that actually made me tear and i luv you hafi and madi and BCF! (= i want to live with you all in two combined HDB flats!!!!
i am officially sixteen (not eleven) and i dont know how i should feel about that. i suppose when you're older, people tend to expect you to be wiser and i dont like the thought of that because i'm quite often a major letdown to everyone.
im still learning, im still stupid. my parents know the latter and i believe im such a huge disappointment for the way ive been behaving lately. im sorry, i never intended to be rude to anyone. )=
and im still pissed actually. but despite today's major letdown(s), i feel blessed to have certain people in my life.
right now im detonating with inspiration. i want to make music, forever and always. -___- ive got lots of stationery for my birthday so im going to put them to good use. and ive got tons of lion stuff including the notebook from Hafi for my previous birthday! hahahaha
my gay best friend is very annoying because he is not behaving gay at all. i actually needed to teach him to be gay. )=
i mean, we watched '17 Again' and Zac Efron was (supersupersuper) adorable (omg i cant believe i actually said that) and he didnt drool! not even half a millilitre of drool! what a failed gay!
i still have piles of homework (exam papers) and i dont know how in the sam hill im supposed to complete them all within 30 hours. (sleep, mealtimes, tuition, day out with family all included)
my results have been really pathetic lately. the only subject im scoring well in is english. As, As, As and if only all other subjects were as effortless as english. i'd be a brainiac.. not just a brainiac, THE brainiac. hahaha oh well life's not fair, and im pretty much used to that.
*
okay now my mood is officially crushed. it's
like
so
whatever.
bye
@ about 8:24 AM
"Everytime I see you smile, Girl, you make me want to change I'll try for you, I'll try for you Tell me how to get you back You got me going six feet underground to prove I'd die for you"
- 'Razorblade Limeade' by Evan Taubenfeld
all i want is youuu, you make me go crazy hahahaha
Friday, April 17, 2009 @ about 9:14 PM
*stupidly waiting for a miracle* ... nak jamming?
@ about 9:12 PM
i is so the jealous, so the jealous, so damn jealous
@ about 8:56 PM
ugh i need a frigging capo. it's a need, not a want >=(
Thursday, April 16, 2009 @ about 10:05 PM
hxc sugar rush
Rock and roll baby, Don't you know that we're all alone now
dear world, miraculously, i passed my physics test with dying colours. but importantly, i passed! i have no idea how, but i did it! queer.
throughout the test i had no bloody clue what i was writing. i must be some kind of genius... NOT. because i failed the stupid Literature test and nothing is stopping me from feeling demoralized. i didnt even bother to do yesterday's assignment. what for?!
Mdm Pam wants us to redo the essay on TKAMB, the one we did in the test i failed. the fact is, she gave ticks for me all the way through my essay, didnt leave any notes on what went wrong, and proceeded to scribble 11/20. ouch, much. hah.
please refrain from entertaining my despondency. i really need to dump the past into the recycle bin or something and focus on mid-years. this stinks. like seriously.
and like yeah, i dont like girls who like, talk like, this. it's like, so like... whatever. *flips hair*
today was hilarious. no, today was BEYOND hilarious. Hakim and Hafiz and i were fooling around in the band room and taking pictures like nobody's frigging business and then and then and then!!!!!!! Hafiz ___________! =D i cant fill in the blank because Hafiz will never talk to me forever and ever and i will be a sad girl! but it was hilarious i tell you! i was halfway through pee-ing in my skirt and Hakim was laughing so hard we couldnt see his eyes and hahahahahaha gosh
and then i went off to pee and when i went out of the toilet, for some stupid reason Hafiz and Hakim were standing outside holding the A4-sized mirror (the one that's everywhere in the band store). i think i laughed or something and then i looked down to the first storey and saw the sec 2/3 guy called Aidil taking pictures using his Nikon. or Canon. idk. forgot to check.
so i shouted to him from the third level and demanded a picture. and he was like, "yes yes, of course!" and Hafiz and i posed. and Aidil's such a perfectionist he actually went up to the third level and told us the picture wasnt so nice. so we retook and i hope it'll end up in the magazine or something. hahahahaha it was really stupid, really really!!!!
we were sweating like pigs in the global warming state of planet earth and our tummies ached from all the laughing and my voice was hoarse already. hahaha
oh yeah something happened before Aidil went up. the band room has weird front doors. the doorknob comes out if you yank it a little too hard and if the one inside is yanked out and youre inside the room and your friend has taken the knob and abandoned you, youre locked inside and doomed for life!
so thats exactly what Hakim and i did to Hafiz. idk, me and Hakim were really mean to Hafiz today. but he made me run up and down the third storey just because he thought a particular picture of him was ugly. what a girl! i feel like killing him already. hahaha
oh back to the lock thing. oh yes Hafiz got locked in and he claimed hes claustrophobic which is stupid, because the band room is HUGE! (ok, not really) and then! in the midst of laughing and everything we ordered him to switch off all the lights so he was really freaked and kept pleading for us to open the door! and i did Hafiz's "ALA BUSHUK BUSHUK" dance through the glass window and i hope he got pissed or something! hahahaha it was funny i swear i cant really describe the situation! it's one of the you-just-HAD-to-be-there moments. hahahahaha funny funny funny
anyway i told myself i'll start studying next week so i'd better keep to my word. if i dont, feel free to lock me up in a cage with nothing but my pencil case, all my schoolbooks, some paper, my calculator and 30cm ruler cause i might need those, and minimal food... five bags of PODs please. oh and my MP4, because i might just die if i dont listen to Hayley Williams' voice for at least an hour a day.
oh my god today is thursday! that means tomorrow is friday! that means the day after tomorrow is saturday! that means i am slowly dying! (i mean face it, every one of us are dying) that means the chances of Peter Pan dropping by my window sill is rapidly decreasing. that means i am a lonely girl. and that means i must grow up. =/ but i dont wanna grow up, imma toys r us kid -___-
oh my god Peter looks so hot here.
look at those armssssss *drools* HAHAHAHA WTF?!?!?!
and uhm.... JENG JENG!
hahahahaha wtf
GRANDE SIZED!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahahahahaha
okay im seriously being an annoying brat. hahah i was a sore loser today when i played spin-the-coins with Hakim. what?! its a stupid game! you know when you spin a coin so it goes round and round in a spherical shape but its all really an illusion? yeah like that. i kept winning and everytime i lost i would smack his coin down so hes the loser but hes not a sore loser like me so thats completely okay. besides, we sounded really dumb arguing over coins.
ah yes, Ler Chen cared so much for me and my monster of a pimple that he actually brought his bottle of pimple gel for me! =D I FEEL LOVEDDDDDDDDDD~ hahaha wtf. i mean, that pimple must be offensive or something to the extent that people WANT to help me to get rid of it! I FEEL LOVEDDDDDDDDDD~ but apparently everyone knows Oxy is 5784673478 times better than Ginvera. sorry Ler Chen, im still on team Oxy and i tried Ginvera. on the bottle it says it'll reduce the redness of my pimple but it still looks as red as the China flag oh nooooooo im cursed
and Fiona said i look like a minah without my spectacles but she and Samuel said i look better and wtf how can i possibly look like a minah and look better at the same time!!! hahaha im confusedddddddddd~
okay seriously Facebook stop sending me annoying emails. i dont even read your stupid emails. how do i unsubscribe to these redundant emails? i dont need them, my inbox is already overflowing with unread emails! can i just deactivate my facebook again so i dont get these dumb emails?! i dont like emails! stop sending me emails!
oh and btw, Shari treated me to a chicken wing today! YAY! i like the noodle store's chicken wings! i mean, who doesnt, right?!?!?!
they're sensational!!!!
ack, sugar rush! now im getting excited over every single thing! afpaipethhklsdjfsdl;jgw[sg math homework awaits! good night!
oh wait, before you go, visit chaoscircus for tees! (visit again for updates, of course)
Tuesday, April 14, 2009 @ about 9:45 PM
zeng zeng
BCF powerz \m/
i am doomed for life, i swear! how could i forget that physics test is TODAY. TODAY TODAY TODAY, 14th April 2009, (btw happy birthday Fathiah!), 7.45am, FIRST LESSON OF THE DAY. and the test was on electricity, DC circuits! i have no bloody clue how to differentiate a mainly-parallel circuit and a mainly-series circuit! and what is EMF oh em geeeee i am doomed, i tell you! doooooooooomed! actually im over it, so yeah. hahaha wtf
day out with Audrey, and we couldnt stop eating sushi. =D note to self, never ever drink bubble tea in cold places. actually, as much as dry coughs are the most annoying kind of coughs, it's pleasant to have them once in a while. dry coughs are aggravating, because unlike uh, wet coughs, you dont have any phlegm or anything to get rid of, to stop the cough. ah never mind. all coughs are equally annoying. settled. and why do all the structures of sentences sound wrong nowadays?!?!?!?! this is killing meeeeeeeeeee
i have a mosquito bite on my foot. i was supposed to do my chores but i couldnt possibly do them while i scratch my foot! so i made my brother scratch it continuously while i folded piles of clothes. it was never-ending, i tell you (both the itch and the piles clothes). and it was quite a priceless sight, seeing my brother scratching my foot for ten minutes straight.
Miss Hong wasnt around today and we had a boring Circle Time. but then again, Circle Times are always boring. Mr Zailani accused us of being cocky and hence not wanting to participate in anything. oh, come on. first we started the session by talking about our favourite food. i repeat, FAVOURITE FOOD. (i know, wtf right) who the hell talks about their favourite food?!
Zany: what's your favourite food? Mifdhal: i dont know. Zany: mee soto okay?
Zany: so what's your favourite food? Nick: chicken. Zany: chicken? thats it?! just chicken?!?!
-_____-
Nick was supposed to announce to the whole class that my favourite food was SEAWEED. what?! i said i LIKE seaweed! im not so miserable as to regard seaweed as my favourite food! i mean, its SEAWEED! little pathetic rectangles of green sheets that taste (waaaay) better than they smell and cost half as much as Pizza Hut's lasagne. -____-
anyway. the main topic for Circle Time was friends. i dont even bother to continue blogging about it. i mean, we had to write on pieces of paper three qualities we expect in a friend. what the?!?!?! what in the sam hill happened to save the earth campaign?! i can name more creative and useful ways to use paper. gawwwwd.
(ugh stop interrupting me when im blogging, you ignorant twits. it's so distracting and it gives me inescapable mental blocks.) oh wait, Shari just talked to me. yay i miss Shari x58746847824798435471!!!!!!!!!!!
okay i'm going to do some biology now. apparently im behaving like O's dont exist. maybe they dont!! =D
maybe it's all an illusion...
-___-
Monday, April 13, 2009 @ about 5:14 PM
mellifluous memorandum
Adik is a smart ass.
▲ i dreamt of rats and woke up at 6.45am. ▲ bad hair day (like every other day), bad morning ▲ Miss Wong just cant stop talking about her favourite venetians ▲ life would be so much easier if i had a photographic memory ▲ i like my collection of yellow wallz pictures ▲ mom refilled our stash of PODS ▲ PODS are absolute genius, i frigging swear ▲ i miss band practices a little too much ▲ i really need to get the two rolls of film developed. ah, eventually i will ▲ i ate a plate of Yee Mee during recess. they are genius too ▲ i appreciate tissue papers ▲ i think i am allergic to prawns ▲ my printer is jammed as per normal. what a bitch. ▲ Jian Yun is a dog ▲ i had three hours of free period and i wasted them all ▲ i had an hour of sexy time with my guitar. Check Yes Juliet is a good song. ▲ screw Mid-Years. screw teachers who still dare to take a day off ▲ i will never buy another pair of Everlast shoes. pffft. ▲ retail therapy with Audrey rescheduled to tomorrow. i am happy ▲ i like to spend money. i am a girl. ▲ i am eating a can of mayonnaise tuna which lubricates my blood vessels which is good considering the shocking amount of adrenaline buzzing through my veins on a daily basis ▲ 4C girls 'cornered' Raveender in the toilet and cut a fringe for her. fuhhh hot ▲ bottomline: fringes and high ponytails do girls justice
Sunday, April 12, 2009 @ about 11:40 AM
adik siber (cyber adik)
Zany: asal appear offline eh yus? Yusri: entah. *yusri goes online* ta-da! Zany: wow! magic! Yusri: hahaha thank you, thank you! Zany: hahaha nonsense eh kau. ketuk kepala baru tahu Yusri: berani? Zany: eh sis. aku berani ok Yusri: ape SIS Zany: SIS ah Yusri: asal sis! Zany: kau kan sis aku! Yusri: eh tak fair! Zany: ape!! Yusri: kau panggil aku SIS! Zany: so?!?!?!
what a ridiculously pointless conversation. *shakes head* tsk. kids these days
Saturday, April 11, 2009 @ about 11:45 PM
cry love
The wind is low, the birds will sing That you are part of everything
i've made up my mind - i'm not replying tags. what for? there are 121 tags awaiting me in my tagboard since 2nd April and i predict i'll be old and penniless and dying by the time ive replied 25% of them.
so yeah, so sorry. to those of you who tagged saying you love me, your words have touched my soul so deeply it hurts. (hahaha wtf) i love you too!
okay you know what. im sick of 15-16 year olds speaking like pre-pubescent adolescents. you know who im talking about. you should know who.
ive been very bitter and brusque these days and i dont really know why. everything seems to crawl under my skin. i find myself muttering "fuckwit" under my breath every thirty seconds, at practically every single person because every little thing any body says ticks me off.
i probably need to see a psychiatrist. im going crazy, IM the fuckwit.
maybe i should just think happy thoughts. that works sometimes. hmmm happy thoughts please. happy thoughts? no? happy thoughts? .... no happy thoughts?!?!
ah yes. retail therapy with Audrey this Friday. now THATS something to look forward to.
i'll enjoy the last day of my fifteen-year-old life on Friday and move on to being a sixteen-year-old the next day and honestly speaking, i doubt i'll feel any different. it's not like i'll be wiser overnight. its not like there'll be an enlightenment or something.
you know, ive always secretly wished some wizard-shaped cloud (!) would appear on my doorstep and tell me that i posess magic powers. that i own a strawberry field in some secret garden nobody has ever heard of. that i am really actually the first Lost Girl, not Jane. that i was meant to be enrolled in Hogwarts three years ago but they overlooked my name. that i am the true owner of Willy Wonka's chocolate factory. that i am a fairy... an oversized one. that i've won a lifetime of tickets to all the Disneyland(s) in the world. that i dont belong here; that i belong anywhere but here.
in any case, i doubt any wizards or witches or pixies or Hagrid will turn up on my doorstep.
still, please remember that i'll be turning sixteen on Saturday, the 18th. i dont expect anything, not even a wish. i just hope you'll remember, just that thought. it'll make me happy. (= thank you.
i am exploding with satisfaction. want to know why? ive done my homework. but not all. there are bits here and there that left me blank but ive attempted and completed at least half of everything! these sadistic teachers dumped a truckload of work on us thinking "oooooh it's Good Friday, a day off, so lets torture these kids a little" and the thing about teachers these days is they DONT collect homework. that pisses me off, big time. i still have a whole load of uncollected homework in the Tinkerbell folder Audrey got me for Christmas.
oh yes, i spent approximately four hours with Madi at mac at street 11, mugging with bits of conversation in between and eyeing a cute guy sitting a few metres away (in Madi's case). hahahaha. Madi, Madi. *shakes head*
Zakir joined us later on and we walked walked in the celestial night. it was cold and i like cold. i like rain. i like anything that can make me shiver in excitement. i like rain. but i dont like getting wet. i dont like wearing slippers and walking in puddles because i've heard of things like hookworms. but i like rain.
mom says bacteria in puddles make our feet itch. and the skin'll sort of peel off and stuff. i've seen that on my uncle. i love my feet including my biggg toes and i dont want anything so perfectly revolting to happen to them. gosh i never knew puddles could be so catastrophic.
i need a visit to the library. i need new books, my creativity in writing is draining. my creativity in everything is draining, come to think of it. i have no creativity to speak of and my inspiration has run dry. ah look, there goes me and my exploding modesty. this is so not me.
i am meant to be a brat. a humble, altruistic brat but a brat nevertheless. we'll talk about that some other time.
anyone remembers neoprints? are they like, extinct or something? i havent heard anyone say the word 'neoprint' in centuries. i remember there was this neoprint booth that played techno songs and Asyiqin and i used to love going there to dance. just dance. we dont take pictures or insert coins, we just dance. we must've looked like complete idiots back then but what did it matter? we were young and free. chey.
eh rady and me got secret plans ah. confirm power one like ctrl+z \m/ hahaha omg i love my BGF FRVR lah sey -____-
holy cowpers! it's 11.38pm and i havent showered! i decided to wash my pink converse sneakers this morning. i voluntarily did tons of beneficial things this morning. i cleaned out my wardrobe, threw old and grungy knickers and bras and socks, refolded tees and arranged all my bags nicely etc.
i dont like being told to do things. things like cleaning and washing shoes and mugging and... bathing (!) if i want to do it i'll do it and most of the time i do it but the strange thing about me is i tend to do things secretly.
i dont like it when my parents bug me to do these things. it sucks the fun and thrill out of everything. it feels more like an obligation; something i do because i was forced to.
ah okay i am fully aware this is the most monotonous entry in lionlionwiselion. and for that, i shall stop talking.
Friday, April 10, 2009 @ about 10:50 PM
flickr.com/photos/citronnade/
Help me come back down, from high above the clouds You know I'm suffocating, but I blame this town Why do I deny the things that burn inside? Down deep, I'm barely breathing, But you just see a smile
And I don't want to let this go. Really, I just want to know
- 'Adore' by Paramore
@ about 4:45 PM
good friday
Good Friday. psh. and no my dear babies, i dont smoke. probably never will (Y) *
quite pleased with myself today, despite the fact that i did nothing, besides homework. i didnt step out of the house, at all. it was raining. attempted to pen a few thoughts into a song but noooooooo, nothing sounded right.
all i want now is 'green apple ice blended with pearls'. sweet momma! my tastebuds are dancing already!
ps. teehee, my gay best friend is officially de-gayed!!! =D
Rady: you may be magic, but your fingers are retarded. Zany: )= Rady: you sad, i sad, then i get really sad, then you get really sad, then the world gets sad. you want that to happen?
No, sir. )=
Thursday, April 09, 2009 @ about 9:51 PM
woebegone
The clouds will be a daisy chain So let me see you smile again
)=
it's mine and they took it away from me, without having the least inclination to warn me or inform me. leaving it in the band room was my mistake but why would it ever cross my mind that they'd ever want it back?! it's mine, it's mine, it's mine, it has my name on it! on the top left corner in purple ink! IT'S MINE )=
i am heartbroken.
a few jvcbananas sat at the concourse singing Flying High and Overture No. 1 at the top of our lungs. despite the languishing fact that the school has taken our scores/music sheets away from us, we still have our voices.
and Hafiz's "Pony Leviosa" magic spell was only enough to make me smile. that boy is Harry Potter in his own world. =/
oh and guess what? band practices are now turned into self-study session. so let us all jump eight feet above the ground with merry faces and shout "HIP HIP HOORAY" in the most vehemently enthusiastic voices we can muster. on second thought, let's just shake our heads and knit our brows in utter disgust.
i may have stepped down from band but some of my juniors are suffering in silence and i am not the least bit content. )=
i hope tomorrow isn't called Good Friday for nothing.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009 @ about 10:14 PM
hannah: i am your fairy god mother.
Oh god, i swear i have the patience of a saint. hahahaha
Tell me, did that picture make you melt and drown and sigh and pee and squeal in overwhelming whim and lust and delight? It gave me this enchanting jolt beyond words and now my mind has stopped functioning, great, and hee i'm feeling lovely all over... *smiles shyly*
okay seriously, i think it's official: i'm losing my sanity. (and that's not entirely a bad thing)
as the saying goes, "Find what brings you joy, and go there."
if i could do anything, anything at all, i would get me a good yellow suitcase, (the shade of JVCB's blazier) pack three pairs of jeans, my best tshirts, my holga, my Dinosaur-printed socks, my best CDs, and three cans of Mayonnaise tuna. i would get tickets to the furthest country that has Disneyland, and go there. I'll never look back. yes, that would be terrific.
well... if i could, i would.
IF i could, you bet i would. (=
@ about 7:08 PM
hardeeharharharharhar
dont laugh. when i was seven i cried when i watched that Pokemon episode. mom got so freaked out she accused my brother of hitting me. WTF LOSER RIGHT I KNOW
btw, Madi's school got gold. wheeeheee! i luv u madi!
lol im talking to Hannah online now and im literally screaming. hahahahahaha psh, girls!!
im being random now. today i was showering and for some unknown reason i tilted my head to the left then my right ear got waterlogged and i felt water coming out from my left ear omg does that make sense? can that seriously happen? thats madness! its like the malay saying "masuk telinga kiri keluar telinga kanan" or vice versa. can it happen to water too?!?!?! omg gross.
oooh btw Hafiz the donkey/pinnocchio got me Hello Panda today so im a happy girl! hahahaha! now Hello Panda makes me happy, idk why. i shouldnt be eating too much chocolate right? ah, who cares!
hahahaha watch omg it made my day!!!! the background vocals and all! hahaha omg you ignorant twits im like roflmao-ing now HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *wipes tear* and you know what?! that isnt even Johnny Depp!
this is my 120th entry! random yeh i know but 120 is a nice number because it is an even number i like i like!
and bloody hell. im turning sixteen in a jiffy but whatever
Tuesday, April 07, 2009 @ about 9:17 PM
breakout
As far as I know you could already be somebody else’s honey But I can’t stop looking at you
ah, the picture above. halcyon days in the winter of Hong Kong. memoryyyyyyyyy, all alone in the moooooooonlight~ *sings offkey*
Zany: eh sonny. i start smoking already leh. Ykid: dont la idiot! you smoke for what? who teach you one? i go whack the person
hahahaha FAKE. i shouldve done that as an Aprils Fool joke.
okay just a random update. im having a pimple breakout, this is official and no amount of Oxy can fix it. it's either due to my wavering emotions lately, or the nonstop stuffing of chocolates into my buccal cavity, (because they make me happy) or simple just raging hormones.
these sadistic zits cant seem to leave me alone! its almost like theyre soliciting for freedom and independence! mom accused me of not washing my face, which is dumb because ive actually been smearing excessive amounts of Oxy onto my face.
Oxy has once again failed me. *deep sigh* i dont know what to say.
...so i shant say anything. =D good night lovelies.
ps. and thank you thank you thank you for tagging! your tags make me laugh like hahahaha, even those silly spams (no im not being sarcastic haha)
@ about 9:14 PM
mellifluous memorandum
"This year SYF 09 is unpredictable and injustice. Nobody knows what were the judges expectations. It may seems very weird. Because those deserving school ought to get what they should get,but they didn't.
Don't ever think that all the efforts that we have put in has gone to waste. Never.
We made history of JVCB. The first batch that brought the Chia's family to really believe in us that we can do it. That has already proven with the piece playing, 'Flying High'. A grade 4 piece. A huge jump for us to work on a Japanese composition. We decided to change our choice piece at just a few months away to SYF. And here we are. And i think we are really incredible. despite the woodwinds worked insanely hard on all those sharps running notes would be your best friend from now on.
I salute to all JVCBIAN for your hard work and determination and unity in the band. And also the music we made was outrageously beautiful. I will never ever forget you wonderful bunch of bananas.
Feel very proud with ourselves (but not too complacent if not i will come back and haunt you people)
I was very pleased with the comments that we get from other band directors. WE'VE DONE IT!
rather shocked by today's judging. wait, make that all the days' judging. wow. just... wow.
what difference does it make? practically all the bands, better or wose, are getting the same medal. the medal doesnt seem to matter anymore. or perhaps, it never mattered in the first place.
i'm aggravated and Campbells' Chicken Alphabet Soup isn't helping, at all.
sigh. what's happening? )= i am worried for St. Marg's. please please get what you truly deserve.
(and shit i totally forgot to hand in my Literature homework. shouldnt have went to school at eleven this morning. but i was inspired by the quote 'Better late than never'. great, now im out of excuses. ack, screwed.)
Sunday, April 05, 2009 @ about 7:07 PM
magic relighting candles
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding And all the lights that lead us there are blinding There are many things that I would like to say to you But I don't know how
i am not satisfied with what i've done today. i didnt complete the math homework because i am out of graph papers. i didnt complete my malay homework because some unknown force refuses to let me near it. (maybe it's because we've done the comprehension bit of the paper before gah zany! excusessss!)
i didnt completely cover Reproduction in Humans and Heredity for the biology test tomorrow because i cant seem to get the menstrual cycle through my 2571473kilometres thick skull. i am a downright disgrace to womankind. )=
dear god, the only thing i ask of you is to make this perturbingly hideous ultra-humongous pimple be gone from my face in 1, 2, 3 before it explodes and the whole nation would be covered from head to toe with PIMPLE JUICE!!!!
... it's not working. )= my pimple's still here!!!!! Oxy has failed me for the very first time. i am utterly disappointed in my investment. )= *deep sigh*
dear kind and unblemished readers, i advise you to not feel obliged to do anything that is beyond your own will. that goes to me and jvcbananas too. i assure you, i am putting my foot down, no matter what the outcome of tomorrow's meeting is.
and dear readers again, i insist you ban any puchases of a certain invention called "Magic Relighting Candles" or anything that sounds similar. trust me.
oh and by the way, have i mentioned my experience with a certain substitute teacher? i wont name names but i swear, he was such a pain in the arse. talk about MALES thundering towards the menopause. -___-
Zany: *doing some work* Teacher: (not to anyone in particular) so, how was your test? Audrey: it was okay. Teacher: hello, i ask how was your test. Audrey: OKAY!!!! Teacher: hello?! im talking to you! Zany: *looks up* huh? me? Teacher: yah you. Zany: she answered what! Teacher: how was it? Zany: it was okay! Teacher: ah, i want to see how stuck-up you are.
i shall ignore this particular teacher's future attempts to start conversations with me. because i am a stuck-up bitch and all. psh.
and i am contemplating whether or not i should actually reply tags. i have no idea why i put up a tagboard in the first place. oh, i know why! cause its magic
ps. my brother was reading 5-Minute Dinosaur Tales for Bedtime during dinner. how cute
bonus! -__-
"boy." hahahaha *winks*
@ about 6:09 PM
you sure have changed since yesterday without any warning
@ about 1:23 PM
(:
i wouldnt be me if i was never from Jurongville Concert Band. in short, JVCB is the best thing that ever happened to me.
i am still torn. i should have climbed out of this pool of disappointment by now. but i cant seem to.
i am clueless on how i should react when the school announces our medal. it is a victory to them, but a defeat to us. i feel strong and proud when i think of the band and all that we've been through, all that we've learnt along the way.
but all that diminishes to this belittling feeling, which i know will strike back when our results are announced. i will smile at the thought of the band's unity and attainment, but it will soon falter because in the end, we didn't get what we, and everybody else, believed we could have gotten; what we should have gotten, but didnt.
and the disparaging thing is that theres absolutely nothing we can do about it. 3rd April was the most triumphant, yet heartbreaking day of my life.
Speech Day 2008 (Taxi Tijuana), CCA Fairs (always the center of attention!), NCO Camp @ Deyi, SYF Central Judging 2007, Ampio Musica I, Hong Kong Disneyland, The Chia(s), The 3rd April feud in school, SYF Central Judging 2009 and still countless more.
i suppose beautiful things have to come to an end eventually. like sky-writing. (=
i'll be looking forward to Ampio Musica II. i am a band geek, and always will be.
Saturday, April 04, 2009 @ about 11:30 PM
One day, Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree. "Which road do I take?" she asked. "Where do you want to go?" was his response. "I don't know," Alice answered.
"Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter. If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there.”
- Lewis Caroll
@ about 11:02 PM
Happy 16th Birthday to Ahdila!
(inserts 65735275374367 heart shapes and bras(?!))
Friday, April 03, 2009 @ about 9:09 PM
i still believe
Here's to starry nights and careless freedom; To glowing cheeks and laughter that heals you deep inside
JVCB flew. we really did! ... perhaps not high enough. i am crestfallen; but i'll have to get over it sooner or later. just not now. =/
and today is supposed to be the day for sec fours to officially step down. im not ready to leave the band. i cant. not now, not ever.
i felt a tinge of melancholy as i sat on stage playing Flying High for the last time with the band. it felt comfortable and i felt so merry and free. it was smooth, so smooth. we didnt screw anything up, we didnt break down on stage. we flew, i insist! we really did! im swelling with pride!
i dont want to leave the band. )= but no matter what, i'll always be a band geek at heart.
on a lighter note, jvcbananas, i love you to bits and pieces no matter what. that includes the alumni (and the Chias). you are my heart and soul, chey. (seriously) especially this batch. especially the ones who went to Hong Kong. especially the ones involved in central judging. especially Ahdila and Hafiz and Jasmine and Audrey and Vania and Shaffiqa and Deon and Ler Chen and gosh (!) i wish i had the namelist somewhere!
i actually kissed Jam on her cheek today because i was so proud of us; the voice of the band. ... but she didnt feel anything! HAHAHA IT WAS SO FUNNY!
okay soooo... SOME pictures from today. shan't talk much. my eyes are swelling from all the tearing and i need rest.
overall, today was awesome.
and THIS is to highlight thatYELLOW IS JVCB'S COLOUR, tyvm. (=
it's true!!! see the intense look on Ahdila's face??!!
Thursday, April 02, 2009 @ about 9:51 PM
Mifdhal came up to me with a disturbingly sad face.
Mifdhal: i am not playing for the match today. i am injured. Zany: WHAT?!??!?! WHERE?!?!?! Mifdhal: *points to his pimple*
ps. i dont know why i keep blogging.
@ about 9:20 PM
hafiz the pinocchio says my magic tagboard is boring. i am sad )=
(five minutes later) now hafiz says my magic tagboard is cool. what a pinnocchio.
@ about 9:14 PM
I HAVE A TAGBOARD NOW!!! and it's a magic tagboard because you cant see your tags hahahahaha -___-
so your tags are secret and only i can read them!
=D (lol wtf)
but i still think tagboards are superfluous.
okay shut up zany. youre such a pain
Wednesday, April 01, 2009 @ about 10:43 PM
anxiety
yusri jumari says i have to bring a towel to school and bite it until my stress is gone. ... but he says it doesnt work (N)
@ about 9:55 PM
flying high
picture by microabi (flickr.com/photos/microabi)
SYF Central Judging For Bands, 2009 3rd April Jurongville Concert Band
just *his presence can fuel our young and determined hearts, which ache and rage with desire for that four-letter word that every single band geek cries and yearns for. we want it, we want it so badly.
on the 3rd of April, we will leave the conference hall with either tear-stained eyes, or our heads held high. the judges' decisions are final, i'd fall deeper into disappointment if i were to dwell on it, only IF the outcome is bad, of course.
hence i will leave with my head held high, even if my dreams have fallen. i am not drowning in pessimism. i am preparing myself mentally, for the worst possible outcome. (i wonder, which is better, to be complacent or to be pessimistic?)
in any case, i hope for the best; only the best. and 'our' best only refers to that four-letter word. we've made it this far. we've been through so much. that four-letter word, it's right here, right at our fingertips. it's here for the taking.
Friday. we shall triumph on stage. we shall fly, high (= do you believe?
ps. i love jurongville concert band. period.
@ about 9:45 PM
pain in the arse
Stop and stare, I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
good golly miss molly! Radyamansyah is a stalker. =O if he wasnt my GBF FRVR, i'd be freaked.
anyway. the other day during Circle Time, i asked Aaron why guys like to 'shake leg'. hahaha it's like theyre sitting on their chairs and they vibrate their leg(s) for a very very long time.
it's a strange sight and Mifdhal does it ALOT. i always wondered if it had anything to do with being a male. so anyway Aaron said he doesnt know why.
then a few minutes later, Lewis started doing it.
Zany: EH! you see you see you seeee! Lewis's shaking his leg. but one leg only! Lewis: *shakes both legs* Zany: two legs!!!! Lewis: *shakes head* Zany: *screams* THREE LEGS!!!
hahahahaha wtf. oh yes theres another conversation. my brother and i were texting the other day. -_____-
Zany: eh i decided i dont want a guitar for my birthday. i want shoes. got these shoes, from River Island! $43 only!!! Zwan: Uh. okay. Zany: quick, give me your wishlist so i can do my shopping list. Zwan: Haha i want a takamine semi-acoustic guitar, a zildjian china cymbal, a diana F+, a girlfriend.... Zany: yeah and to think i asked you for a $43 shoe. seriously, what can i get you that will not declare our family bankrupt? Zwan: Haha er i cant think of any now la dear sister. Maybe i'll come up with something later. Zany: yeah like maybe a convertible with a built-in drumset Zwan: convertible? nah. maybe a honda civic type r. or perhaps a volkswagen hippie van. Zany: ass. Zwan: donkey.
irritating! these days have been really annoying. i had a bad morning, everything seemed to crawl under my skin and gnaw my nerves. even the slightest sound abraded me and i couldnt stop cursing under my breath. PMS or what?
plus all the homework that was due today wasnt collected and i actually spent nights working on them. gah, teachers!
oh yes i got sent out of class yesterday. yeh, i got sent out of my favourite lesson for some insignificant reason. awesomeness. -____-
oh and bloody hell, did i mention? my nose is so shiny it can possibly blind you. credits to the fresh new zit!!!!! IT'S HUGE! AND OILY, CONTRIBUTING TO THE SHINE OF MY NOSE! this is baaaaaaad. and exceedingly embarrassing.
ok im bored, very. its ten and i am tired. toodles!
Be nice, or go away.
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Hafiz, vocalist/guitarist
Zakir, bassist
Nurdin, synthesizer/guitarist
Syazwan, drummer
Rock and roll baby,
BCF powerz \m/
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As far as I know you could already be somebody else’s honey
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
Happy 16th Birthday to Ahdila!
Here's to starry nights and careless freedom;
picture by microabi (flickr.com/photos/microabi)
Stop and stare,