Hey, hey baby, it's never too late
Pretty soon you won't remember a thing
And I'll be distant as stars
Reminiscing, your heart's been wasted on me






okay okay stop being grumpy.
tsk, i try my best to exercise self-discipline
and go on a hiatus for a couple of weeks
so i can really study
and some people just dont appreciate my effort.
psh!
hahahaha


but no matter!
lucky you, the blistering heat has given me an agonizing headache
and apparently, two panadol pills
and five hours of afternoon sleep isnt helping.
at all.


worse still,
i still have tons of chemistry and physics chapters to cover.
ah, and that math paper 1 my tutor wants me to attempt,
which will take TWO (!) hours.
sigh, so much to do, so little time. chey.
and here i am blogging. -___- hahaha


i'm sure you've wondered what i've been doing,
or you probably don't care at all,
because it is possible that no one's even reading this,
but i'm pretty used to talking to myself so that's perfectly alright.
hahaha


i assure you, this will be a short entry.
*prays that this will be a short entry*


but you know me.
i just cant stop talking once i've started.
but this is where i get to practise my self-discipline!!!!
-___-
ok stop it eh zany


oh my god, im finally blogging!
after years of pain and distress and pure agonyyyyyy

*clears throat*
anyway
day after day i open my front door (as if i have a back door -__- )
in the humid mornings to find the malay newspaper staring back at me.
and on it's front page there would always be the worlds "Flu" and "Babi".
er, pig flu. otherwise known as swine.


im quite ignorant in any area of current affairs
because im pretty much too wedged in
my magical world of fairies and pixie dust and whatnot. *rolls eyes*
but still, i dont get why theyre making such
a huge huge deal out of this whole swine thing
when people are already dying every single day, because of poverty.
jeez.


on a lighter note,
i've decided to change my course.
i mean, change my target.
im aiming for Creative Writing in Singapore Poly now.
i used to think "why would i want to dedicate my whole life to write, manz?!"
but then as i was squatting in the toilet clearing my bowels one fateful day,
i realized that i am already doing so.
i have already dedicated my life to write.
thats what i unknowingly do every single day.
write in the little book Madi gave me for my birthday,
and blog, blog, blog. blog, blog, blog.
and i enjoy it.
(=


anyway today i was awakened by dad
who was standing outside the house
and ringing the doorbell
cause he didnt have his keys with him.
mom and my brother are at god-knows-where
so i was alone at home, sleeping.


he kept ringing the doorbell and it was beginning to annoy me.
so i made myself immune to every single sound around me and went back to sleep,
just for the fun of it.
hey, its not every day you can lock your dad outside the house!


so poor dad had to call my phone
after hours and hours of ringing the doorbell chey
hahaha
at least he apologized for waking me up!


anyway i dont remember what im supposed to blog about.
have any of you watched Paris Hilton My New BFF?
oh em geeee, that show's the bomb.
you should watch it!
its like, you can learn so many things from there.
(by doing the opposite that the girls do)





that is an overdue picture from one of the five-month-old rolls.
that is Fuzzlehhhhhh the irritating! =D
interested, email me. hahahaha wtf



you know, i notice that i have more and more things to say every day
and all the delusion is accumulating in my brain
and i can assure you its driving me nuts. PEANUTS!


it sucks not being able to verbalize.
there are just some things you feel the need to get out of your system
but sometimes no one seems to care.
or understand.
times like these, i find myself talking to myself,
which proves how demented i am but somehow it makes me feel sane.
insanely sane.


Miss Suhaily power ah. -___-
she just HAD to show my argumentative essay to the class next door
and she said shes gonna show it to the whole 4-Express.
God, tell me what ive done wrong to deserve this?
that was the most embarrassing essay ive ever done
because i wrote about a teacher who apparently owns 'hip-length armpit hair'.


but then again, the topic for the essay was something like,
"appearance reflects character. do you agree?"
and of course i disagreed
because appearance does not reflect character.


this is CHARACTER we're talking about, not reputation.
appearance reflects reputation because reputation is what people think of you.
but character is different. character is YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU, YOU
character is who you are when no one is watching.
we probably can never know a person's true character.
thats why twins cant even pass acting as each other, isnt it?


by the way, i screwed my mother tongue oral and paper and everything else.
science practical was alright though.
i enjoyed it very much, plus the weather was pleasant.
it was raining.
i like rain.
i can never be in a bad mood when it's raining.
unless it's humid or hot when it's raining of course.
i like cold. i like cold. i liiiiiiiiike cold.


i feel that 16 is the perfect age to defy parents.
hahahaha.
i insist so.
there's like, no other perfect age to defy parents, i feel.
i dont know.
maybe im saying that

just because im 16 and i want to defy my parents for the fun of it,
but sadly, im just far too kind and thoughtful.
hahahaha wtf


you know, sometimes i envy banglah men.
they get to sit on the grass under the milky twilight on a daily basis,
without a care in the world.
they are free.
im such a sourpuss but i really do want to be carefree.
but as Shari said, it's better to suffer now than later.
but then again, it's better to not suffer at all.
hahaha. oh well. you can't win them all.


ive completed only about 7 chapters of physics.
and i've 7 chapters left for chemistry.
and i havent started on poa. at all. gone case.
im doomed, but in a calm way. (?)


i dont need a sheet of paper
to prove to the whole world that i am intelligent or smart.
chey rebel seh. -___-


okay guess what, my headache is gone!
oooh the magic of blogging!!!!

good night!
will be back on May 14th!
whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo




i am a lonely girl,
please tag me )=
hahahahahahahaha