"I put my chin up but my self-esteem disagree
I can’t control myself my conscience taking over me "



hello everybody, i am in serious need of a life.

actually i do have a life,
which consists of a heavy schedule of being glued to the computer,
completing chores chores and more chores,
spending money on food i dont really need and still starving.

by golly, i got so bored today that
i jogged the whole house and felt like dying after five minutes.
(and my house is like, a small four-room flat -____- )

plans to watch Twilight yesterday was cancelled.
plans with Fayez yesterday was cancelled.
plans to complete my tuition homework yesterday was cancelled too.
im not sure why, exactly.

actually things arent as bad as they seem.
but the sucky thing about having nothing INTERESTING to do,
is that, thoughts that are (sometimes) complete and utter rubbish
will invade my mind and i start pondering and worrying
about stupid and redundant things when, really,
life's a breeze.

okay fine, it isnt.
okay stop talking.

in Singapore life isnt a breeze,
when youre surrounded by workaholics and materialistic gits
and shameless two-faced bastards.
hahahahaha. chey zany macam paham.
... actually im serious. -___-
hahaha

hmmm. you know what?
i wonder why im not fun anymore.
i wonder why im broke now,
considering i dont spend much, actually.

i wonder why i keep sleeping late these days
when there's obviously nothing to do when i stay up late anyway.
lack of sleep will only give me heavy eyebags,
greasy hair and of course a greasy face.
and since when did i even care?

i wonder why i always feel pressurized to dress 'right'
when fashion has no boundaries, really.
in the inspirational words of Chris Crocker,
"it's not what you wear that makes you who you are"
(thank you, Chris, you are a complete light to the world *wipes tear*)

i wonder why some people dont treat me as well as they used to
and i wonder why i dont treat them as well i used to either.

dont get me wrong, i try.
i do try.
but their stinging words just seem to piss me off so easily
that im starting to wonder why;
am i just too sensitive and touchy
or are they in serious need of an attitude makeover?
lets bet on the former.



my imaginary friend Afiq has this habit of calling me
at the most random times,
for no particular reason at all.
and i got back at him yesterday afternoon.
talk cock uh, he.
hahahahaha

"zany got belly,
jump around, what its gonna be,
move, shake2, headache"
-Afiq, hahaha

i think i want a treadmill installed in my room.
i dont give a damn if theres lack of space or if it costs too much.

at least running can train my stamina and diaphragm.
hahah, since when did i care about these things?!
hahaha!
i dont even exercise once a week.
(note to self: start frigging exercising already!)

anyway, i really want a treadmill
but obviously treadmills dont grow on trees.

money doesnt grow on trees either,
thats probably the reason why im broke now.
if money grew on trees i think i'd still be broke,
especially since Pull and Bear outlets exist in Singapore.
hahahaha

i got myself a new Pull and Bear top!
meeee likeyyyy~
and poor Zul got dragged from Fareast to Taka to Wisma to Taka again.
im not good with directions so i would be lost if he wasnt around!

the top i initially wanted had a tear!
(im terribly disappointed in Pull and Bear,
but the sales lady was awesome,
Pull and Bear ftw!)

i think i really cant stand to shop at other places.
i am very fussy when it comes Cotton On's quality
and Forever 21's fabric makes me itch,
and Topshop's prices are downright ridiculous.
and most shops in Fareast sell the same stuff.
i dont care about other shops,
i've had it with shopping!

hahaha shopping annoys the decaying shit out of me, i swear.

i think i'll get my clothes from Pull and Bear only,
starting from now.
it's the only place that satisfies me.
yay Pull and Bear! =D


anyway ive got superglue all over my fingers
because i was trying to glue a badge pin thingy
to the piece of lion foam my brother got me.

its the shape of a lion and its made of the foamy material.
its super adorable! thank you brother!
lionlionwiselion! =D

Fuzz says it's not cute
so im going to happily strangle him the next time i see him.
*smiles sweetly*

i stuck it to the strap of my yak pak water guns bag!
and i tried fixing the strap of my Adidas watch using superglue too!
i hope it works!
*crosses fingers*

i've been eating a hell load of junk these days.
Wednesday night's junk was the best.
Shaffiqa, Hafiz and i had three pieces of Subway cookies each.
oh my God, i couldve sworn i was in Heaven.
hahahahaha
(although i imagine Heaven to be full of Pods and lasagne... and fairies)

oh yes.
on Wednesday night i was at Victoria Concert Hall,
watching Singapore Poly band's last concert with Mr Leonard Tan.
i think he is a very respectable man
and whenever he jumps on the podium
my heart skips four beats because
it feels like the stage is going to collapse under him anytime.
(which isnt a good thing cause i was sitting at the front row)


if Mrs Chee was to pull a stunt like that, we'd all be doomed.
DOOOOOOMED, I TELL YOU!
im not joking.

anyway, pictures!
captured by my pathetic 2-megapix phone...
in random order.

(Hafiz actually believed that

i was going to turn up in a tube and hot shorts)


Deon and Sery.


Deon wants to pinky promise.
wow body


Farhan went, "hidden mickey!"
*points to my phone*
LMAO


oh stop pouting, princess


Fiona was scared of the water.
i dont know why she even went there in the first place.
hahahahaha!


Hafiz and i.
wearing shades in the train.
hahahahaha kind of stupid, really.


Deon and Sery again.
i love this picture i luvluvluv itttttt


Sery, drum majorette!

Wednesday night wasnt boring,
i had fun with Hafiz and Deon and Fiona
and Gwen and Shaffiqa and all the rest!

plus the Singapore Poly band was amazing.
the saxophonist blew me away
when he played 'Imagine'!

he wasnt cute in terms of looks
but it was in the way the tone of his saxophone made me warm all over
and the charming way he swayed along to his music
and the band in the background...
it just sent chills down my spine!
*fangirl scream*
i want autograph!

we actually thought we lost Shaffiqa on the way back home!
everyone panicked and we were like, screaming her name.
Deon got so worried that he ran back to the concert hall to look for her
because she didnt have a phone.
and then Hafiz spotted her,
merrily skipping along the pathway,
without a care in the world, chey!
hahahahaha!

turned out,
she was tantalized by the bridge and the colourful lights on the building
which reminded her of the mesmerizing Symphony of Lights in Hong Kong.
so she walked ahead, thinking we were right behind her.
and trust me, we thought we WERE right behind her.
hahahahaha

it was hilarious and everyone was like shouting,
"YOU SHOULDVE TOLD US!!!!!!!"
=D

*sigh*
shaffiqa, shaffiqa.

*shakes head for dramatic effect*

ah, this afternoon i'll be seeing the new batch of sec ones!
i'll be taking care of 1N1 alongside Denard
and Shihwee and Kokloon (i think) .
its gonna be a blast B-)
hahahahaha .. i hope.


alright.
this entry turned out to be longer than i intended it to be.
hahahahaha

bye beautifulsssss