believe in girls wanting to wear shorts
so that they can run around and

not get their dress torn at the same time.

i want people to not look at me like i am too old to have fun.
i just want to be happy.
i want to be free.

i am sick of this, all of this bullshit that i go through almost every day.
why do i let people's words bring me down so easily?
why do i allow even strangers to pull my self esteem down,
even by a smirk or a meaningless tag

of angst and pure stupidity?

eh shit why am i not fucking aware

that i am sitting for the most important paper of my life

in less than a year?
i feel that i am getting weaker, smaller, meaningless

and less significant as days pass.
its like i dont matter much anymore.

i dont know where im aiming,

i dont know my target my goal my dream
i dont want to end up nowhere..
why am i wasting my life in front of this fucking screen?



this stinks.
i dont want to care about anything anymore.

i feel so trapped.
i just want to get away,
"find some beautiful place to get lost."

i had a talk with mom and dad today.
i told them everything.
one by one, all my worries.
mom believed that i dont actually own, not even, a best friend.
she said that she never had a best friend before.
i started wondering how much that sucked,
then she said that it doesnt matter.

and come to think of it, yeah it never matters.

okay i think im getting out of point.
hah whatever, i've lost all my mood to blog now .
in any case, i love mom and dad very very very very very much.
im only fifteen yet at countless points of time,
i have this impulsive and desperate feeling

that sometimes they're all i have.
and it's okay.

people come and go, come and go and come and go
and some dont even bother to say goodbye.



ps. my phone is failing me.
i am officially sad.
]=

Sun is in the sky,
Oh why oh why would I want to be anywhere else?


hello beautiful world.
today, i am going to overuse this 'yellow-colour thing'.

i think i stole it from myspace.
hahahaha

i scratched my zit when i was asleep and
i immediately woke up in pure pain and agony.
]=
it's a fresh zit and i SCRATCHED it.
ouch ouch ouch

ok you didnt need to know that.

band is starting in three-four hours.
im not looking forward to it anymore,
because i checked the schedule and it will be tutoring all the way.
for the 58728147258th time, i dont like tutoring.
Miss Yip will make us work on rhythm again.
=/

eh no wait.
Haziq tbff just informed me theres no tutoring!
YAY I LOVE THE WORLD!
yay!


AND OH MY GOD
I'LL BE FLYING TO HONGKONG IN LIKE, THREE DAYS!
HELP ME ESCAPE FROM THIS
]=
but then again, i'll be getting a new pair of jeans
to wear to the trip.
eh eh eh! ^.^

okay you know what,
maybe i really should start being more optimistic.
imagining and worrying about the worst things that could happen
is what i do almost 72.8% (3 sig fig) of the day.



best video, e-v-e-r.
(finally found it! thanks Sofia!)

okay my brother took the last packet of Milo.
i only drank 1/6 of the last batch mom bought
so im pretty much gonna screw him for taking the last packet
and then i'll unscrew him because i am actually very kind. -___-
and thirsty.

last night was crazy.
there was, as Shari called it,
a Jurongville Reunion Party or something, on MSN.

he added the previous and current batch
of Jurongvillians to the conversation.
fortunately (or unfortunately) i was online.
so i got thrown in, too.
HAHAHAHA

there was Shari, Suhaira (who kept leaving), Zulfikar, Shaffiqa,
Mud, Ica, Nadia, Arai, Khairul,
Radzi, Abdullah, and more but i dont remember.
gerek dohhhhh

Radzi changed his display name to "siti."
which is Shaffiqa's display name
and their font colours are both black
so everyone got a headache.
i am a very slow person,
so i was lost throughout 85.6% of the conversation.

Shari cant make up his mind if he wants Zul or me.
Shari: ZUL! i want to tell you something
Shari: you are handsome.
Zul: thank you. eat alot.
Shari: i want to go steady with you

something like that
and a minute later,

Shari: SYAZ!
Shari: I LOVE YOU!
Zany: AWWWWWWWWWW
Zany: *melts*

and then Zul and i started arguing about who Shari wants more.
make up your mind eh, Shari.

Nadia calls me Wany and wow, she knows my littler cousins!
apparently her sister is their tutor.
hahahaha cool or what!
everyone's connected!
its a small world after all~


im posting this gay thing up again.
actually i dont think its gay.
i like rainbows.
they make me happy when skies are grey~


i have alot of catching up to do and
im missing truckloads of people.
especially Ykid, who'll be back around the day that i'm leaving.
AIYAH!
and i havent seen Asyiqin in centuries
and i wonder how Nisa is now.
i hope Mifdhal and Fat'hil and Mud are okay
and Nick is having fun in Thailand and Xiong Yao hasnt killed his brother yet (lol)
and Dexter is as cheerful as ever.
sigh sigh sigh

i found this in my photobucket:

my brother is lame.
zany is magic
zany is power
zany is zanyyyyyyyyy



ps. i just made my own milo! first time!
cool or what!

We are sitting on a wooden bench,
At six-twenty-eight pm
Waiting for the sun to set


okay currently i'm in a MSN conference/conversation thing
with Shari, Fat'hil, Khairul, Mifdhal, Suhaira and Radzi.
I MISS THEM ALOT ALOT ALOT!
Radzi's not talking and Haziq tbff just got added in.
and Taufiq too.
okay i swear i miss the malay class plus Shari
although i just saw him two days ago.
hahahaha!

okay so at first we started talking about kupang
and then we talked about kambing
and now we're talking about rendang.
WHAT THE

Mifdhal: siape-siape nudge lagi... aku keluar
Shari: alah majok
Mifdhal: diam uh
Shari: baby takmo gini lah sayang

okay i cant stop laughing!
hahahahahahaha!


band tomorrow!
excited excited exciteddddddddddddd~

fishnets.
i invested $4 on jellybeans for my brother
and he doesnt want it!
EEEEEEEEEEARGH


today i caught the sunset.
cool or what!

there are quite a number of pictures
but im only going to put these up uh eh.
uh eh uh eh uh eh


because we were singing Lucky by Jason Mraz
"so im sailing, through the sea,
to an island where we'll meet
you'll hear the music fill the air
i'll put a FLOWERRRRR in your hair"
HAHAHAHA
refrain from asking me why my face is like fug tyvm

hurray for GIFs!

1. what only, nonsense.
hahahahaha
2. a very oily zany.
okay that sounds wrong
3. cool or what, coooool
B-) , -___-



sunset and the 6.28pm bench.
sunset = four minutes of magik!
=O
hahahaha


"we are not crazy.
we just love singing and sunsets"
HAHAHAHA

sing uh, sing in the middle of the road,
until almost got hit by bus.
sing in the taxi, MRT, everywhere.
hahahahaha
-__-

and today was priceless, i swear.



ps. uh, okay. how do i say this?

go ahead and talk about me and how im like this and that.
after all, you cant bring down a girl
who thinks nothing of you.



i swear it's about time i stopped caring.
i promise, starting tomorrow,
you won't hear a single complaint from me.

hi, i am zany and i keep promises

well, at least i try my best.

tag replies, 17th - 20th November
yenshan: hahahaha yay thank you yenshan! =D mouse cute whaaaat!
SINCHEONG: okay! =D
marini: hahahaha welcome, zany will do thank you. hahaha!
Fuzz: hahahaha i fell really hard, k. i even kissed the TV screen, damnit.
Fuzz: join my brother's band lah, gila!
khair: YAY HI ADIK KESAYANGAN KU!
someone: hahaha am i supposed to be upset?
zaaty: hey gorgerous ^^ HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY NABILAH IZZATI! hahaha hiiii!
ks: siao ah? of course i remember you. hahaha alright sure!
Haziq: TBFF! hahaha sibuk ah kau. hahaha! yes lets quarrel!
sihao: ish hao, aku tendang your muka ten times baru tahu.
imTiikah}: okay babeh!
ks: hahahaha you too! =D
Madi: I MISS MADIHAH AMIN!
Madi: I MISS MADIHAH AMIN!
Madi: I MISS MADIHAH AMIN!
Madi: I MISS MADIHAH AMIN!
Madi: I MISS MADIHAH AMIN!
Madi: I MISS MADIHAH AMIN!
Madi: I MISS MADIHAH AMIN!
Madi: I MISS MADIHAH AMIN!
Madi: I MISS MADIHAH AMIN!
Madi: I MISS MADIHAH AMIN! hahahahaha wtf!
FAYEZ: hahaha thats why uh kau! takde kerja lain!
FAYEZ: ape nye cool? you okay or not?? hahaha
IGNATIUS: small small cute cute! =D how to zoom??
Passerby: in four days time!

yay i am not sick (!)
yay im meeting Madi and my grandmother and Zul laterrrr~
an ambulance just passed by my house!

.... okay its getting annoying.

last night Sery asked if i could make it

to Shaffiqa's house today to jam.
BAIK UH, TELL ME ONE DAY IN ADVANCE!
]=

hahahaha yeah babeh~
we're gonna start making music again.
it's about time.
yeh yeh Triple S revived!
-_-

HAHAHAHAHA




hahaha dug this video out from my youtube account.
this was like, four months ago?

aiyer so kental!
i swear we can do better.
AHAK *naidi style*

my sense of humour is dry today
so i'd really appreciate it if you at least pretend to laugh
k thank you.

i am so not looking forward to the Hong Kong trip anymore.
is it normal to feel this way
and eventually have the time of my life there?
i heard that it'll be boring in Disneyland
and i heard, too, that there've been cases of abduction.
IN DISNEYLAND!

...very disappointing.
its supposed to be a magical place!
okay, fine, disappearing acts are under magic, i know.
so yeah, countdown. *unenthusiastically*
off to Disneyland in FOUR days.
how do i escape from this?

okay so some people have been asking,
what in the sam hill are PODS?
lai lai i show you picture.



written on the back of the packaging of MARS PODS
(snickers PODS has different description) :

"You know when you're watching a movie with
people who have already seen it,
there always seems to be someone there
who tells you what's about to happen just before it actually does?
well, if you read on after the next full stop,
we're going to ruin all the good bits

in eating PODS snacks for you.

You put one in your mouth and
suddenly notice the crispy lightness of the wafer,
the creamy chocolate soon fills your mouth,
quickly followed by mouth-watering gooey caramel.
Back to the wader, the chocolate, the caramel.
The wafer, the chocolate, the caramel.
You swallow."

i like PODS and lasagne and cockles.
=D


anyway the lizard left my room.
it's not in the living room.
knnccbomgwtf, i kinda of overreacted last night.
i was walking to my room and when i was infront of my mom's room,
there was a sick TWACK sound and out of the blue
the lizard was on the door of the room,
right in front my face.

then it went and hid behind the glass cupboard display thing!
it was midnight but i was screaming at that point
and i almost dropped my guitar sioooool!
then i made my brother put my guitar in my room because
i was SO NOT going to go anywhere

near the glass cupboard display thing

because I. HATE. LIZARDS.
and im pretty convinced that they dont really like much either. =/

last night i talked to Fayez Mazlan on MSN.
:D he is missed!
we had TONS of catching up to do,
i havent went out with him since we graduated from primary school
and we havent had a proper conversation in about two months.
yay Fayez!

okay i stole some pictures of the Student Council camp

from Ignatius's blog.
thanks Iggy!


Care Bear, Care Stare!
*DSHHHHHHH*
Alamak, we hungry!

and yes i had Aidil in my group.
shut up.


Vann and i were dead throughout the whole photo-taking session
and i didnt have the mood to be happy.
i was starving and pretty much behaving like a spoilt brat.


okay now, trumpet section pictures!
pictures by Ahdila, thanks Ahdila!


minus Azura and Hazel.
see lah, absent some more!
hahaha Farah's head looks detachable
and no, shes not that tall.
HAHAHAHA
i am second from the right!
(abeh bangga!)


jumpshot: FAIL.
we are major losers.

Deon winner!
and he jumped with his hand in his pocket.
=O

Zhu Hao looks cute.

wait. did i actually say that?!

and come come i zoom in to Gao Xian and Haziq!


OH MY GOSH I FEEL LIKE PEEING



bonus picture!
stolen from Hafiz's phone!
=D


alright babehs!
might be blogging again tonight!

Don't waste your time on me
Your already the voice inside my head


i want to kill my tagboard. right now.
but i dont know how.
i think i'll be getting rid of it any time soon.

i dont know why but i am against tagboards at the moment.
so obviously im not replying tags
yet.
wait ah babehs

my legs are frigging cold now.
because the frigging fan is like, beside it.
frigging cold lah sial

okay im gonna try to overuse the word frigging, okay.
rofl, cool or what

this morning i frigging woke up at like, 7.30am.
and then i started to make my frigging way to school
for the frigging band NCO meeting.
i was frigging late uh.

i changed my mind,
im not going to overuse the word frigging anymore.

its more what than cool.

so anyway we made the souvenirs for the Hong Kong people
and we danced danced sang sang talked talked laughed laughed
and i tied a blue ribbon around Deon's head
and he looked soooo pretty!
=O

and i tied one around my head and Jasmine was like,
"YOU LOOK LIKE CHEERLEADER!"
and she scribbled "cheerleader zany phantom" on a paper.
and then we danced to
5678, Two Stars (i cant frigging remember the steps),
Whine Up and Down By The Lake.
mass dances are the sex.
-__-
dance dance until ponytail senget
and i made Hafiz tie a silver ribbon around it.
hahahahaha!

kay and then Joanne, Deon, Kai Wen and i
headed to KFC to get food for the NCOs.
and then it started to frigging RAIN.
=O

okay spent a few hours with Zulfikar after that
and i serious freaked out because people kept looking at me.
like, up-down.
and they didnt even smile when they did that.

their faces read "siao ting tong"
and about six people gave me that look today.
the KFC Chinese man, an Indian lady,
two Malay people on the bus,
one little kid at the MRT station
and an Indian man, who, apparently,
said my name!~!@#$%^&*()_+

i was too tired to bother
but i couldve sworn he said my name.
he looked right at me as i walked past him
and when i was about half a metre away from him,
he said, "Syazwani.." without taking his eyes off me.
but i was breathless and brisk-walking

because i thought i was late,
asssssss

OKAY IM SCAAAAAARED-UH

anyway I had my finger-licking Zinger meal with ketchup
and then we had no idea where to go next
but i insisted we went to the neighbourhood
with green blocks and green plants and green everything.
the place was pretty.
and there was a secluded playground!
when was the last time i ever set foot on a playground??!

and then we played in the heavy rain, on impulse.
i dont know what got into me.
for countless minutes,
i didnt care if i got down with pneumonia;
if i fell sick and unable to go to Hong Kong;
if mom questions my wet bra and panties and socks;
or if i looked fugly with wet hair and wet clothes.

hee, yeah it was lovely. (:


so now i am freezing in the room
and eating a cup of hot mushroom soup,
swelling with fear of falling sick.
=/
i MUST make it to the outing tomorrow!

okay i naturally suck at checkers

but Fuzz is now accusing me of

being lazy to entertain him.

i am really concentrating hard

but i just suck at checkers ARGH

OK, STRESSSSSSSSSSSSS~

ok i lost to Fuzz.

i am officially a (major) loser.

anyway i didn't blog about the Student Council camp.
you probably noticed. or not. hahaha
seriously, there's nothing to blog about.

im hoping that that wasnt the last time
i got to sit with my friends under the moonlit sky
in the middle of the not-so-vast parade square
talking about nothing and everything at the same time.
yes, that was the only part i treasured.

time flies, too fast when i dont want it to.
apparently i dont always get what i want.
i'll be sixteen next year.
and i'll be sitting for the most important paper of my life.
freaking out in 3, 2, 1 ...


"hey kakak,
joget depan TV tak agak-agak
ada boyfriend yang kacak
nama dia Matak
...
protect the wildlife!"



ps. Mommy, i know that you know that

we are running out of PODS.
how do i live?

I miss not being judged so easily.
I miss those days when I was smart.
I miss jumping on the trampoline with Marini in her backyard, back in Australia.
I miss getting those bursary awards on stage.
I miss the old Ginza Plaza when there was a huge playground on the rooftop.
I miss not caring about how i look.
I miss sleepovers and hot chocolate with Madi.
I miss telling everything to Madi.
I miss dancing freestyle behind locked doors with Madi.
I miss playing 'Harry Potter' with Madi.
I miss major secret-sharing sessions with Madi.
I miss making a fool out of myself in front of Madi.
I miss Madi making a fool of herself.
I miss Madi.
I miss canteen food.
I miss sleeping in my room.
I miss my old phone which never restarts on its own.
I miss random toilet trips with Audrey.
I miss lepak sessions with the former Peer Support Leaders.
I miss spending quality time with my brother.
I miss the trombone boys.
I miss playing on a swing.
I miss singing for the 'Triple S' girls (!).
I miss playing pretend games with my little cousins.
I miss finding a random corridor in school and jamming with Mudriqah.
I miss exploring new places in Singapore.
I miss riding on the back of dad's motorcycle.
I miss my brother's old hair.
I miss sitting at the hideous playground with Ahdila.
I miss not having the 'need to buy new clothes'.
I miss singing with Rachel and Sandra at the carpark during recess.
I miss watching movies with my family.
I miss strangers not giving me the youre-too-old-for-that look.
I miss classic Disney.
I miss Fayez and his forever nonsense.
I miss aunts and uncles not saying "wahhh dah anak dare!!!"

I miss Ampio Musica.
I miss exchanging 100+++ text messages with Mifdhal in one day.
I miss sleeping on a bed.
I miss Ykid calling me "MOM!!!!!!!!!!!" all the time until i get embarrassed.
I miss not feeling the need for education.
I miss Kamarul's listening ears.
I miss reading every night until I fall asleep.
I miss Huishi and Haizul and Xin Xia being in the trumpet section.
I miss the TV, and SCV.
I miss my grandfather.
I miss the feeling of self-satisfaction.
I miss flying to Neverland.
I miss talking and talking and talking to Vania.
I miss my fluorescent orange guitar pick.
I miss going for ice-cream with Jasmine and Huimin after band.
I miss being able to tell someone everything.
I miss Hayley William's orange hair.
I miss the feeling of being so happy that I can explode.
I miss eating Nutella from the jar itself.
I miss playing with Barbie dolls or Bratz or whatever the in-thing was.
I miss playing in the rain.
I miss being taller than Deon.
I miss doing asessment books.
I miss quarrelling with Haziq *tbff over something small and stupid and childish.
I miss Neverland.

I miss doing something for the first time.
I miss being able to think of songs to write about.
I miss lipsynching and air guitaring in my room behind closed doors.
I miss Asyiqin's laughter.
I miss listening to Sudharsan babble about his theories on deja vu.
I miss talking to myself.
I miss feeling good when im out with my cousins.
I miss not feeling tired all the time.
I miss dancing to Lazy Town songs with Hafiz.
I miss blowing the trombone.
I miss blowing bubbles.
I miss having a dream to follow.
I miss playgrounds.
I miss Peter Pan.
I miss toys.
I miss Snickers.
I miss Zulfikar!
=D

wow, i pretty much typed all that without thinking.

*tbff: temporary best friend forever (oh the irony!)

In another moment down went Alice after it,
never once considering how in the world she was going to get out.
- Alice in Wonderland

tag replies 15th - 16th November
passerby: hahaha yep, thanks on the behalf of my friend! =D
IGNATIUS: whoohoo thanks!
Huimin: dont waaaaaaaant!
marini: keep reading! =D
yenshan: hahaha i'll bring a mouse back and call him Mickey -___- hahahaha
passer: no, we're not together.
IGNATIUS: REPLIED!
Haziq: and youre proud of that?! hahaha okay tbff!
Fuzz: cool uh abeh?
aiden: so what. like i cannot *sticks out tongue*
Aisha: WHY NOT?! hahahaha Zany would be fine, thank you. yes i respond to Zany. hahahaha
aman: WTF?! hahahaha okay im freaked.

happy birthday daddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love you many many!
:D

okay so Marini asked how i got the name Zany.
no, Zany isnt really my name, you fools.
hahahaha
okay lai lai, story telling time!

one night, i was browsing the dictionary.
i wanted to find an interesting word for my new email adress.
and i found the word zany.
so i combined it with insane
and somehow got inn.zane.
soon after, i forgot zany even existed.

a few months later,
Khair and i were exchanging comments on friendster,
and i gave him:
K!
H!
A!
I!
R!

and he replied:
S____
Y____
A____
Z____
(the underlined parts being adjectives that describe me,
for example, SWEET, lol okay no im not sweet hahaha)

apparently, he got stuck at the letter Z.
he wrote a question mark after Z instead.
and then, we discussed it on messenger
and he browsed the dictionary
and eventually found the word zany.
and thats how i got reunited with zany
and thats how,
my name became
S
Y
A
Zany

syazzany.
get me?

how i became Zany PHANTOM is another story too.
hahahahaha
see, at one point of time when my hormones were whack,
i fell for the cartoon character, Danny Phantom
okay, stupid right i know
but seriously, i fell head over heels for him
(not as hard as how i fell for Peter Pan back when i was five.)

anyway, Khair and i were talking
(yes, Khair again)
and i was gushing about how Danny has really cute hair
(or eyes, or butt, i cant recall)
and he snapped, something like,
"aiyah you uh! danny phantom, danny phantom!
you become zany phantom sudah!"

and it was a complete revelation! *makes holy sounds plus light effects*
(yes i know the word revelation is a little overused in my blog
but i cant help it if my life is full of revelations)

so since then, i stand as Zany Phantom.
(:

okay moving on.

i dont know why im saying this but Hafi likes spoiling
the sensation i get whenever i eat grapes.
seedless grapes, especially.
she'll go, "actually right, seedless grapes arent healthy.
they are genetically modified to be seedless so blahblahblah"
she goes on and on and on until i officially lose my appetite
and this has happened for more than four times, i swear.
hahahahaha

anyway Yusri has an admirer/peminat uhhhh!
CHEY CHEY CHEY CHEY CHEY CHEY CHEY
*eyebrows vibrate*
hahaha okay, videocalls with Yusri is the sex.
*thumbs up*
and stop wobbling lah boy. its not cool
hahahaha

by the way, i told my my cousins, the little ones,
that Troy died in High School Musical 3.
i dont know if they believe me or not
but Iqah seemed convinced.
i told them that Sharpay wanted to kill Gabriella
but Troy sacrificed his life and died for Gabriella instead
so indirectly, Sharpay killed Troy
which is ironic because Sharpay wants Troy.
hahahaha i dont know, i pretty much suck at story-telling.
maybe thats the reason why they refuse to believe.

IM SERIOUS, TROY IS DEAD!
D:

anyway, Ykid has left for wherever he's left for.
ten days without Ykid eh.
]=
this post is a little late.
but yeah, have a safe journey, sonny,
and you still owe me my Baybeats guitar pick!
taik bacin!
*smiles sweetly*

it is official.
friendster is getting on my nerves.
maintenance for what uh uh uh
in the end it'll end up imitating myspace or facebook or the likes.
cyberspace is killing me.

today i had dinner at the Sakura buffet thing at West Coast.
there was food, lots of them! =O

i feel very pampered
but Sakura cheated my feelings.
they labelled the brown ice-cream, "CHOCOLATE"
but it was actually coffee.
]=

but its okay, i still felt like a princess!
=D

i saw two squirrels playing at the park!
i think they're a couple
and it was seriously adorable!
they were playing catch on the tree!
=D
*screams*
ooooooooooh its a sqerrrl!


oh look im posting this gay thing up again!

today i annoyed my mom by asking her redundant questions.
i saw a sign that said Meeting Point 1
and i kept asking her what it was for.
and i asked her why the Sakura buffet thing
was secluded and built in the middle of nowhere
and how come we actually need to wait to be seated
when the place was already empty.
which actually makes sense.

i remember asking her if i could stay overseas
for a few months when i get older and have the money.
she asked why would i want to do that
and i said i just want to be free.

and idk, i thought the conversation was really dumb
because i couldnt think of enough reasons why i want to stay overseas.
i had somewhere peaceful in mind
and she snapped, "where you want to stay, Malaysia?"
ok what!

and mom got PODS!
PODS PODS PODS!
i love PODS!
if you dont know what PODS are, i feel sad for you
i dont know why theyre called PODS
but they taste awesome, so awesome that you wont stop eating all forty pieces of them!
there are snickers PODS, mars PODS, kitkat PODS and idk what lah
go to Candy Empire and look for yourself k.

these days, i think kids are very attracted to me.
my little cousin Trisha kept wanting to sit on my lap yesterday.
today a little boy was walking and he collided into me.
and one time i placed my hand on my hips
and a few seconds later a boy smashed his face onto my elbow
and he covered his eye and over-dramatically acted like he was about to faint.
-___-

and then a little girl touched my butt.
she touched my BUTT.

should i freak out yet?
hahahahaha

okay bye, camp tomorrow!
NINE DAYS TO HONGKONG!
hey ho the dairy oh (?)

ps. yes. i would really really really appreciate it
if 'passerbys' stop tagging questions like,
"are you and _____ together?"

its okay if youre my friend and you're just wondering,
but if youre merely a 'passerby',
you dont need really need to know, right?

BTW.
Yusri Bin Jumari here.
hahahaha.

tag replies 11th to 14th November
passer: no, i'm not with lufee.
lufee: hahahaha aku nak bunuh passerby satu satu
YUSRY: done!
yy: HAHAHAH YAY YAY YAY! thank you!
hafiz: whoaaa you can fly every day!
rad: tsk! i hate you ]=
SYAIFULLAH: im not like her. she's like me
strangerGEEK: uh, yeah see ya in SYF too!
yy: hahaha chey chey popular or what!
SYAIFULLAH: SO NOT! hahaha i like it but it's old!
Bandmember: huh?
tagger: elelele! wildcat! hahahaha!
yy: *kening naik naik* hahahaha
AidilJ: okay aidil! hahahaha (Y)
hannah: more like pathetic! hahaha like lost girl ]=
Huimin: eh, shhh.
Haziq: temporary bestfriend-ku! hahahaha! it seems to me that readers are decreasing. -___- hahaha
YUSRY: eh pakcik. tak paham lah what talking you!
YUSRY: hahahaha welcome (?) lol, cool or what
yenshan: alright, trying my best now (:
Huimin: no, can choose one only. HAHAHAHA!

MUHAMMAD ZULFIKAR ABDUL SAMAT!
*sings* let's make it til the end alrighhhhhhhhhhhht?
=D


okay i think every one of you should listen

to Decode by Paramore.
i sound typical but i swear, that song gives me chills.
=O
and im tired of people treating Paramore
like it's made up of only Hayley Williams.

band was good yesterday, almost awesome.
we did the instrumentation for the Hong Kong trip.
i think Eagle Bend will sound really good. :D
1st trumpet: Jasmine, me
2nd trumpet: Sery, Deon
3rd trumpet: Farah, Mardhiyyah
4th trumpet: Haziq, Gaoxian

IMAGINE! :D NICE RIGHHHHHHHT
-___-
hahahahaha
i just hope Jam and i can manage cause we'll be playing
the 1st part throughout the whole repertoire.

Miss Yip said that we're going to need lots and lots of air
and Jam replied, "then we'll bring one bag of air!"
HAHAHAHAHAHA
okay i found that funny, somehow!

and Jam had chemistry with this KFC counter guy (HAHAHA WTF)
and when she was telling him her order,
i sang "When you look me in the eyesssssssss" right in her face
hahaha and the counter guy was like "....?"
HAHAHAHA awkwaaaaard!

and in KFC there was this stripper guy who wore tights

(cause he was going to the Jurong swimming complex thing)
he was topless and he just wore those

waterproof tights thing
and imagine guys wearing tights!

lol, "NOT cute". hahahaha!

didnt he have any idea how obscene his crotch looked,
with his THING protruding out like that?!?!?!
it was an eye-sore and Huimin loved it.
HAHAHAHAHA!

and ive identified the blaster(s) of trumpet section.
unfortunately he/she/they is/are going to Hong Kong.
yeah watch out uh you.
-___-

we marched yesterday!
with instruments!
so yeah, i guess its official that

i'll be marching in the first row, my extreme right.

Mr Chua said its an important position,
but he said the first row people are doing a good job.
i want to slit my wrists

because i cant march while blowing the trumpet.
i am a loser.
-___- hahahahaha

hahahaha and Mr Chua shouted at Jam
when she asked him an innocent question.
im guessing he has issues but i cant be too sure.
Jam: *asks question*
Mr Chua: NO!

-__-
hahahahaha

Sery and i played chopsticks during sectional tutoring.
time stands still during tutoring! ]=
Miss Yip uhhhhh~

anyway, chopsticks is a game that requires eight fingers.
hahahaha,
its like we each start with two chopticks, one on each hand.
the maximum number of chopsticks a hand can hold is four.
after that it will die unless the other hand

has sufficient chopsticks to spare.
i dont think you understand what the heck im saying
because i dont either.
its okay.

and then i wanted to play a new game!
i wanted to play chi-ko-pak the game
but i shouted, "EH LETS PLAY CHI-KO-PEK"
because i forgot the name of the game
SHIT lah paiseh, Hermione couldnt stop laughing at me
]=

you know what,
i really really really really really love Ahdila's euphonium tone.
it warms my heart and makes me want to pee.

hahaha cool or what!

okay the TV is officially freaking me out.
1.15am and BAM!
it dies!
and all i've left are the sounds of the fan to

accompany me in the dark.
but i like sleeping in the living room!
somehow i feel that it is healthier. (?)

Mifdhal asked me if it ever crossed my mind that
the lizard from my room might have crawled out to the living room.
no, it hasnt crossed my mind until you mentioned it,

thank you very much, Mifdhal.

you are way too thoughtful.

i can see why the lizard loves my room so much,
it is pretty damn cool, after all.
B-)
hahahahaha wtf?!


see?
this was way back when my room had no lizards,
those happy memories
(:
HAHAHAHA

i used to love lying down on any random spot on the floor of my bedroom
because the wooden floors feel awesome under me.
now i dont do that anymore
because im afraid i might look to my left or right
and see a lizard lying down beside me.

it's a terrifying thought.
]=

okay im really really craving McFlurry at the moment.
ohhhh MCFRRRRURRRYYYYYYYYY

OH BY THE WAY
7th DECEMBER ALMOST AN ACCIDENT GIG!
apparently the lead guitarist left the band last night.
so filling in the spot is FREAKS OF ADROIT,
also my brother's band,
consisting of Hafiz and Zakir.
genre is grunge. i think?
so yeah, cool or what



eh, lets count the days down to the Hong Kong trip.
TEN DAYS TO GO!

"8 letters, 3 words,
and when you leave it really hurts"


okay babehs i have plenty to blog about, i think.
since this is my 14th post, (-____-)
i shall celebrate with a looooong post.
idk why, 14 is a not-so-significant number
but its an even number so its a good thing, k.
(?)
i honestly have no idea what im talking about.

before today,
i was a happy girl.
[=
hahaha ok, exaggerated.
im still happy :D


these few days, i eat lasagne almost every day
and watch TV till 3 in the morning.
TV is like a whole new thing to me!
i havent sat and watched at least an hour of TV in months.
hahaha loser right?!

but my TV is failing me.
it automatically dies at around 1++ am every morning.
maybe im thinking too much,
but im convinced that lizards are behind it.
theyre out to make my life miserable, i just know it!

so yeah a few days ago i stumbled upon a blog.
i had the shock of my life when i realized that the blogger
actually copied entries from another blogger's blog,
and pasted it on her own blog,
claiming those entries to be her own.
(i happen to know both bloggers)

its freaky how people have stopped being original and creative.
i dont like it, it bothers me.
i wonder how i'd feel if someone copied

a whole chunk of my entries
and pasted it on her own blog.
i'd hunt down that blogger and show up in her room at 3am
with a stake, and stab her to death.

so, thankfully my friend (whose entries got copied) is a kind soul.
hahahaha

okay anyway the other day i finished my plate of lasagne
and was watching TV at 2am in the morning when the TV died.
hahaha yes i was eating lasagne at 2am!
COOL OR WHAT!

anyway the TV died and i got freaked
so i lay on the mattress listening to Always by VIVA (a friend's band.)
and i was concentrating deeply on the lyrics
when i got a call from a random number.

the guy on the other line claimed he was Mr. Rauf,
and that i gave him my number the other day at Mac.
WHICH WAS SO IMPOSSIBLE BECAUSE
I DONT GIVE MY NUMBER OUT RANDOMLY LORRRR

yeh so fine, Mr. Rauf hahahahaha

turns out it was Afiq hahaha ass

oh yeah speaking of VIVA, the song on my blog is their song
and no im not trying to promote, k.
hahahahaha i just like it. alot. :D
and the one after that is by Zulfikar!

speaking of blogsongs,

Lufee claimed that when things get mundane,
he likes to hop over to my blog and listen to the songs.
NICE RIGHT OMG OMG OMG
but he doesnt read my blog entries.
-_____-
i sad.

speaking of my blog entries, Yusri the little boy
(hahahaha)
asked me for tips on blogging.
and then he proceeded to dedicate his whole blog entry to me.
*wipes tear* im so touched

CLICK TO GO TO YUSRI'S BLOG
HAHAHAHAHA



OMG THATS YUSRI HOW DID HE END UP IN MY BLOG?!?!
okay. *feels stupid*
-_____-
hahahaha! nonsense!

i took that photo after hours and hours
of searching for his friendster account,
hahahaha.

HE TOOK MY ADVICE TO BE OPEN-MINDED
AND A LITTLE WILD AND UNREASONABLE AND LONG-WINDED!
GOOOOOOD BOY!

hahahaha COOL OR WHAT!
(okay you may have noticed, recently i kept using that phrase
i cant help it if it annoys you then sorry lor)

so anyway Yusri keeps pestering me to

upload another cover on youtube.
hahahahaha i have a fan! =O
and now he wants me to cover

a High School Musical duet with Zul.
hahahahaha

HE VERY CUTE LAH (yusri, not zul. HAHAHA WTF joking :D )
and he has this new 'haha' emoticon on MSN
that looks more like "ARGH!"
and he thinks its cool but nothing can beat my "zAnY" emoticon.
FYI, i have an emoticon with my face on it okayyyyy
B-)

HAHAHAHA

okay video call with Yusri. hahaha




(yay, we're normal again! hahahaha)
cool or what!

what. -___- hahahaha

okay anyway i'd really like to thank Deon and Sery
for trying very hard to calm me down
everytime i got ticked off during band earlier today.

deon: ahhh everytime you not happy just think of me!
zany: WHAT!
deon: really! you will smile!
zany: *laughs*
deon: see?

dear Deon, laughing isnt smiling.

hahahahaha Deon has a really flexible face
and today he showed off his legs again.
and thanks Sery for the encouraging words
but maybe i just have to accept the fact
that i think i pretty much suck at leading the section,
so yeah.

hahahaha and we took section photos today!
Gaoxian and Haziq = classic!
hahaha i'll get the pictures from Ahdila's camera soon, k!

by the way, Haziq claims im his new best friend
because he thinks im gonna be famous, which is ridiculous.
and Haziq also claims that by blogging about him,
it will enhance my interesting blog ratings by 2.67%,
which according to him, is almost 3%.
so yeah, im trying my luck. hahahaha

and we tried out the set piece today.
i think its boring.
but more exciting than 2007's Sunrise,

no doubt about that.

today i got sad on the bus home

because Ahdila didnt want to talk to me.
]=
hahahahah and then i alighted at her stop and
we parted ways and we kept waving to each other
it was really foolish! hahahaha!

and then i met my brother at Mac and we tried the new McFlurry!
CHOCOLATE MCFLURRY!
CORNETTO SIOL OMG OMG OMG
*so overreacting*

nah it wasnt that amazing.
it didnt give me sensations like how Roald Dahl gave me
when i read Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
and Willy Wonka's scrumptious treats!
even READING is mouth-watering!
imagine actually TASTING them!
OMGGGGGGGG
okay, overreacting again.

Roald Dahl, sigh, an inspiration to mankind (?)
especially people like Radyamansyah
who thinks he'll end up a fine storyteller one day.



ok, back to the new Cornetto McFlurry.
it costed me $2.70 and it was just okay.
OK WHO AM I KIDDING, IT WAS AWESOME
GO TRY IT

STEP ASIDE, ZINGER!
CORNETTO CHOCOLATE MCFLURRY,
ITS THE NEW HOT!
(although i daresay its more to cold than hot
but its an expression so get over it)
-____-

ok just go try it.

i promise you sensations ^^

okay im getting bored.
bored of my sickening rants.
so goodbye everybody dont bother to tag, except Haziq
because he owes me one

(Y)

Yes, terrible things happen,
but sometimes those terrible things:
they save you.


once again, i cant stand it
when people with private profiles
on Friendster give me comments and expect me
to send them a friend request
in order to be able to reply their comment
so that i wont seem like some
hostile, antisocial, sour nincompoop who doesnt like making friends
so when i send them a friend request
they go "HEEEHEEHEEE HELLOOOO ZANY
THANK YOU FOR THE REQUEST
YOU ADD SO DO TALK YEAH HEEHEEHEE"
jerk why would i want to add you

ah well well, surprise surprise,
i am a hostile, antisocial, sour nincompoop
who doesnt like making friends.
so HA-HA!

... am i a hostile, antisocial, sour nincompoop
who doesnt like making friends?

no actually i dont think so.
hahaha im just a loser who's apparently really, really bored
and cant think of anything interesting to blog about.

i plan to have lasagne tonight.
i'll be sleeping in the living room again
because im scared the evil lizard from hell
might still be lingering in my room.
i hope it doesnt enter my Yak Pak Water Guns bag!
]=

i have many treasured belongings in there
and i dont want lizard marks to contaminate them!
ACK IM PARANOID HELP

okay i'm free tomorrow.
i was free today but i wasted the day by watching The Simpsons
(YES OMG I WATCHED TV TWO DAYS IN A ROW! *claps* )
and i was online the whole day.

and then i tried to promote Almost An Accident's gig
but only Abu agreed to go.
but because Abu agreed to go perhaps Ykid is going to.
and then because i asked Ykid about it,
Ykid told me to ask Lufee.
so i asked Lufee and yay hes going!
hahahaha so that makes three people!
three plus zany is four!

just in case you might be interested,
www.myspace.com/almostanaccidentsg
gig at L Cube on the 7th December, Sunday.
tickets at $6, door.

please note that their myspace page is stupid
because they dont accept any help from me.
plus the vocalist will be different on the actual day.
they've got a new vocalist i think... i HOPE.

i made a new friend today.
i keep making new friends.
hahahahaha

HAH SEE, I AM NOT A HOSTILE, ANTISOCIAL,
SOUR NINCOMPOOP WHO DOESNT LIKE MAKING FRIENDS!
*thumbs up*

ah and oh my god people what is up with all these questions
about me with (inserts name) ?
it's a different guy all the time and i just dont get it.
people even care so much TAG about it,
"are you and ____ together?"

yeah, but still, i appreciate you asking me
before proceeding to gossip among your peers or something
because that would make the situation worse, wouldnt it?
so yeah, thumbs up to you too
*thumbs up*
and for the record, i am single.
get that in your head, thanks.


anyway i got pictures from Hua Dong!


look at how tall Deon is.
look at how pathetic i look beside Deon.
-____-
and im supposed to be older than him by a year.
*wipes tear* they grow up so fast


Deon is really asking for a smack from me.
*wipes tear again*
such a potentially (?) lovely photo


HAHAHA HUA DONG!
okay we rock that much


jasmine's masterpiece.
HAHAHAHAHAHA

i re-did my friendster background today
because it was so cramping my style.
hahahaha wtf (?!)
i mean, what was i thinking; bling-bling?!


you know in school they have these Tetra-Pak bins.
no, the bins arent made of tetra-pak, you fool.
tetra-paks are meant to be thrown in there for recycling.
theyre placed right beside the bins that are meant for plastics.
and as you know, plastics arent biodegradable.

and for some reason the people in school just cant the message.
if the bin is meant for tetra-paks,
throw the frigging tetra-paks in there!
why waste your energy throwing the packet drinks
into the bin meant for plastics when you can spare
a few seconds to save the earth?!

after all, the distance between the two bins are like,
what, 2 centimetres?!
seriously, what is up with Man?!

earth is our home, dont you want our home to be safe?
chey like understand only, zany.
-____-

all right, great my remaining November
is taken up by band and councillor stuff.
hah, although half the time im too busy acting busy.
i have four free days left in November,
including tomorrow.
whoa, pathetic much


gosh, it's been a while since i actually ranted in my blog, eh?
I LIKE IT I LIKE IT


[EDIT]

Dearest somebody,
I can't possibly keep being your second choice
when you're always my first.
]=

tag replies 9th - 11th November
hafiz: eleh! do you know where TINKERBELL lives? :D
SYAIFULLAH: hahahaha change lah change lah! no i straightened it. yes its different. hahaha
yenshan: okay! :D
Indra: hahahaha okay hi. :D
huishi (:: reallayyyye? i think it looks ordinary. hahaha but thank you :D
jasmine: NO YOU DONT! ]= as in, no you dont look stupid. yes you love me (?) hahahah!
yy: hahaha mom mah. must nag nag nag!
yy: hahaha you THINK right!
yy: *malas nak layan* HAHAHAHAHA!
DINIY: YEAH LAH THATS WHY! gross. IT WATCHED ME DRESS UP DISGUSTING RIGHT GAH!
SYAIFULLAH: match? what match? hahaha
Eugene: welcome :D
passerby: no, friend. (:

1. mom made nasi lemak today.
2. sleeping in the living room wasnt as bad as i thought.
3. i finished up two sachets of instant mushroom soup...
4. ...IN BED! (actually i slept on a pathetic mattress)
5. its like a complete revelation! *makes holy sounds*

okay i still dont know why im typing like this.
i think im screwed.

i dont like the fact that i have to tell little lies
so that i get to go out and have fun.
i dont feel good.

and screw me.
screw me with a capital S for being a selfish bitch
who doesnt understand herself
and says the wrong things all the time
resulting in her feelings getting hurt
and then pushing the blame to everyone else.
go suck balls

and im missing alot of people.
sitting on top of the list is Madi.
second is Ahdila, of course.
i havent had one-on-one conversations with her since forever.
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and third is... well.
i dont know.

and why am i sick now?
i should be sick on the 16th to 18th.
i got it all planned!
i would miss the Student Councillor camp
and then before i know it, i'll be in the plane to Hong Kong!
does anybody know how to fall sick?

anyway i am almost broke.
i really need to start saving.
but i need new clothes.
i havent spent a single cent on clothes since the holidays started.
i dont know what to wear anymore.
i dont know how to dress anymore!

how does that feel?!?!?!

mmmm. you know.
there's this girl.
i knew her since i was six months old.
but lately, i dont even know her anymore.

...

gosh, i really have issues, huh?

Here's to this moment, this moment in your life
where nothing at all is perfect,
but everything feels so right.


1. home-made lasagne does NOT taste good
2. there is a lizard in my room
3. i dont know how it got there
4. i am NOT sleeping in my room tonight
5. i dont know why i am typing like this

i am hopeless
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everything feels strange now.
im not sick anymore but my head feels funny.
WHAT IS THIS FEELING GO AWAY

i hate lizards.
why do they exist?
why is there even a lizard in my room?
doesnt it know i detest lizards more than anything in the world?
i am never going into my room ever again.


oh dear i think i forgot how to blog.
what am i supposed to say?
this feels awkward.
when was the last time i blogged?
yesterday -____-
ok i feel stupid.

Zul is talking to me like i am an IMH patient.
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i think i am starting to sound like one.
helpppppppppppp


this thing is so gay but i like it



[EDIT]


OKAY I SAW SOMETHING THAT

MADE MY HEART SKIP THREE BEATS.

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(extract of printscreen of friendster profile
of some random girl that viewed me)

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(extract of printscreen of my friendster profile)

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YEAH *CLAPS* WHOOHOO,

VEEEEEEEERY ORIGINAL!


look here, i am zany and i am not like you.