This is how we'll dance when,
When they try to take us down.
This is what will be
Oh glory




as you can see, i got me a new layout!
REJOICE!!!!!!
procrastination brings absolute joy to my soul! (?)

so ive completed my chemistry homework!
and a BIT of one set of math paper two.
so ive got a full POA set, 3.5 math paper 2, and english summary left!
thats not so bad!
(pffft, trying to look on the bright side here)

however, considering school starts in less than half a day,
ive pretty much got a few things to worry about.
thank god i've washed my shoes.
they're white now!

for some stupid reason i became partially blind last night.
my spectacles were in two, idk what happened, really!
me and Madi were lazing around on my bedroom floor
and then i sat up to wipe my spectacles and they just broke into two!

okay FINE they didnt break im exaggerating.
the screws came loose or something.
honestly i was quite disappointed.
i thought i would have a chance to get a new pair of spectacles.
i saw a pair, they're pink!
not those baby pink pink, its those really hot pink pink
that makes me shiver with delight! WHOO!

oh yes, if not wearing spectacles was bad enough,
Oxy face wash thing got into my eyes! )=
IT BURNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNS




okay im hungry.
i probably should be completing the remains of my homework
but i really dont feel like it.

my tutor counted - 14 weeks til the first week of October.
which means Prelims is somewhere in between.
ive freaked out centuries ago so im feeling rather nonchalant now.
a little shocked, but not shocked enough to actually start studying hard.
what is wrong with me?
i need to pull myself together and then push myself to 13 points at most.

mom gave me a hundred bucks out of the blue today.
im quite relieved! *wipes sweat*
now i can get film!
and i found a roll in my drawer
i dont remember which one that is hahahaha!
i probably should get it processed to see!
ah yes, now i can get tees from Chaoscircus. praise the skiesssssssss~


so yes the latest news is that the King of Pop has gone.
gone too soon, i might say.
it took the world by surprise, obviously.
and now at almost every site you land in, you can see his face.
or hear one of his songs.
why?
everyone had all the time in the world
to love and worship and cherish and ogle at him.
why do so only when he's gone?

it's strange isnt it, how he was taken advantage of when he was around,
and when he's gone, the world just turns upside down.

only now do people take him seriously
and say kind and loving words about him.
when he was alive,
the people were accusatory,
pointing fingers at him and calling him a rapist.
why is it that only when hes gone
do people start playing his music
and watching his music videos?
you had his whole lifetime to shower him with fanmail and love.

i dont grief for his loss.
i grief for the life he had to lead
under the pressure of the press and everything else.
i suppose this goes to show that,
to put it simply,
we just have to cherish one another.
before it's too late.


...and really, that statement reflects alot on me. =/


well welllllllllllll, on to happier things.
im quite contented with how life is at the moment.

(not because i just got a hundred bucks ok puhleeeease)
ive been selfish at some points, i cant deny.
but lets not turn this entry into a self-deprecatory one.
i'll make this as jovial as possible because hey,
school's reopening tomorrow.
i need all the happiness i can get.


my fingers are itching to do a cover of Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy!
oh em geeeee, should i should i should i should i??!?!?!!?!
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!

Sunny's Violet Rays gig on 5th July!
when is 5th July?!?!?!
IT'S THIS SUNDAY!!!!!
SHOULD I SHOULD I SHOULD I SHOULD I?!?!?!
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i'd very much like to blog about the time
Ahmad Izzat farted into my face but i'd rather not
for fear of karma. hahahaha

i wish some event like Geek Gig Week
will be held again later this year.
im definitely not going to organize another event again.
seriously.
heart pain, you know. hahaha.

the school really needs excitement.
heck, we'll probably spend National Day in the hall again.
i miss 2006 when the whole school squeezed in the concourse
and sang our hearts out and had a lucky draw
and a food and fun fair.
and everything felt so right,
i felt like i was part of a big thing; a big and loving family.

the school isnt like a school now.
it's like some random dilapidated building
i go to every day because i am supposed to.
even if i get paid to,
i cant think of anything nice to say about the school.

there's just nothing else to look forward to,
furthermore with H1N1 lingering.
(speaking of which, thank goodness cross country is cancelled!)

ah good news.
my hair's screwed now.
HAH!

ah i keep forgetting to blog about this.
sometime ago i received a text.

F: hello!
Zany: do i know you?
F: yes you know me! we live quite near to each other.
your sch at jurongville. your name syazwani. your bro is syazwan.
you wear specs. your nick is zany MUAHAHAHAHEHEHEHEHUHUHUHUHU!!!!!
(Seriously he typed that)
Zany: Sorry you got the wrong number.
F: THEN WHO YOU!
Zany: Ching Chong Fan yumyum. (AHDILA MADE ME TYPE THIS.)
F: ZANY!!!!!! You know (hisname)?
Zany: No, i dont know! Im ching chong fan!!!
F: oi gile! hahahaha
Zany: What gile? I really duno you! Who the hell is (hisname) ? What a weird name
F: okay fine. i change lah. im char kway teow. Nice to meet you chee chong fun.
Zany: Who is chee chong fun? I am ching chong fan. You got the wrong number
F: alah spell wrongly lah. U ching chong fan.
Zany: ok bye
F: weiiiii i wana talk to u lah! what bye!

-_________________-

what the what the what the
ok that whole portion was pointless hahaha.
gah this probably the worst blog entry ever written.
hence, i apologize.

ooooh bedtime in an hour!
i simply must go!
hahahaha

good night! have fun in school tomorrow!
... if you can.

OH MY GOD IT'S RADYAMANSYAH BIN(TE) JAMALUDDIN
AKA RADY AKA R4DY AKA AMAN AKA SYAH
AKA GBF FRVR'S BIRTHDAY AND HE DIDNT TELL ME!!!!
no matter!!!! better late than never!!!
hahaha chey rady 17 already!!!!

dear rady! (hahahahaha!)
lets push asidethe fact that ive known you for less than a year,

because it feels much much much longer than that, really!

and i know you feel that way too cause youre a stalker etc
amazing how it all started from
a friendster comment regarding unicorns eh?
HAHAHAHAHAHA!

so yessss, thanks for tolerating my bratty behaviour
most of the time when many people
(except Ahdila because she loves me to bits and pieces)
wouldve just pushed me away.
and thanks for literally dragging me out of the house
on my sixteenth birthday just because
you think people shouldnt stay home
on their sweet sixteen.

so let me see, i owe you a movie plus lunch
but you still owe me ice-cream, right,
and youre going to pay for all

the lionshuttering/jamming sessions right?!?!?!
YES!!!!!

i dont know why im talking so much,
maybe its cause Rady's not online
and hes lazing on his sofa now like some pig
and since hes not online im typing everything i need to say here
cause i type really slow when texting. )=
and for some foreboding reason Syaifullah and i
are communicating through email!
WTF WHY ARE TALKING THROUGH EMAIL YOU IDIOT
HAHAHAHAHAHA!

okay out of point.
happy birthday Rady!
have fun being 17, a cheerleader, and a gay best friend!
(=




ps. my family is having some sort of gathering tonight. since mom is now serious about the computers being switched off at 11pm SHARP, i must oblige. so we're gonna watch Transformers 1 because Megan Fox's real hot and all. i suggested we all squeeze in mom's bed cause theres a TV and a CD player in her room but she said im ridiculous which im not! )= im not, right?

Newpaper taxis appear on the shore
Waiting to take you away
Climb in the back with your head in the clouds
And you're gone






THESE MADE MY WEEK:



HELLO CHERUBICAAAAAA~
ive been trying to stop myself from watching this
because once i start i'll keep hitting the replay button
and it goes on and on and on until my bedtime!

i like to see arai's face overflowing with emotion!

hahaha idk the whole thing's just so enjoyable i like it i like it
i never get tired!!!!





this is hilarious too!



it was the assistant's fault! HAHAHAHA







one word: FAIL







FUZZ DREW ME!
im actually quite simple to draw!
i dont have much details, hahaha!
and wtf?
Fuzz just called me Nurul Zebra.
BUT IM A LION *eyes shimmer with tears*






this made my brother and i laugh our lungs out!
adorable, really! and that :3 smiley face at the end
HAHAHA OMG CUTE OR WHAT!







hahaha, first im a cupcake, now im 'a wood'.

but the last time i checked,
i was a human being. i could be wrong though!
HAHAHAHAHA



guess what!
i screwed the MYOB exam today.
i dont know what went wrong but the stupid thing just wont balance
and the system wouldnt let me reconcile.
i dont want to be an accountant when i grow up,
that career path will NEVER cross my mind,
plus i took this exam against my will
so yeah, i doubt i'd be bothered if i dont get a distinction.
no big dew, mic mac mew.


i ditched school to spend the day with mom and bro yesterday,
hahahaha awesome.
we watched Transformers.
i dreaded watching it so much because
the last time i watched Transformers in the cinema
i felt like dying. it just wasnt my thing.
and my brother was there beside me,
so yayapapaya and immune to
the torture i had to endure for the whole couple of hours.
i'd sooner watch a painful horror film.
i was silently praying that there wouldnt be any slots
so we'll get to watch Drag Me To Hell instead but tough luck zany.

eh but Transformers wasnt so bad, really.
i like it!
this is crazy!
me, Transformers?!
hahahaha!
and today i had a debate with a few people -
who's hotter, Megan Fox or the alien girl who tried to shag Sam?
i placed my bets on Megan Fox
but every guy in the universe seemed to vote for alien girl.
why?


anyway halfway through the climax i had to pee.
wtf?!
it's so perfectly typical of my bladder
to want to burst and spray pee everywhere
just when the most exciting things are happening around me.
in the end i let my bladder win so i ran out of the cinema and pee-ed.
i mean, i looked for the toilet to pee lah
not run outside then pee ah never mind

anyway i got myself a pair of jeans for nineteen bucks!
WHOO!
and the other day i was rummaging
the coat closet and guess what i found?
a black leather jacket, a faded denim jacket,
and another denim jacket!
i went, holy shit holy shit holy shit for the rest of the day
because i didnt know my parents were so cool.
i mean, first the $2 Australian jumpers and now these?!
it's not like i would ever wear the jackets,
but the thought of my parents owning them felt good. somehow.

my mother told me that her colleague (aged 21) said to her
that lately, she's been observing many youngsters
having DSLRs and such,
slung around their necks or their shoulders.
to my mom's horror (and mine), her colleague told her
that she thought it was very cool and stylish
and BEGGED HER DAD to get a camera for her.

this is one of the things i meant
when i blogged my june 06 entry,
"the wonders of a shower".
cameras are becoming more and more like accessories.

i dont give a damn if you disagree with my point of view,
thats your problem.

no one's stopping you from taking your stand,
but obviously, my point is proven.
just because everyone's doing it,
it doesn't mean you have to do it, too.
just because it's cool,
doesn't mean you're not already cool B-)
chey idk what im saying, really hahahaha


and yes!
how can a lady aged twenty-one WITH A JOB
beg her father for something to be worn for the sake of looking good?
we're not talking about $1 jelly bangles here, alright.
we're talking about $1000 - $545214317241122123692514754-worth cameras!
i dont even ask my parents for things i want!
and on rare occassions that i do,
the stuff are worth what, six bucks?!

i dont have a job and i shop with my money.
i get thirty bucks a week and
i dont see anything to complain about
unlike girls who get 200bucks a month
and have the nerve to get all teary-eyed and complaintive.
yes, it happens, right in my face,
and it takes every ounce of strength i have
to stop myself from reaching out and strangling that whoever.



moving on!
i wonder if any of you caught my blog entry last night.
gah, melodramatic much.

i know Sofia saw it cause she told me the meaning of kedondong.
apparently it's some fruit.
it sounds like a Traditional Malay something.
okay i really dont have anything to blog about.
ive been the most aggravated soul
in the whole macrocosm (whatever that means haha)
because i simply refuse to do any homework
and i stay superglued to to the computer
when there isnt even anything interesting on the net!
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME TELL ME!

so yeah, homework to be done by Monday:
▲ FOUR Math Paper 2s
▲ one full set of POA
▲ Chemistry W1-6
▲ Chemistry Revision Worksheet

so much for being inspired after going through
three days of Project Super Achievers. =/
my willpower is no where to be found.

im kicking two math paper 2s off the list today.
i dont know how but i will.
i feel the power!!!!

truthfully, i suspect this is all wishful thinking.
so wish me luck



anyway, a big hug to those who bothered to tag!!!


(that pathetic and sad ball of yellow would be YOU...
if you tagged hahahaha)

ps. anyone wanna head to Ikea with me? im in need of fun

another day wasted,
another twenty-four hours closer to the big O's.
dearest Zany, in the words of Your Demise,
the clocks aren't ticking backwards.

why can't you get that through your thick skull?
why?
fuck it.

tonight i read my nineteen-year-old brother bedtime stories.

tag reply to various taggers:
pictures in my blog are taken with
Canon Powershot A560/ DSLR/ Diana F+/ Holga (GCFN)/ Webcam.
mostly with Canon Powershot.
all edited at picnik.com.

tag reply to shahira:
some are Nikon D80 and a few are D90.
nope, not mine. Diana F+'s is my brother's.
(=

Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you




Fathers' Day was well-spent!
a night at Sakura Internation Buffet!
yummy yummy fill my tummy!
and to think dad initially insisted on eating
Ikan Bakar (burnt fish?) at some hawker centre!
HAHAHAHA!

i shall let the picturs do the talking.
mom was amazed by the effect of Night Mode
when i shake-shake the camera
for the long exposure thingy
resulting in the streaks of light!
it was like a complete revelation to her
so we started camwhoring!
HAHAHAHAHA

my parents proclaim and declare that my bedtime's at eleven!
and the cycle goes on and on.
let's pray they'll forget about it again.
the last time they set me a bedtime,
they forgot about it in about a month or so.
=D


ADVANCED WARNING: because of my so-called bedtime,
pictures are anyhow-ly and gancheong-ly edited.
)=












(Their wedding anniversary was last week! =D )






Dad's trademark pose.
HAPPY FATHERS' DAY DADDEHHHHH!
IIIEEE LURBBEX EUUUZ VEWWWIE VEWWIE MUCHHIEXXX!!!
INFINITY TIMES INFINITY TIMES INFINITY TIMES INFINITY
TIMES INFINITY TIMES INFINITY TIMES INFINITY TIMES INFINITY!!!!!
=D






(L)(L)(L) x68715415175374

(hahaha my parents are huge fans of CROCS!
so cute!)

holy cow! Christopher Grosse, the boy with the mesmerizing voice!!!!
in the same picture as meeeee! POWER AH!!!!!
HUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHUHU

HEY BEAUTIFOOLLLSSSSSS -___-

today was a beautiful day!
(today = Saturday = 21st June)
i spent the day with Audrey and it was awesome,
i swear, no joke.


i saw the most amazing shoessss but they cost 49 bucks.
but they're pretty worth it, if you ask me.
Audrey'll kill me if i dont get them.
but the problem was,
theyve got a pair of size 40 left,
and here's the kick, one size 38 and one size 39.
its like, the 38 and 39 make a pair.
-__-

i wonder if anyone's gonna get them.
im a size 38 and when i tried those on they felt funny
but they looked so good i just didnt care. hahahaha

anyway,
at noon i cooked two servings of maggi mee
and kept them in lunchboxes
and we had a feast on the rooftop.
i was wearing my brother's Vote For Pedro shirt,
so i was a happy kid all day long!!!

look how happy i was even when doing

the most cacat-est pose in the whole world!!!

Audrey Nah / Audrina.

so cute right? you want?