mhm, so much for 'seeing me online'.


by the way,
thank you Radyamansyah.
yeh i owe you one. or two. or three.
hahahaha ok you rockz bye

Oh love, hold this



rock and roll, baby,
don't you know that we're all alone now?
i frigging need something to blog about!


some unknown and foreboding force (lol) pulled my mood down
and its not something i would like to expatiate on.

one, i dont want to share too much about my life.
(like as if i havent been doing that
for the past four years of blogging, ha ha ha)

two, i dont even know what the heck is bothering me,
oh my goodness people, i'm THAT retarded.

and im being so morose and unpleasant
that it's starting to bug me.
somebody just make me happy, please.

every little thing is giving me these annoying premonition(s)
and ugh i feel like killing myself or something.

or maybe cut my head open and detach my brains
from all the weird nerves in my hollow head
and place it on the window to let it have some air and give it a little break.

or maybe eat so many pods, 3 or 4 or 5 or even 6 (!) at one go
and i'll try to swallow them without chewing
while my salivary amylase hydrolyses
all the starch present in the sweet delicacies
and i'll end up choking and dying
surrounded by a pool of half-digested starch and boli and saliva
and ... okay, this is beyond gross.

(the mindmap Enzymes i was forced
to do for tuition has invaded my mind
and found a permanent place to reside)

ok no more biology talk, zany.
save it for Mr Anand when school reopens this Friday.

i'm neither anticipating Friday, nor dreading it.
whats there to dread and whats there to be excited about?

i think i'm going to keep typing until it's eleven
(because eleven is my bedtime, wtf, thats why)


i think i've finally cracked.
i actually headed down to CD Rama
(haha, sounds like some random mama shop or something)
to get a copy of the Ting Ting's limited edition album with the DVD thing
(which apparently doesnt work in my computer).

and you know what?
i rate it a five!



The Ting Tings: We Started Nothing

the tunes are infectious,
i swear i couldnt stop my feet from tapping
and if i could, my toes would tap instead! -___-
it's mind-blowing, mind-boggling, mind-everything
and it's the best album i ever listened to since Paramore: All We Know Is Falling!

idk, its just so worth my twenty-one bucks
(despite the fact that the DVD thing
doesnt work in my computer damn it)!

i like how they give the impression
that they dont really care what other people think of their music.
i think theyre annoying.
but i like them just the same (:


i've been spending alot of quality time with my brother lately.
i like him.

i just need to find a way to convince him
to get his hair chopped off, like seriously,
before the fashion police tracks him down or something.
hahahaha.
just joking lah bro.
you know you rock right? -___-

yay, he has sent me the pictures of Saturday, like, finally.
im only uploading some.
and not even one of them contains my flat and greasy face yes yes.

we were at the Sakura buffet thing at West Coast
and i ate truckloads of seafood to last me a lifetime!

picture credits go to myself, and Ngee Ann Poly's Nikon D80.
hahahaha
lol it was my first time taking pictures using a Nikon i think.



a Zwan-shaped dragonnnnnn
=O
cool or what!
(idk how i shot that)


(taken by: Zwan)
mommy so sweeeeet


Hafiz also sweeeeeet


Zwan uh... wish i could say the same for you.
hahahah wtf?


salmon salmon salmon-ella!


daddy's failed attempt to do a Shut Up & Let Me Go, HEY!
(somebody make me shut up, please)


the pakciks.
haiya so cute uh.


haiya so pretty uh


Hafi drew on a napkin.
he says hello (:


they were dancing to
the disgusting Happy Birthday song


and if i were to zoom in this picture, you'd die laughing,
and we wouldnt want that, would we?


you know what?
i think The Show by Lenka is the most perfect song
to play on the guitar, while singing.
im so doing a cover, cheydebahbahbahbahbeeeee
(?)

btw, student council has officially gotten on my nerves.

and these days it's so frigging hot!
is winter over already?!!?!?!?
hahahah righhhhhhhhhhhhht
-___-
but seriously though, it seems like
everyday i need to practically swim in my sweat
and its as gross as it sounds, yes!


ah yes, tomorrow is the verdict.
Mrs Chee will find out that we've been practising

Flying High instead of Eagle Bend for SYF, all along.
and i hope she doesnt blow up.
because it'll be such a frigging waste of two weeks

if we end up playing Eagle Bend.
and if we end up playing Flying High,
we wouldve wasted approximately two months.
or more.

oh we will decide our fate tomorrow
*prays hard*

oooh, the original copy of the lyrics of Our Song - Zulfikar & Zany
that i gave to Hafiz was thrown away by his sister
and he went into a depression
just because it was "the original copy" .
ha ha ha?
he treats it like Willy Wonka's golden ticket or something
hahahaha


anyway i think Twilight is a major disappointment.
why are people going crazy over it?
i really need to know,

because i want to look at it from your point of view.

is it because Robert Pattinson's so-called charming face
practically conquered the whole film?
ok fine he is quite charming, but as a vampire.
only as a vampire!
hahahahaha

still, i'd take Taylor Lautner (whatever his name is)
the Jacob werewolf guy, any day.
but Ahdila forbids, so its okay.
she claimed hes hers.
hahahaha, girls! psh!

omg i have no plans for countdown.
pathetic or what!
but seriously though i think i'd rather be tucked under my blanket
devouring a good book,

with Dilly the toy dinosaur reading over my shoulder.
hahahaha

and then before i fall asleep at the stroke of midnight
i would let the sound of The Ting Tings
wash away all my woes and refresh my mind for a good year ahead.
i hope. (:





and yes Hafiz, i will close one eye, or both.
and i'll try not to fret although
thats basically what i do 96% of the day.
ah. well.
]=

rock and roll, baby
don't you know that we're all alone now
i frigging need something to blog about


some unknown and foreboding force (lol) pulled my mood down
and its not something i would like to expatiate on.

one, i dont want to share too much about my life.
(like as if i havent been doing that
for the past four years that i owned a blog, ha ha ha)

two, i dont even know what the heck is bothering me,
oh my goodness people, i'm that retarded.

and im being so morose and unpleasant
that its starting to bug me.
somebody just make me happy, please.

every little thing is giving me these annoying premonition(s)
and ugh i feel like killing myself or something.

or maybe eat so many pods, 3 or 4 or 5 at one go
and i'll try to swallow them without chewing
while my salivary amylase hydrolyses
all the starch present in the sweet delicacies
and i'll end up and choking and dying
surrounded by a pool of half-digested starch and boli and saliva
and okay, this is gross.

ok no more biology talk, zany.
save it for Mr Anand when school reopens this Friday.

i'm not anticipating the reopening of school
neither am i dreading it.
whats there to dread and whats to be excited about?

a day out with a mamat johore bahru.
hahahahaha


ps. Twilight = disappointment

Sorry i'm not home right now
I'm walking into spiderwebs
So leave a message and i'll call you back



(yeah obviously i'm out of pictures)

i bought The Bridges: Limits of the Sky
and so far only one song stole my heart.
chey. im serious though



seriously all the songs have either the word 'heart', 'love' or BOTH.
it's a little annoying, to speak the truth.
and the songs are very, very forgettable.
kinda sad, really.

the ballads make me want to tear my hair out and cry
not because theyre sad ballads.
sad, yes, in a pathetic and boring way
which makes me want to
pull off the earpiece out of my ears and disinfect it.

"love love love heart heart heart"

i think they need to overproduce their songs a little,
like, The Veronicas. or Lillix or something, i dont know!

add more oomph to it.

gosh im better off listening to the Ting Tings!

(shut up and let me go! and btw i so love her outfit)

because Noisettes will probably take a loooong time
to release their next album and it's driving me crazy
because i cant listen to Wild Young Hearts anywhere
except on their myspace page.

i wish Rihanna was more to rock.
i dont know, i think her single
Shut Up and Drive was really good.
(oh my god did i just say that??!?! yes i did. unfortunately)

i really miss listening to female lead vocals.
like,



Lillix
(i know they look really hostile in this picture)



The Faders
(they broke up, the drummer went to join Mika (!!!!)
i mean hello, its MIKA.
whos not really that bad lah, really.
i actually own his album! =O
everybody's gonna love today, love todayyyyy~ )



No Doubt
(the best, no doubt)



The Kills
(not that exciting, but still okay.)



Noisettes
(probably the best female lead ever.
she plays bass in the three-man band)



Zolof the Rock and Roll Destroyer
(theyre just plain awesome although
the lyrics make you want your money back lol)



Paramore
(dohhhhhhhhh, who can resist Hayley?!)



The Like
(i have no idea what happened to them.
theyre good and thank God,

Madi has returned my copy of their album haha)

i like female bands, grrrl power! -___-
but it seems like the good ones
or potentially good ones have actually faded away.
like The Like. ]=


and yes i was so bored to the extent
that i searched for pictures of artistes which almost never happens.
(except in Hayley's case because she's just too gorgeous)

and i think i really need to start looking for
Zolof the Rock and Roll Destroyer songs again.
im starting to miss their pointless
1 minute and 26 seconds long songs.
-____-
hahahahahahaha

ok guess what.
now i have a lights out.
11pm.
what the (!)
school isnt even open yet!

i am fifteen and i have a frigging lights out and its the holigays!
i mean, holiDays!

I CANT SLEEP EARLY, ITS IMPOSSIBLE,
PLUS I JUST DRANK REDBULL TODAY
I CANT POSSIBLY FRIGGING SLEEP BY 11!!!!

eeeeek no more late night MSN conversations
and video call sessions with cyber adik!!!!
]=

okay The Bridges are starting to annoy me.
twenty bucks down the drain, ta ever so.
somebody kill me please.

okay im listening to Noisettes now
power power power
i think you all should listen
www.myspace.com/noisettesuk ,
click it. you know you wannaaaaa ^^

anyway on MSN i had as my personal message:
all i want for christmas is a gay best friend

and it seemed to raise alot of controversy, chey!
hahahahaha
i seriously want a gay best friend because
generally gay guys seem like such caring and down-to-earth people.
not exactly a girl trapped in a guy's body
but more of... idk, just somebody who doesnt think
having the 'yayapapaya' attitude is the IN thing or something

and have ego the size of a polar bear. or bigger!


okay i got a new watch.
its those POPART ones that retail at ten bucks!
yay ive got a watch for ten bucks!
its black with a little turquoise!
because my Adidas watch that stopped functioning was turquoise
and im still faithful to it.
im a woman of loyalty you see. *rolls eyes*

yeah.


OKAY FINE, I CONFESS!
wearing a watch that isnt functioning is really driving me up the wall!
its like cheating my feelings
whenever i look at my wrist expecting to see the time
but its stuck at 6.28pm!

plus everyone kept asking me what the time was.
and whenever i ask people what the time is,
they kept saying "YOU HAVE A WATCH WHAT!"

which is really stupid although its human nature to respond that way.
like someone's wearing a watch and they ask you what the time is, you'll go,
"what the fuck is wrong with you" hahahaha

but if you think of it from my point of view,
if i had a FUNCTIONING watch,
i wouldnt even be asking around what the time is right??
RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT!!!! IM ALWAYS RIGHT.

ah plus the superglue i put on the broken strap thingy didnt work!
how disappointing.

superglue let me down.
i always thought superglue had the power to cure all!
so i guess im not always right, after all.
how disappointing, too.

(and darn it i keep typing superflue)


okay seriously i think i talk too much. sometimes.

my main intention to wear a not-functioning watch
is to annoy people but i turns out im the one getting annoyed.

i think i really need to get my head checked.
]=


ah yes today i spent some quality time with my brother.
he treated me alot today.
because he sayang me.
he sayang me alot, i know.

*smiles sweetly*

uhhhh
i think i have an issue with people who use travellators (?)
hahahaha
it really annoys me when im standing on a travellator
and people behind me are practically pushing their way to the front
i mean like, if you want to walk,
walk on cement lah dey
why walk on the travellator

which is meant for either tired or lazy people?!
psh, seriously people.

there i was, tired from all the walking
and people behind me are trying to get to the front
as if its the olympics finals of the 100m race or something.

ah yes i'll be watching twilight tomorrow!
=D
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=D
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=D

i hope i'll be a good girl in 2009.
i told my brother i hope i wont do anything stupid,
especially on impulse.

it seems like those things keep occuring
to teenagers my age these days eh.

one second youre doing nothing wrong
and the next second youre doing something you know you shouldnt
but youre still doing it anyway
and the next second you go
"oh shit i shouldnt have done that"
and the guilt and regret and anxiety

is eating your nerves inside out

how does that feel?!?!

and then you get ZITS!
zits zits everyday get zits!
for once i'd like to be pimple-free, pretty please.


have you ever looked in the mirror expecting to see yourself
but you dont?
i have!
i was closing my eyes while combing my hair (why?)
and when i opened it i expected to see myself in the mirror
but i didnt.
because i wasnt standing in front of the mirror.
i thought i was but...
i dont know it was a little scary.
hahahahaha ok whatever.


(i really dont know what to blog about.)

i had multiplying chills while playing Flying High
with the band during practice yesterday.
and for the first time i wished sectionals wasnt so short.
i was mighty dissatisfied because... aiyah.
i better dont start or i wont stop ranting.
=/

Flying High gives me adrenaline rushes
and spasm kept striking despite the fact that
i just suck at Flying High. PERIOD.

but i cant help it,
its so exciting and it gives me goosebumps,
i like it i like it i like it i like ittttttt

and after band i spent hours and forever talking to Ahdila
about nothing and everything.
gerek lor.


okay im listening to No Doubt now.
I LOVE NO DOUBT CAUSE *sings* IM JUST A GIRL, LITTLE OLD MEEEEEEE~

*coughs*


okay never mind.
i havent sung in centuries.
i want to sing.
but i cant.
my parents are in the living room.
i shy



ALL THE BOYS SAY
HEY BABEH HEY BABEH HEY~
GIRLS SAY, BOYS SAY,
HEY BABEH HEY BABEH HEY~


ps. i think Zul is jealous of the annoying little streaks
of natural brown in my hair.
like yeah, totally.
B-)

speaking of hair,
i couldve sworn i saw a white hair on the left side of my head this morning!
oh shit?!?!?!?!

late night video calls with Yusri are the sex, no doubt!
yay, cyber adik!
hahahahaha



(actually there were 369836435 more pictures
plus the one with Aidil and Rara, hahahaha gerek or what)

i have a confession.
i love Nuradila Bte Abdul Alim very very very much.
ah and Madihah Bte Mohd Amin too.
and Muhammad/Siti Zulfikar Bin Abdul Samat!
oh and Fayez Bin Mazlan too uhhhh
and Jasmine Lim Hui Min
and Al-Hafiz Bin Hosni and Deon Chien and Yusri Jumari
hahaha
oh and you and you and you and everyone else okay byeeee!

Noisettes has a new single!
cool or what!
i think it's my new addiction
but i cant find it anywhere!
]=

wild young hearts, ♥
"i'm not who i was last summer"

i wont be updating today because i cant think straight.
its like someone split my head open
in the middle of the night
and stole my brain
and replaced it with a block of brick or something.

or worse!
a PILE of bricks!
beacuse my head feels very heavy
and i think it might explode anytime.

i hope it doesnt explode.
well not today anyway.
because im supposed to be in school tomorrow
and then spending quality time with my brother on Tuesday,
and on Wednesday i'll be watching Twilight.

i'm currently in this state where even the littlest sounds,
from the hum of the ceiling fan
to the chirping of birds,
begin to practically perforate my eardrums.

i think im having allergies from last night's overdose of seafood.
my body's itching all over.
or im just possibly making excuses to miss band practice tomorrow.
hahahaha.
*smiles sweetly*

i bought school shoes yesterday.
those velcro ones from Everlast.
basically because i think North Star shoes from Bata
have a grudge against me.

i dont see anyone else's North Star shoes tearing apart after a month!
and its not my fault if im just very active and like running around.
shoes are meant to last, right!

whats the use of using shoes that predictably fall apart

in less than half a year?

somemore these are school shoes lehhhhhhhh yennadei!

and the reason why i bought velcro ones
is im just plain lazy.
period.

and the sales guy who helped me get my shoes reminded me of Yusri.
freakishly so...
except that guy had a little goatie.
but Yusri can grow a goatie too right!

anyway Johore has a new checkpoint thingy.
i waited for a lifetime to get past the secuirity people!

it was like the seventh layer of hell, i swear!

thank God i had my trusty ampeefour (Mp4)
and yesterday i realized that Stuck On You by Paramore is quite a masterpiece.
i wonder why i hadnt noticed before.
go listen to it or something.

oh yes we had lunch at Secret Recipe
and it was mighty disappointing.
why?
because the mushroom soup smelt (and TASTED) like rubber,
thats why.

anyway mom and i had a stupid conversation

when we were in the MRT station.

Zany: Ibu, certain aunties wearing tudung keep staring at me one kind.
Mom: who??
Zany: got lah. just now one aunty just stared at me. im scared.
Mom: alaaaaa theyre just jealous that youre pretty.
Zany: no, thats stupid.
Mom: ok fine. theyre just jealous youre young and theyre not.
Zany: ok thats better.

and then we were quiet, as if a few seconds earlier
i hadnt been petrified by a makcik tudung's cold stare.

ok my brother just said something dumb.
"you know, Dad is moving to Brunei."

*rolls eyes*
whatever lah eh.
hahahaha


i wasted three hours in school last Friday
doing some student council stuff.
oh wait, WHAT student council stuff?!
i wasnt even told to do anything! -__-

i was called to school for some class leader training for orientation next year
but when i arrived in the hall at approximately 2.10,
some sec one and two councillors were getting ready to dance.
yes, DANCE.

that sort of aggravated me, because
i wasnt going to spend three hours
of my young and tender life dancing in the hall
when i could be at home doing something more useful,
like, reading a book
or watching Dexter's Laboratory
on Cartoon Network or something.

so we danced 5678, Two Stars
and when they wanted to teach the sec ones the Whine Up dance,
my good reputation of having

the patience of a saint was tarnished.

i couldnt tolerate them any longer.
i took my Pretty Things book down to the canteen and started reading
because that's far more beneficial.

i think i sat and read for two hours accompanied
by some people who came and went,
like Fat'hil and Afiq and then i went back to the hall because
i wanted to make an excuse to leave.

apparently some of the bored seniors
like Denard and Kendra and Ahdila and Sery
were planning to explore the school.
so we did and the school is so small and mundane
that we only bothered to explore the second and third level.
wow, adventure!
-___- hahahaha

in the end we just hung around in 1A
and just talked about the most nonsensical things.
and there was one point when i wanted to say "plural form"
but my tongue was lazy to enunciate
so i ended up saying "flulal flom"
aiyoyoyoyoyoyo.

yeah and we argued over the toilet sensors,

whether it was a sound sensor or a motion sensor

and we even did experiments, and it was all stupid, really

because who frigging gives a damn

if the toilet sensors were sound sensors or motion sensors?!?!?

hahahaha

oh look i ended up updating!
hahahahaha
how sweet -___-

ok bye

"I put my chin up but my self-esteem disagree
I can’t control myself my conscience taking over me "



hello everybody, i am in serious need of a life.

actually i do have a life,
which consists of a heavy schedule of being glued to the computer,
completing chores chores and more chores,
spending money on food i dont really need and still starving.

by golly, i got so bored today that
i jogged the whole house and felt like dying after five minutes.
(and my house is like, a small four-room flat -____- )

plans to watch Twilight yesterday was cancelled.
plans with Fayez yesterday was cancelled.
plans to complete my tuition homework yesterday was cancelled too.
im not sure why, exactly.

actually things arent as bad as they seem.
but the sucky thing about having nothing INTERESTING to do,
is that, thoughts that are (sometimes) complete and utter rubbish
will invade my mind and i start pondering and worrying
about stupid and redundant things when, really,
life's a breeze.

okay fine, it isnt.
okay stop talking.

in Singapore life isnt a breeze,
when youre surrounded by workaholics and materialistic gits
and shameless two-faced bastards.
hahahahaha. chey zany macam paham.
... actually im serious. -___-
hahaha

hmmm. you know what?
i wonder why im not fun anymore.
i wonder why im broke now,
considering i dont spend much, actually.

i wonder why i keep sleeping late these days
when there's obviously nothing to do when i stay up late anyway.
lack of sleep will only give me heavy eyebags,
greasy hair and of course a greasy face.
and since when did i even care?

i wonder why i always feel pressurized to dress 'right'
when fashion has no boundaries, really.
in the inspirational words of Chris Crocker,
"it's not what you wear that makes you who you are"
(thank you, Chris, you are a complete light to the world *wipes tear*)

i wonder why some people dont treat me as well as they used to
and i wonder why i dont treat them as well i used to either.

dont get me wrong, i try.
i do try.
but their stinging words just seem to piss me off so easily
that im starting to wonder why;
am i just too sensitive and touchy
or are they in serious need of an attitude makeover?
lets bet on the former.



my imaginary friend Afiq has this habit of calling me
at the most random times,
for no particular reason at all.
and i got back at him yesterday afternoon.
talk cock uh, he.
hahahahaha

"zany got belly,
jump around, what its gonna be,
move, shake2, headache"
-Afiq, hahaha

i think i want a treadmill installed in my room.
i dont give a damn if theres lack of space or if it costs too much.

at least running can train my stamina and diaphragm.
hahah, since when did i care about these things?!
hahaha!
i dont even exercise once a week.
(note to self: start frigging exercising already!)

anyway, i really want a treadmill
but obviously treadmills dont grow on trees.

money doesnt grow on trees either,
thats probably the reason why im broke now.
if money grew on trees i think i'd still be broke,
especially since Pull and Bear outlets exist in Singapore.
hahahaha

i got myself a new Pull and Bear top!
meeee likeyyyy~
and poor Zul got dragged from Fareast to Taka to Wisma to Taka again.
im not good with directions so i would be lost if he wasnt around!

the top i initially wanted had a tear!
(im terribly disappointed in Pull and Bear,
but the sales lady was awesome,
Pull and Bear ftw!)

i think i really cant stand to shop at other places.
i am very fussy when it comes Cotton On's quality
and Forever 21's fabric makes me itch,
and Topshop's prices are downright ridiculous.
and most shops in Fareast sell the same stuff.
i dont care about other shops,
i've had it with shopping!

hahaha shopping annoys the decaying shit out of me, i swear.

i think i'll get my clothes from Pull and Bear only,
starting from now.
it's the only place that satisfies me.
yay Pull and Bear! =D


anyway ive got superglue all over my fingers
because i was trying to glue a badge pin thingy
to the piece of lion foam my brother got me.

its the shape of a lion and its made of the foamy material.
its super adorable! thank you brother!
lionlionwiselion! =D

Fuzz says it's not cute
so im going to happily strangle him the next time i see him.
*smiles sweetly*

i stuck it to the strap of my yak pak water guns bag!
and i tried fixing the strap of my Adidas watch using superglue too!
i hope it works!
*crosses fingers*

i've been eating a hell load of junk these days.
Wednesday night's junk was the best.
Shaffiqa, Hafiz and i had three pieces of Subway cookies each.
oh my God, i couldve sworn i was in Heaven.
hahahahaha
(although i imagine Heaven to be full of Pods and lasagne... and fairies)

oh yes.
on Wednesday night i was at Victoria Concert Hall,
watching Singapore Poly band's last concert with Mr Leonard Tan.
i think he is a very respectable man
and whenever he jumps on the podium
my heart skips four beats because
it feels like the stage is going to collapse under him anytime.
(which isnt a good thing cause i was sitting at the front row)


if Mrs Chee was to pull a stunt like that, we'd all be doomed.
DOOOOOOMED, I TELL YOU!
im not joking.

anyway, pictures!
captured by my pathetic 2-megapix phone...
in random order.

(Hafiz actually believed that

i was going to turn up in a tube and hot shorts)


Deon and Sery.


Deon wants to pinky promise.
wow body


Farhan went, "hidden mickey!"
*points to my phone*
LMAO


oh stop pouting, princess


Fiona was scared of the water.
i dont know why she even went there in the first place.
hahahahaha!


Hafiz and i.
wearing shades in the train.
hahahahaha kind of stupid, really.


Deon and Sery again.
i love this picture i luvluvluv itttttt


Sery, drum majorette!

Wednesday night wasnt boring,
i had fun with Hafiz and Deon and Fiona
and Gwen and Shaffiqa and all the rest!

plus the Singapore Poly band was amazing.
the saxophonist blew me away
when he played 'Imagine'!

he wasnt cute in terms of looks
but it was in the way the tone of his saxophone made me warm all over
and the charming way he swayed along to his music
and the band in the background...
it just sent chills down my spine!
*fangirl scream*
i want autograph!

we actually thought we lost Shaffiqa on the way back home!
everyone panicked and we were like, screaming her name.
Deon got so worried that he ran back to the concert hall to look for her
because she didnt have a phone.
and then Hafiz spotted her,
merrily skipping along the pathway,
without a care in the world, chey!
hahahahaha!

turned out,
she was tantalized by the bridge and the colourful lights on the building
which reminded her of the mesmerizing Symphony of Lights in Hong Kong.
so she walked ahead, thinking we were right behind her.
and trust me, we thought we WERE right behind her.
hahahahaha

it was hilarious and everyone was like shouting,
"YOU SHOULDVE TOLD US!!!!!!!"
=D

*sigh*
shaffiqa, shaffiqa.

*shakes head for dramatic effect*

ah, this afternoon i'll be seeing the new batch of sec ones!
i'll be taking care of 1N1 alongside Denard
and Shihwee and Kokloon (i think) .
its gonna be a blast B-)
hahahahaha .. i hope.


alright.
this entry turned out to be longer than i intended it to be.
hahahahaha

bye beautifulsssss

Here's to this moment, this moment in your life where
nothing at all is perfect, but everything feels so right.


cheese and whiskers!
my favourite watch broke!
the thing on the strap that holds the strap in just broke!
the whole strap is made of rubber,
its the Adidas small watch thing, in turquoise,
i got it for my birthday a few years ago!

drats!
i was planning to wear it the whole of next year,
because the watch isnt working anymore
and i have this really annoying habit of wearing watches that dont work anymore.
because i dont need watches in the first place.
and i like to annoy people.

Person: eh, what time?
Zany: *looks at watch* dont know?
Person: uhm, you have a watch? (dohhhhh)
Zany: *gives the hello-its-not-functioning-(dohhhhh)-look*

like its the most obvious thing in the world!
=D
tell me im awesooooome

anyway now i dont have a watch that doesnt work.
i dont want to go through all the trouble
of taking out the batteries from the Spiderman
and Superman watches i got from Hong Kong...

i think i'll fix my Adidas strap with tape or superglue or something.
yeah, that'll do.


oh look, my brother and i wore matching shirts.
hahahahahaha



cool or what.

you know,
until presently,
i never realized how much my thumbs mean to me.

this morning i was clearing my bowels in my mom's bathroom
(because my brother beat me to the kitchen bathroom)
and i was sifting through the many tools and lotions and potions
on the shelves in there.

i ended up examining the razorblade and
i stupidly tested the sharpness of it using my left thumb.
and i got myself two cuts.
on my left thumb.
yay me.
-___-

and then i bought another can of tuna with mayonnaise
after a thousand and one reminders from Zul
that i shouldnt take in excessive MSG.

i was opening the can and for some unknown reason
my right thumb slid across the lid of the can
and ended up getting cut by the opened part of the lid
okay i suck at describing scenes okay

you just need to know that it was frigging painful,
and like a paper cut,

(i swear i hate paper cuts)
i could only feel after about nine seconds.
and there was blood!
omg i havent bled in a loooong time.
i think im a little too pampered sometimes.

and the pain is more excruciating in water.
i was so afraid to touch soap,
but how can i shower without soap
and how can i shower without
getting both my thumbs wet?!
hahahaha

so yeah.
bottomline is i love my thumbs!
=D


i still love tuna + mayonnaise!
and i still love Zinger
even though McSpicy makes me feel accomplished!
... does that make sense?
yes it does \m/



i dont celebrate Christmas but i like the Christmas spirit
plus this song makes me happy, somehow.
especially the background vocalists!



ah yes! i demand you to watch this!



*melts*


by the way.
anyone recalled me saying that
i was going to start studying in December?
nobody??
ok best!


so long and good night!



[EDITED]

i am so frigging p.o!

frust frust frust frust frust frust frust frust
frust frust frust frust frust frust frust frust
*screams*


it's okay, take deep breaths, zany
remember, you swore to God you have the patience of a saint.

deep breaths now, deep breaths

"The thought of you just makes me smile"


hi zany
whats new and how are you
nothing's new im good thank you

(aftermath of nonstop intake of MSG
and sugar sugar endless sugar i loooove sugar
ack its driving me crazyyyyyyyy)

all my hair's falling off,
all my sanity's running out,
if i ever had sanity, that is. =/

today, without thinking, i said to my tutor,
"i used to be so clever"
yeah i think, something like that.
hahahahaha,
an extremely debatable statement indeed.

i spent approximately forty-two minutes and seventeen seconds
in the toilet clearing my overloaded bowels,
which is something i havent done in multitudinous years.
wawaweeeeeewa~

my brother said i am having a stomach ache now
because i ate McSpicy two hours ago.
it was my first time! =D
i am swelling with pride! (Y)

i lead a sad life, i know.
it's okay.
choices have consequences hahahaha

gah,
im still having chills from the nightmare this morning.
omg Lufee, the little girl's gonna haunt you tonight at 3am.
she's going to scream and all the glass's gonna explode
and i wont be there to save you!
hahahahaha

by the way, i found a new addiction (!) :
"the Reema song" ,
by Jacob Morais feat. Zulfikar!

"i just want to hold you tonight"
(:


oh, and i'm hooked on All I Want For Christmas Is You.
by Mariah Carey.
seriously, what's wrong with me?!

okay the computer's lagging as usual.
i swear to God i have the patience of a saint.


ps. hello everybody.
meet my new imaginary friend.
i call him Afiq.

(:

The happiest people don't have it all.
They just make the best out of what they have.


yummy yummy yummy yummy yummy
im eating sushi!
i wasted a dollar on the one with octopus legs
and it tastes perfectly revolting.
ok gross i got octopus legs all over my skirt, ew.

anyway i've removed my tagboard.
i dont want, and dont need a tagboard.
tags are cheap thrills anyway
(but i like cheap thrills, like fruit-scented markers
hahaha what the)

so, now i am no longer active on friendster
and i dont own a tagboard.

talk to me on MSN if you need anything,
although i would most probably ignore you
like how i ignore my other contacts.
hahaha juuuuuuuuuuust joking.
no, im serious.
-___-

and if you dont have my email, ask around.
someone's bound to have it.
hahahaha


band cheated my feelings on Thursday.
i was getting hyped for Captain's Ball
but Mrs Chia took almost all the time
to make us practise Flying High,
which isnt even our choice piece in the first place.

im fine with playing Flying High, really.
but it just frustrates me when i think about
the hours and efforts wasted
on perfecting Eagle Bend.

going with the flow will be much harder this time,
but i have no choice.
i will work hard; its the only option.
i wonder how im going
to get the trumpeters to do well in this piece.
]=
heeeeeeelp~

and for pete's sake!
our 'two-weeks break from band' is ruined,
thank you very much and no,
i STILL cant get over it. GAH

ok never mind.
i'd be a fat slob without band anyway.
plus there'll be class leader training next week
and the week after.

i'll be taking care of 1N1 for sec one orientation next year.
im worried :/
because im a shy cat when it comes to meeting new people and
what if nobody shows the least inclination to talk to me?
]=

i hope i wont be having that time of the month
during sec one orientation.
i'll be too afraid to run around and
mood swings are no doubt a distinct possibility.
pray hard, zany


okay look what my brother found!
it's referring to 7th Dec, my brother's gig.
Pedro = my brother
SFD = Suspected For Devotion
Pedro's bassist = Zakir

source: haunting-words.blogspot.com

i died laughing!
and this blog is owned by a guy,
the bassist of a band called Complex Juliet!
HAHAHAHAHA

my brother and i took time to study Zakir
in the videos of that evening,
and its true, Zakir DID dance when he played the bass!
and yeah i guess it was kind of cute the way he shiok sendiri
and dropped his pick and tried signalling

to the audience to pick it up for him.
hahahaha!

a guy actually called him cute,
i wonder what the girls gathering around him thought of him!
wah seh!



i feel sorry for drummers.
no one ever gets to see their faces in pictures!


anyway.
the other day during the last few minutes of band practice
we played Charade (bye bye CIP hours -____- )
and Deon volunteered to go to the front to act
and then Hafiz shouted my name and volunteered me.
-___-

Deon and I had to act out the theme: Movie.
Sery told us to act Twilight,
but how?!?!?!
she said Deon would be the Edward Cullen
and i would be whatshername.
how could Deon possibly act as a vampire;
give me a bite on my neck?!?!
hahahahaha he doesnt own fangs

ok and then Sery changed the movie to Beauty & the Beast
and i bowed in the princessy way (not convincing)
while Deon made an ugly face.
nobody guessed right.
kinda stupid, really.
and our only option was to dance while Deon made the ugly face.
but we didnt!
we stood there holding out our hands
and staring at each other very awkwardly.
hahahaha


yesterday i headed downtown, Escape.
the adult ticket costs $8.80 now, amazing!
hahahaha!
and i swear the rides are boring
and i'd be bored to tears if i wasnt in the company of Zulfikar.
hahahahaha
Escape is so colourless and prosy to the extent
that we had to pretend we were in Disneyland
in the dead of summer. hahahaha

the Haunted House is awesome now!
cheap thrills! hahahahaha!
it used to be stupid and plastic,
but they've improved it, alot.
i couldnt stop screaming
and im normally a brave girl okay!
(hahahaha wtf)

plus its like a maze in there!

the person in charge of the Haunted House
allowed me and Zul to go in,
just the two of us and all the while i had to stop myself from peeing,
somehow, because the ghost kept following us everywhere!

there werent any rides that spun me upside down inside out
so its not as thrilling as, perhaps, Genting.
i am appalled at the fact that
Escape's Burger King doesnt sell meals / onion rings!
what absurdity!

ah anyway we got wet from the Wet & Wild ride (dohhhhhh)
and amazingly my bag didnt get wet
and the people from the Viking queue clapped and shouted to us,
"WHOOOO NICE REACTION, MAN!"
because both of us were covering our faces hahahaha,
penakut number one!
and they went "EWWWWWW" when i spit into the water.
hahaha, sound effects, cool or what.

it wasnt very decent of me
but for pete's sake,
the water was so obviously contaminated and
it went INTO MY MOUTH.
hahahaha

i still have plenty to blog about yesterday
but i think i'll keep the memories, safe, in my heart
chey ape aku merepek. hahahaha




i dont get why people are against Chris Crocker these days.
he's open-minded and daring and he makes perfect sense,
so what if he's gay?!
i like gay people! theyre nice, generally.
hahaha, like Charlie from Pretty Things,
the guy with the 'GAYER' t-shirt.


anyway,
i swear i am addicted to tuna.
this is not good.
im like a cheapskate, more low-budget version
of Fiona from A Cinderella Story.
she likes Salmon and she even imports Salmon from Norwegia.
is Norwegia and Norway the same?
ah anyway i like TUNA!
chilli and mayonnaise are the best!

i dont fancy black pepper tuna!
i'd rather smear my face with aqueous ammonia
than eat another can of black pepper tuna!



okay seriously everyone's going crazy over Twilight.
i need Thursday to come, quick.
Twilight movie date with the self-proclaimed vampire!
hahaha!

this morning i headed to school to get my math textbook.
so, i was alone today.
sometimes, i like being alone.
because it's nice to set my mind free
and divert my attention to the humans and nature.
very nice! =D hahaha

today, i saw a lady fall in the bus. i didnt laugh! (:
and i saw someone wearing a white tiger costume
accompanied by two girls dressed in goth clothing.
and i saw this very geeky and polite looking guy
swearing and cursing on the phone.
"TAMMADER, KNNCCB, ~!@#$%^&*()_+"

everything came out,
and it was really strange the way he let all hell break loose
and spoil his image in public just like that.
but i smiled to him!
hahaha and he didnt smile back.

i smiled at a little girl, too.
hahaha ok zany be quiet.


hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
i'll be in secondary four next year. (dohhhhh)
time flies, so fast. too fast.
2008 has been awesome. too awesome.
(:

and i love things the way they are now,
if i had a choice i'd want it to stay this way forever
but i dont really have a choice
because things change, sometimes without warning,
and sometimes.... MOST of the time,
change is good,
although we dont realize it at that moment.



i hope i wont get into trouble next year.
i hope i'll be good.

ah, only time will tell.




zulfikar♥

i am not Hannah Montana.
i dont have the best of both worlds.
but it's okay

Everything has beauty,
just not everyone sees it.


above picture originally taken from Ahdila's blog.
(:

i think im going to dye my hair black!
because i feel like a minah everytime i glance in the mirror
and see the teeniest speck of brown.
i dont like the sight of it!
i dont like. ]=

and did i mention that one time my dad got angry
because he thought the hairdresser
dyed my hair without my approval?
-____-
he even questioned my mom about it!
paranoid much!
*rolls eyes*


i'll be deleting my friendster account soon i think.
or maybe i'll just leave it to decompose
or maybe i'll start a facebook account
or maybe i wont
or maybe i will revive my friendster
or maybe i should even delete my blog
or maybe i wont
because thats ridiculous.

heck, everyone knows im a sucker for blogging.
i love blogging i luvluvluv blogging
and i wont frigging do it for money.

i am bored to tears
and my everything is aching.
i played four back-to-back hours of sports today
and i saw some of my friends from soccer,
like Fat'hil and Hafiz and Mud and MIFDHAL!!!!!!!!

yay Fat'hil gave me a biiiiiiiiiiiig smile!
Hafiz was sombong as usual (hahahaha)
and Mud and i couldnt stop waving to each other
and Mifdhal tried to act hot by smiling at me.
yay friends i miss you all!
8)

okay i shall make an i-miss list now.
why? because i am bored to tears.

i will make a goodbye 2008 message very soon.
then i'll post it on my blog and all you lovely people can read it!
although im not sure if there are any lovely people
still bothering to read my blog
because im such a brat and if i were you
i wouldnt really bother hopping by my blog.
seriously.

(but if you violently object the fact that im actually a brat,

you deserve all the candies and unicorns in the world!)

-____-

does the word 'bothering' exist?
it sounds strange.

okay where were we?
oh yes.
my i-miss list.
no, no, i think i'll make an i-miss list next month
because i just did one last month.
here it is!:

i hope i fall sick tomorrow and i hope i'll get well on Friday.
i hope i fall sick tomorrow because we'll be playing games
and washing our instruments from nine to five.
the school is out to kill me.
i hope i'll get well on Friday because i miss somebody very much
and i want to spend my day with that somebody.
]=

i think i almost died today because:

1. like i said, we did four back-to-back hours of sports
and to tell you the truth im not as active as i used to be.
i am as lazy as a fat person.
(although i dont blame fat people for being lazy,
Mr Kan said it has something to with inertia.
i trust him with all my heart,
he also said that keeping your phone in your pocket
for too long can cause cancer!)
and i dont like to exercise.
pretending to exercise is a different thing.

2. somebody almost suffocated me with his hug.
i couldnt breathe for three seconds
but if i were to die of suffocation i'd die happily.




i ate two cans of the tuna mayonnaise thing today.
its awesoooooooooooooome
i think im in love with tuna.
tuna rocks my life! \m/

-________-

i need a life, man, seriously.
i want to jam, i want to write more songs, i need inspiration,
i need to rediscover my love for reading,
because the last time i read a novel was last century.
or two centuries ago. or three or four or five.
i am indeed a very pathetic being.




i want to try reading Twilight.
girls cant stop gloating about it and i feel lost.
i want to read the book before i watch the movie
because i dont like Robert Pattinson (or whatever his name is)
and im afraid i might bear a grudge on him
and end up not liking the movie
and hence not liking Edward Cullen.

i heard that Edward Cullen is charming.
we shall see, Robert Pattinson, we shall see.

i googled 'lionlionwiselion.blogspot.com' the other day
and shit a porn site has a link to my blog.
THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME.
melodramatiique.blogspot.com has had worse cases over the years.
it creeps me out but its okay.


i am happy but i am sad (?).

(i have issues)
i cant hide the fact that i have nothing to blog about today,
which is disappointing because
i always have something to blog about.

okay lets see.
what did i do today?

i fell asleep at one
and i woke up at four
and fell asleep again
and i woke up at seven
and took a shower at seven fifteen
and then at eight i met Zul and headed to Mac.

i dont know why i couldnt stop laughing
when he was ordering the two-dollar meal.
maybe it's because he kept over-using the phrase "two-dollar meal"
and when he told the counter lady he wanted to pay using his ezlink card,
she ignored him and walked away.
hahahahaha

i dont remember much except watching A Cinderella Story in the living room
and eating another can of tuna mayonnaise thing
and Zul being very manja *rolls eyes*
and my brother taking a loooooooong time
to finish eating his maggi mee
and browsing through my Walt Disney Dossiers book
(it has the profile of all significant Disney characters!)
and then browsing through 2007's yearbook.
hahahahaha

and then i headed to school for band practice
and i got the shock of my life when i saw everyone carrying their instruments!
turns out we dont actually need to bring our instruments
cause its band sports day!
-____-
and surprisingly i had fun!
yay jvcb!

(as a forfeit i had to write JVCB with my butt, cool or what)


by the way, i found this on Photobucket
and it made me smile so wide my jaw hurtsssss


*screams*

elephant!


i cant find my favourite book - Pretty Things by Sarra Manning.
i lost it ]=
i lost my favourite book!
HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE?!?!

anyway i've been itching to chop off my fringe.
i'll do it three days before school reopens!
yes!



i dont understand what i am blubbering.
zany, please stop tattling before you hurt yourself.

Because a heart can't lie,
even though a face may try.


this was meant to be posted on Monday night.
(:


yy ykid; says:
zany the best mommy in the whole wide world okay
yy ykid; says:
hahahah
yy ykid; says:
i just realised it when i'm in malaysia


yes i know, thank you ykid.
*smiles sweetly*


i am tired and i am aware that i shouldnt blog when i am tired
because the result of blogging when i am tired
is nothing but teen angst.
teen angst is so annoying and i am such a brat.

i am currently using my brother's laptop
and the monitor is blinding me.
i dont like laptops.
i dont like cars and big houses and big screen TVs either.
i am materialistic but not to that extent.
i am out of point as always.


foa ftw!
i repeat, foa ftw!
(dont ask me what that means
because i very malas nak layan u uh.)

i love my cousins very much, BCF!
i love zwan and madi and hafi and niz and syafiq and hafiz and zakir!
ah and suriah and abang gg even though they couldnt make it to the gig.

dont ask me what BCF means, too,
because i repeat,
i very malas nak layan u argh
i repeat, i am such a brat.

ok zany stop repeating yourself
youre starting to annoy me, seriously

sheesh.

shit i really AM tired.
you know what?

i want to be a good girl next year.
i dont know how but i'll try my best.
i dont want to be defiant and i dont want to skip classes.
i will try my best not to break rules
and i will do my own homework.
i shall not copy Dexter's homework anymore.
(speaking of Dexter, i wonder what hes doing now hahaha)

eh i want to write more songs lahhhhh
ive got the chords but i cant seem to get the lyrics right.

oh yes.
back to foa.
they did awesome at L-cube on Sunday!
Zul and i almost died looking for L-cube!
its worse than looking for Cafe Diplo!
this time theres Ophir Road something
Pinang Pisang Sungai Road Hindoo Road aiyah!

and i havent seen the rest of the world. =/

anyway,
i think ive fallen in love with my cousins!
hahaha, ew.

but seriously!
i was so mesmerized that i forgot to take out my digital camera
even though i very excitedly charged FOUR batteries,
two days in advance!

i dont really know what to say
but everyone sang along and danced along to their songs
gerek or what!
im soooo happyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
they even had to do an encore!

Hafiz thought an encore was a stupid idea

but they did it anyway.
not bad for a first gig, right?!

im super super proud of my brother and look what i found!


we were cute!


and see guys, i told you you HAD to play creep/creed by Radiohead.
you didnt even need to sing it,
the crowd sang it for you!
yay i rock!

and the hours i had to endure listening to them

jam in Zwan's room has paid off yeah babeh
now i am inspired and motivated to start a band!
go zany!
-___-

HAHAHAHAHAHA
but nobody wants to, so, oh well whatever never mind.
hahahaha
im too happy to be sad anyway!

oh and thanks to Zul and Jacob and Fuzzlehhhh
(only i can call Fazli by that name ok ha ha ha)
for coming, too.
=D

i am addicted to Jacob's song, Morning Dew (Wait For You) .
(click the title to listen)

wah everyones so talented uh!
i like, i like!

okay i fell asleep for about two seconds, a few seconds ago.
i hate it when im this lethargic.
so irritating!



you know what.
Zul got me happy meal on Sunday (yay yay yay!)
and the toy is fascinating!
its this Sonic (the blue creature that runs fast)
hologram frisbee thingy and its frigging incredible i was so awed
i tried showing it to Hafi and Madi in the dark
but nothing could be seen
so it was kind of stupid. lol

everybody, please buy happy meal!
-___- hahaha!



Zul: actually, i'm a vampire.
Zany: *rolls eyes*

hahahahaha want to step Edward Cullen only!
malas nak layan!
HAHAHAHAHAHA!

by the way,
malas nak layan means lazy to entertain.

something like that.
(:


oh yes selamat hari raya aidiladha!
i didnt get to watch the kambings!
i dont even want to!

i hung out at Madi's house instead
and ate awesome food plus fruit punch.
i think i ate more than ten prawns today
ah and then we went out for mcflurry
then i watched foa's photoshoot
and then the cousins had a photoshoot
but i was getting sleepy by then.


*

as much as i respect her decision,
i cant help feeling down.
i spent practically all the Saturdays
of my fifteen years of existence in there
and i grew up at that very place.

it's as much a home to me as my own house.
it's where my cousins knew each other and we grew up together,
playing pretend games like Lift-Lift, Orang Miskin, Teacher-Teacher,
Hantu-Hantu, Who's Line Is It Anyway and so much more.
and now it'll be gone soon and
i can't help wondering if it really is for the best.

after all, towards the end of 2008,
nobody bothers to go there anymore..
=/


but its okay, life's too short for grief, yeah?


i'm browsing through the old photo albums now.
surprisingly i cant find many pictures of the Teban house.
=/

BCF, ha ha ha.

ps. thank you all for the endless compliments on 'our song'.
click here


actually, to tell you the truth,
i'm pretty happy with my life right now.
thank you, Allah
(: