When you're all alone in the lands of forever
Lay under the milky way
On and on, it's getting too late out
I'm not in love this time this night






HELLO SUNSHINES
AS YOU ALL KNOW, IT RAINED TODAY!
(and its still raining now. AMAZING.)
i took a one-hour-walk with my temporary-favourite umbrella!!!!!!!!


well ...nothing much happened. -_-
but thats okay cause i had fun!

it rained heavilyyyyyy, the heavier the better!
i brought my ampeefour along but i didnt listen to music at all.
i think i'd rather listen to the rain pelting down on my umbrella.
it felt good.
like i had absolutely no care in the world.
i should do this more often!!!!!

i was singing my lungs out throughout the journey
which obviously is the reason why the rain refused to stop.
IT. WAS. AWESOME!!!!
... and then i saw a dead rat at the boardwalk!!!!
i screamed, "OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD."
and then i saw a loooong worm between my two feet.
i screamed, "OH MY GOD. OH MY GOD." again.
IT WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so yeah ive decided that the best songs to sing are Demi Lovato's songs.
theyre just so ridiculously high and powerful
that they get me breathless and THAT, my dear friend, is awesome. 8-D

AND DEMI'S NOT JUST ANOTHER DISNEY WHATEVER OKAY,
her range is wide enough to sweep you off your feet!

and she's really amazing live!
oh and i was singing this classic song by Charlene,
shes singing from the perspective of a prostitute i think.
"I've been undressed by kings
and I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see"
HAHAHAHAHAHA ok sorry im being really immature.

i remember my mom buying a compilation cd back then when i was little.
and i loved that song so much i kept listening to it over and over again.
then one day my mom sat me down and looked me in the eye.
"Do you know what this song means?" she asked,
(yknow in the sort of tone Mrs Merriweather
probably used on Scout during the missionary circle's tea thing)

i had no idea what that song meant, so i was like, nawwww!
i mean, hello i was a kid, i didnt know a thing.
and so my mom told me about the whole prostitute thing,
and indeed, IGNORANCE IS BLISS.

i boycotted the song since then but here's a secret,
i can still remember every single word in that song.
"I spent my life exploring the subtle whore-ing that costs too much to be free!"
*beams proudly* HAHAHA WTH.

but honestly, its a beautiful song.
i mean, its not like its influencing people to adopt that kind of lifestyle.
its actually convincing women that they should appreciate their lives,

cause theyve got something permanent that loves them,

not like the protagonist of the song who switches partners.

get what i mean?

the song goes something like,
"You wanna know what truth is?
It's that little baby youre holding.
And that man you fought with this morning.
The same one youre gonna make love with tonight.
Thats truth, thats love."

OH OH AND THERES THIS PART WHERE SHE SANG,
"But I ran out of places and friendly faces,
because I had to be free."
AWEEESUUUUMMMMMMMMMM.
i wonder how people come up with these breathtaking quotes.
I LOVE IT I LOVE IT
*claps*

the song's on Youtube, maybe you should go check it out. =D


okay so anyway did i mention that i woke up today feeling like poop
because i missed the Friends episode i'd been dying to watch?
WELL DUH THE EPISODE WHERE RACHEL BROKE UP WITH ROSS!!!!!!

i camped in the living room just to watch it at 1am
but i ended up sleeping sometime between 12.30 to 1.
i dont think i was 'too tired' from the recording or anything
cause i didnt do much!!!!
okay i MAY HAVE jumped around and danced a little under Ash's influence
but other than that i didnt do anything physically straining.
OH NEVER MIND!

in any case, i did my duty and googled that episode
in the end i only got to watch bits of it.
so yeah i spent my whole morning crying.

crying because the scenes were really heartbreaking,

not because i didnt get to watch the whole episode! haha

then i watched the last episode of the season

when Rachel flew to Paris to work

and she said goodbye to everyone except Ross.

sigh, classic. got me crying like a girl!

oh wait i AM a girl.

okay whatever.

girls these days are such tough cookies they dont even cry.
i, however, cry a little too much. )=
but its okay, tear glands exist for a reason!

oh yeah i havent bragged to anyone
(probably cause theres no one to brag to except maybe...
Hafiz Deon Gwendolyn Zavier Fiona Eugene
Gilda Hannah Akif and all my other juniors hahaha)
THAT O LEVELS HAVE OFFICIALLY ENDED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pats on the back for me, you, you, you and whoever survived it!
it wasnt as murderous as i might have expected.
i mean, teachers and all those motivational workshop people were totally exaggerating,
"This is the last 100metres! Dont give up! Just keep sprinting!"
and the strange thing is all of them who said it
used the exact same supposedly-inspiring tone and the exact same words!
boo! what a ripoff!!!!!!!

and every month (or week.. or day...) the teachers reminded us
that we shouldnt give up when HELLOOOO!
hardly anyone was straining themselves in the first place.
HAHAHAHA. its kinda funny when i think back. =D

idk about you but thats how things were in my school.
everyone was pretty much in their own world.
we did study! of course we did!
but we didnt see this whole O levels thing as a matter of life and death.

i mean, i bumped into my primary schoolmate Rachel
and she said her classmates were doing fifteen hours a day!!!!
HOLY COW!!! FIFTEEN!!!!
that barely gives you time to take long walks!!!!!
i tell you, i almost died there and then at the bustop,
because all i'd been doing was three hours a day
INCLUSIVE OF PROCRASTINATION.

but thats okay its all over now and i'd like to thank
whoever who gave me the support i needed.
the conversations on MSN, the encouraging hugs, the tags, the texts,
the texts-that-came-at-4am-when-you-jolly-well-know-i-needed-rest-for-my-paper-the-next-morning,
the 'you-confirm-can-make-it-one-lah's,

friends like Ahdila who made me feel like i wasnt the only lost bird,
and Chris G who is the most encouraging person on earth
and Amir A. who wished me the best for all my papers

and demanded reviews on the papers

and Audrey who studied with me
and Jinny who i called constantly to clear my doubts
and Raveender who scolded me big time

when i couldnt define 'relative molecular mass'.
(she made me memorize it on the spot and guess what? IT WAS TESTED. =O ),
and Spidey who prayed for me before the math paper.
HAHAHA SO CUTE LAH.
oh and thank you teachers TUTOR!!!! ^.^


oh gosh my feet are aching now.
trust my stupidity to wear tight shoes for a long walk!!!!!!
i sure hope i wont get hookworms (itchy feet) from walking in the rain. )=
but thats quite a reasonable price to pay to get to enjoy nature.
but then again, why should there be a price to pay to enjoy nature?

so anyway my phone's getting spammed with messages
about this mixage party at Zirca on the 16th.
actually, my phone's been getting spammed since before o's even started.
how disgusting.

and for pete's sake, people,
honestly do i look like im someone who would go clubbing?!!??!!
I AM VERY DISTURBED.

i can think of better things to do from 9pm to 4am!
SLEEP, doh!!!!
or read a book!
books can teleport you to places!
books can teleport you to clubs!
but i'd rather be teleported to

somewhere cold and colourful with lots of grass! =D

yknow, the sort of weather where the unrelenting brightness of the Sun
is shining on you but you dont feel heat, at all?
cause its really cold outside!!
that cant happen in Singapore, well, obviously. -.-
we're too near to the equator.

books make up for ALLLLLLLLLLL the wonderful things
i dont get to experience in Singapore.
gosh i really need to plan a visit to the library!!!!!!
or a bookstore where they dont wrap their books in clear plastic! =D

yknow, my life is really exciting right now,
in ways you cannot imagine!!!!
(psh haha)

honestly i feel like ive got plenty of free time to kill.
im not gonna get a job.
mom says no to jobs.
she thinks teenagers will get too obsessed with money they'll forget education.
pffft pffffffffft.
honestly im not even thinking about the money!!!!!
i mean, i like money. WHO DOESNT?!?!!

but im definitely not obsessed.
plus IM THINKING ABOUT BOOKS.
which is why ive always dreamed of working in a bookstore.
PICTURE IT!!!!
MEEEEEEEE~... IN A BOOKSTORE.... ^.^

but my tutor reckons i should enjoy these five months
because never in my life will i have five consecutive FREE months again!
(except when im old and dying, perhaps)

okay i know what i can do to kill time!!!!!
long walks are on the top of the list!!!!!!
and song-writing! but im doing that almost everyday anyway.
ooh! ooh! ooh!!!!
LONG BUS RIDES!!!!!
yeahhhh THIS IS THE LIFE! \m/
one time, i was on a long bus ride,
and i was at Circuit Road (WHERE THE HELL IS THAT?!?!)
i wanted to get home so i alighted the bus and decided to cross over
so that i could get home in the other direction.
after i crossed over,
i realized that ITS A FUCKING ONE-WAY ROAD!!!!
i cant think of anything more disgusting than a one-way road.
poor pedestrians like me )=
hahahaha BANISH SELF-PITY!

so anyway i was in exasperation; DESPERATION I TELL YA!!!!!
i called Zoolhayley and demanded directions.
apparently he thought i was some girl called Nisa
and he was watching a movie
so he showed the least inclination to help this damsel in distress. SIGHHH )=
HAHAHAHA LOL WHATEVER ZANY!

but anyway, i got home in one piece,
but missed Hope & Faith on Star World!
still, glad thats over!
phew! *wipes sweat*

OH GOSH LOOK AT ME IM BLOGGING LIKE HOW I USED TO!
i probably should stop talking. i bought Hairspray on VCD!
wouldve preferred chick flicks with the power to reduce me to tears
but there wasnt much on sale at Laserflair (gah, so un-glam HAHA).
but im probably getting a book next!
or an outfit for grad night.
oh gawwwwwd this sucks.
can i just wear some tshirt and a pair jeans and my favourite pair of converse?