Don't waste your time on me
Your already the voice inside my head


i want to kill my tagboard. right now.
but i dont know how.
i think i'll be getting rid of it any time soon.

i dont know why but i am against tagboards at the moment.
so obviously im not replying tags
yet.
wait ah babehs

my legs are frigging cold now.
because the frigging fan is like, beside it.
frigging cold lah sial

okay im gonna try to overuse the word frigging, okay.
rofl, cool or what

this morning i frigging woke up at like, 7.30am.
and then i started to make my frigging way to school
for the frigging band NCO meeting.
i was frigging late uh.

i changed my mind,
im not going to overuse the word frigging anymore.

its more what than cool.

so anyway we made the souvenirs for the Hong Kong people
and we danced danced sang sang talked talked laughed laughed
and i tied a blue ribbon around Deon's head
and he looked soooo pretty!
=O

and i tied one around my head and Jasmine was like,
"YOU LOOK LIKE CHEERLEADER!"
and she scribbled "cheerleader zany phantom" on a paper.
and then we danced to
5678, Two Stars (i cant frigging remember the steps),
Whine Up and Down By The Lake.
mass dances are the sex.
-__-
dance dance until ponytail senget
and i made Hafiz tie a silver ribbon around it.
hahahahaha!

kay and then Joanne, Deon, Kai Wen and i
headed to KFC to get food for the NCOs.
and then it started to frigging RAIN.
=O

okay spent a few hours with Zulfikar after that
and i serious freaked out because people kept looking at me.
like, up-down.
and they didnt even smile when they did that.

their faces read "siao ting tong"
and about six people gave me that look today.
the KFC Chinese man, an Indian lady,
two Malay people on the bus,
one little kid at the MRT station
and an Indian man, who, apparently,
said my name!~!@#$%^&*()_+

i was too tired to bother
but i couldve sworn he said my name.
he looked right at me as i walked past him
and when i was about half a metre away from him,
he said, "Syazwani.." without taking his eyes off me.
but i was breathless and brisk-walking

because i thought i was late,
asssssss

OKAY IM SCAAAAAARED-UH

anyway I had my finger-licking Zinger meal with ketchup
and then we had no idea where to go next
but i insisted we went to the neighbourhood
with green blocks and green plants and green everything.
the place was pretty.
and there was a secluded playground!
when was the last time i ever set foot on a playground??!

and then we played in the heavy rain, on impulse.
i dont know what got into me.
for countless minutes,
i didnt care if i got down with pneumonia;
if i fell sick and unable to go to Hong Kong;
if mom questions my wet bra and panties and socks;
or if i looked fugly with wet hair and wet clothes.

hee, yeah it was lovely. (:


so now i am freezing in the room
and eating a cup of hot mushroom soup,
swelling with fear of falling sick.
=/
i MUST make it to the outing tomorrow!

okay i naturally suck at checkers

but Fuzz is now accusing me of

being lazy to entertain him.

i am really concentrating hard

but i just suck at checkers ARGH

OK, STRESSSSSSSSSSSSS~

ok i lost to Fuzz.

i am officially a (major) loser.

anyway i didn't blog about the Student Council camp.
you probably noticed. or not. hahaha
seriously, there's nothing to blog about.

im hoping that that wasnt the last time
i got to sit with my friends under the moonlit sky
in the middle of the not-so-vast parade square
talking about nothing and everything at the same time.
yes, that was the only part i treasured.

time flies, too fast when i dont want it to.
apparently i dont always get what i want.
i'll be sixteen next year.
and i'll be sitting for the most important paper of my life.
freaking out in 3, 2, 1 ...


"hey kakak,
joget depan TV tak agak-agak
ada boyfriend yang kacak
nama dia Matak
...
protect the wildlife!"



ps. Mommy, i know that you know that

we are running out of PODS.
how do i live?