this frigging hypocrisy. it's pulverizing me.
if you think im enjoying this, im not, at all.
period.



i dont even know you anymore
i cant even think of a decent six-word sentence to say to you
that doesnt include the words
"what", "the", "hell", "happened", "to", and "you"
and if you're lucky i might add a delicious cuss.
seven words.
keep the change.


i repeat, i dont even know you anymore.
it used to be you and me against her or she and she against me
or you and her against another her or she and she against me
or she and she against you but it was never,
NEVER, you and her against ME.


it's been eating me alive but im trying not to care.
you're supposed to be my friend
but since the arrival of them,
you're different.


change is good but drastic changes,
especially in this situation,
are not doing YOU any favours.
i repeat, YOU, not ME.
the potential of losing you is high but i can get over it.
it's only a matter of time.
but you?
your attitude, k, it's bringing you nowhere.




im sorry ive always been a brat, a prat
or any -rat words you can possibly think of.


im sorry i cant control the permanent scowling expression on my face
(trust me if i was given a choice
i wouldve picked a face that reveals dimples 24/7
but i was never given a choice,
so get over it.
you, of all people, should know that)


im sorry if i ever talked about you behind your back
(and you'd be a liar if you were to deny ever doing that either)


im sorry i am such a braggart.


im sorry im just so disappointed
in the pathetic reasons you give to be so artificial towards me.
cut the acting.
you can keep talking about me, i dont mind really.
but perhaps think of something
more creative and less superficial lah please?



well at least you're happy.
i won't spoil that.
i'll just stand here, and keep pretending things are okay.
because maybe things ARE okay.
because i need to accept the fact that people come and go.
because i dont see the need to care anymore.






Happy Valentines Day and an advanced International Friendship Day.
like, feel the love, not




*flips hair*


whatever. i'm happy.