this isn't directed to anyone in particular.


what you see isn't always what you get.
i know exactly who Zany is, i know precisely who i am.

i own only a few friends who know me inside out;
who know me more than i know myself.
i am not ignorant, i know my flaws
and i am constantly learning.
i do not hate anybody, thats just stupid.
so do not hold my past against me,
do not dig out my past,
and seize and hook any possible excuse
to diss me or despise me.


you can groan, you can roll your eyes,
i dont give a fuck.
i have reached the point
where i simply cannot afford to care or cry anymore.


in spite of the hundreds of apologies ive said,
in spite of the thousands of people
who've tried to cut me down (and succeeded at some points),
in spite of the shit that is constantly hurled at me,
i am still strong. i am still here.
i am wiser now.
you know i am.




i am smiling. i am proud.
i have every reason to be.
now, what are you going to say about that?