and in case you're wondering,

Robert hasn't added me on MSN.

i just got my Macbook Pro today

and it is frustrating.

very frustrating indeed.

see my face? stress.

shall update a longer entry tonight or something.

i named my Macbook Nutmac by the way.
yknow, like, nutmeg, nutMAC?
HAHAHA funny innit!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

*cricket sounds*

OH COME ON!!!!!!!!!!!!

*cricket sounds get louder*

it was my brother's idea, by the way.
just in case you dont find it funny or cute hahahaha



oh yeah.
i forgot.
noticed something different about my blog?
no?

i made a new blogskin, you silly goose!!!!

ps. guess what! i ate McSpicy and shaker fries today.
HELL YEAH SHAKER FRIES \m/

'how so?'??!
i know i responded rudely
and i couldve done otherwise
but YOU made it sound as if
I was the one who started this whole thing.

while we havent even heard a single word from P,
i already said sorry for my silly wisecrack.
and because ive already apologized,
YOUR TAG IS REDUNDANT.
it's like adding fuel to the nonexistent fire.

if youre here to have an 'intellectual argument' with me,
save it.

mycardboardlife.com IS AWEEEESOME!

heyho!
my computer's being a grouch
so i probably wont be blogging much.
not until i get a laptop anyway.
i decided to get Macbook Pro.
reason? GARAGEBANDDDDDDD
dont get me wrong, Vaio's sexy and all
but garageband is irresistible, really.

anyway, im in two minds about
going to the camps in poly.
im really really really lazy to meet new people and socialize.
i thought i was the only one who felt this way
but i asked Fat'hil and Taufik and they said yeah.
its like secondary school on repeat minus the uniform and teachers
but Chris G said it's really different
and poly's more awesome.

anyway i got a free large double chocolate frappe on thursday,
special thanks to Spidey and Hakim, yaynessssss!

im now craving for oreo cheesecake and Fairly Odd Parents.




ODD PARENTS, FAIRLY ODD PARENTS!
WANDS AND WINGS,
LITTLE CROWNY THINGS!


and it just suddenly hit me that
Danny Phantom isnt on Nickelodeon anymore!



but thats okay, yknow?
i think ive pretty much watched all the episodes.
hahahahaha


anyway! ive never been crazy about cheesecake
but the word 'cheesecake' kept appearing on my news feed on Facebook
last night and i felt so, so, so hungry
but ive only got a few cents. poop.

anyway a Cheers store just opened a block away from my house!
oh, the convenience!!!!!!!



cheers!





hahaha get it???
'Cheers', cheers????


-___-

ps. tummy ache forever )'=

excuuuuuse me, Robert!?!
(ROBERT?!?!??!)
so IM the rude one now?
there'd be no name-calling if there
hadn't been any hate-tagging or insulting
in the first place, mind you.

but anyway just to satisfy you,
after much thinking,
P wouldve been pussy, of course.
N wouldve been nincompoop.
S wouldve been sucker, i think,

though it sounds a little pathetic.
and i cant think of anything for B.
hahahahaha

but yeah, i'll "do away with the lame ass excuses",
if you, Robert,
do away with your redundant and sarcastic tags.
thanks and have a nice day!!!!!!



okay omg wtf next tag i get im gonna ignore seriously!!!
fight fire with fire and all you get is a bigger fire.
(and lots of random names tagging your tagboard)
cant stand the fact that people are trying to find fault with me.
is it just me or do people find fault with other people also??!

sheeeeeesh!

Living is easy with eyes closed
Misunderstanding all you see
It's getting hard to be someone but it all works out
It doesn't matter much to me




hellowhellow!
ive watched the whole season one of 90210!!!
yay!
my life is now complete.


now, what shall i do til school opens in april?
i thought i could spread out the episodes like yknow,
one episode a day or something
but i just had to give in to the sweet temptation!!!!
i'd love to talk about how adorable Navid and Adrianna are together
but im thinking you probably dont even have a bloody clue who these people are.
im trying to look for the part where Navid first confesses to Adriana,
to put it here, but i cant find it!
)=

yknow?
the part where he pulled Adriana out of the car
and got punched by the drug-dealer
and Adriana was all "WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?!?!?!"
and Navid was all "I LIKE YOU ADRIANNA! I LIKE YOU!"
and she was all "stop it! stop talking!"
and then he starts talking about seventh grade
and Naomi comes and Adriana cries and hugs her
and that's my que (and yours, too!) to cry )'=

well yeah. something along that line.
what? i only watched it like, eight times.
*shrugs*

anyway looky here!



as much i'd love to brag that it's my brand new laptop, i can't.
cause it isn't.
bummer, right?
seriously, it made you scream, right?!
it's so purrrdyyy!!!!

anyway i think im either getting a Vaio or a Mac.
ugh i dont like the thought of owning a laptop.
it'll take a miracle for me to not spoil it or lose it within a year.
damn it.

so anyway, today, after two weeks i finally picked up my guitar and sang.
it felt good.

... well, thats all.
i think i feel complete cause of that, not cause of 90210.
yeah, this makes more sense.

cause i like singing.

playing guitar, not so much.

but singing, yes definitely.

and i guess it really doesnt matter if i sing badly

cause its not like im torturing you by uploading cover after cover

and making you subscribe to my youtube or something, right?


okay imma print a photo of my mommay and stick it on her birthday present.
it's her birthday today!

after i do that im gonna search for pictures of the fallow deer on Flickr.
i really want to own a deer!
)=

i mean, it's a much much better idea than owning a lion right?

Marcus tags:
"Lol NSK stands for Neighbourhood School Kid.
Learnt it from a couple of Raffles boys I know.
I don't know P, neither do I know you,
so I think I'm pretty objective.
I don't know why P submitted incomplete tags lol but honestly?
"and dude, what? I don't even have to try to be different. I just am"
LOL that comes across as being full of it and obnoxious.
Also.
Pussy? Hahaha i don't know about you,
but its scientifically proven that
there's this bit in our brain that unleashes animalistic instinct.
Name calling happens to be one of the lowest forms of
retaliation. Meaning, people who call others names,
are probably incapable of using the language as a tool
to fully defend themselves,
thus resorting to name calling to inflict damage.
Tried to figure out the worthless statement,
maybe P meant it like,
The blind leading the blind?
In the same way, the worthless admiring the worthless,
only cause they don't know better?
Haha idk,owell"




well, really, Pussy is simply the short form of
someone who is cowardly but tends to pretend otherwise.
learnt it from other 'NEIGHBOURHOOD SCHOOL KID' S, uhm, aka NSK.
oh wait, no. learnt it from a couple of ACSI boys
who happen to be my bandmates, actually.

personally i dont get why the word HAS to be Pussy, though.
i mean really, whuuut? haha.

to be honest its kinda gross and ive never used it before
but it happens to start with the letter P.
sorry for my silly wisecrack, but yeah,
if he/she had written N (or something) instead,
i really wouldnt have came up with anything,
cause im really inexperienced and uhm 'noob' at being nasty or mean.

it just crossed my mind, cause, yeah,
there's this bit in my brain
that unleashes amimalistic instinct. glad to know im human.
and yepppp, i am incapable of using the language
as a tool to fully defend myself. for now anyway.
but so be it, really.
cause P IS pretty cowardly.
i mean, hate-tagging? as 'P'? really?
you gotta admit, that IS pretty low for someone
who thinks he/she is superior towards a 'lowly NSK' like me.

and personally, Marcus, nah,
i dont think P meant that.
but thanks for tagging anyway, Marcus,
really appreciated it. well, kinda.
at least now i know more about my brain,
and what NSK actually means.

oh yes.
about the "I don't even have to try to be different. I just am" statement.
well yeah.
i so knew someone would say something about it,
or at least (wrongly) assume my level of egoism.
but dude. i repeat.
I DONT HAVE TO TRY TO BE DIFFERENT. I JUST AM.
what, you mean we're all the same?

call me obnoxious or 'full of it' or whatever you want,
but i dare you to go find another YOU.
if you say you cant, would it make you obnoxious or 'full of it'?
sheesh. helllll NOOOOO.
i know youre not.
and im not either.
and i believe, of all people, i know myself best,
or at least better than you do.


seriously, it has always bothered me
why people have to make personal attacks
on other people accusing them of 'trying to be different'
when really, they're actually being themselves.


'trying to be different' is a phrase i can never understand.
)=


and also, it has always bothered me
that students from neighbourhood schools seem to be looked down on.
is it really happening or is it just me?
i mean, 'NSK'? seriously?
i think 75% (or more) of NSKs
dont even have a bloody clue
that theyre being called NSKs!!!!

)=



and hey readers,
i know im not the the mature-est of all teenagers out there
and im definitely not brimming with wisdom,
but i'd really appreciate it
if you forgave me for stupid things i do
or pointed out insensitive things i say.
provided its fair and it makes sense, of course.

because im really just human.
im just a girl.
im sixteen and im still learning.
i do dumb and impulsive things once in a while,
and i dont see the need to be embarrassed about that.
*quotes singing sensation Hayley Williams*
"We're teenagers, we don't know anything."
(=

by the way,
DOOOODZ IM TURNING SEVENTEEN IN LESS THAN A MONTH!
me?! seventeen?!?!?
i know it's just an age
but ive never actually pictured myself going this far.
=O




okay now, back to my season one of 90210!

ps. Navid and Adrianna = luvvvvvvv
(omg, *fangirl scream*)
gonna go search videos of sweet moments of them later!!!

HELLO WORLD
i is back from indonesiaaaaa!!! =D


(the stupid bunny at the top made my mom
fill its pouch with money
after we took pictures with it. cursed!)


i fed zebras, llamas, deer, elephants and camels!!!!!!!
i had so much fun at the zoo that
i bought a zookeeper's uniform shirt thingy!
zoos are awesoooome!!!
and the best part was we didnt have to walk!
we stayed in the van the whole time
and the animals just poked their heads into the van
and we stuffed carrots into their mouths!!!!!
HOW COOL IS THAT?!?!?!?!
ULTRA COOL!!!!!

so anyway i think i over-spent.
but thats okay cause the stuff there are worth buying,
i feel so cheated living in Singapore,
but then again, maybe not.

my tourguide was called Theo
and he sleeps most of the time
and talks to lots of random girls.
.___.

a truckload of funny things happened
but theyre really those you-just-had-to-be-there moments,
if i blog it all out no one would be laughing.
then i sad. )=

oh anyway i think my new favourite animal may just be the deer!
that's ever since mom told me that when she was little,
her dad caught a deer and when he was about to slice its head off,
the deer cried!!!!!
i started crying a little when i heard the story
because deer are so gentle and loveable
(i think. i'd never actually seen a real deer at that point. only Bambi)
and when i saw a real deer in the safari i had the urge to leave the van and hug it!
its so cute and small
i cant ever stand the thought of a deer crying!!!!!



(click!)

oh deer!
(haha get it, 'oh dear', 'oh deer'?!??!
hahaha haha haha haha haha)



*awkward silence*





oooooookay.
anyway.
when i got back i got greeted by a few texts,
the sight of a cute boy at the airport,
twelve ultra sweet formspring questions
aaaaaaand
hate tags.
-______-

why oh why must mean people exist in the world?

(read chronologically, from bottom to top)






to be honest this totally killed my mood.
i was pissed, very very pissed.
in two tags (because the other two are fail tags),
some douchebag said (rather indirectly)
that im worthless, unable to sing,
a 'low calibre NSK' (whuuuut?)
and that i try so hard to be different.

published a hate tag analyzing adventure 2 last night

to follow up to the first one (click!)
but deleted that cause i wanted to combine it with this entry hahaha.

so as i was saying, when i read these i was really pissed and somewhat hurt
and then i read it again and realized that the tags are actually pretty stupid.



"It's even funnier that people are trying to imitate you,
they're blinded by your worthlessness."

doesnt this mean something like,
people want to imitate me cause im worthless?
wtf?
first sentence and you fail already, P.
but i know, i know, youre trying to say something like,
people are too blinded by my awesomeness
that they overlook my worthlessness, right?
yeah thats pretty dumb considering the fact that im not worthless!
hahaha! not even close!
in fact youre the first person to ever call me worthless.
do you even know me at all, really?

check out my tags and formspring questions!
dude! i make people happy by blogging.
(and the best part is, i dont even get paid!!!!
dyou see any cursed Nuffnang ads here?)
tell me, P, can you do that?
can you make people happy just by blogging?
what a stupid question. of course you cant.
you cant even express yourself very well.
i mean, 'P'?
even Maizurah used her name.
or some random name.
at least it was a name!
you couldve typed Penny or Peter or Pravin.
or PUSSY. cause thats what you are.


"Also amused by compliments on your singing ;-) "

yeah, i gotta admit, i AM pretty damn overrated, arent i? ;-)



"It's funny how a lowly NSK like yourself
tries so hard to be different."

it's funny? really?
and dude, what?

i dont even have to try to be different!

i just am.


and wtf is a lowly NSK? somebody explain please, thanks.



"Isn't it odd how a low calibre NSK
uses big words to make up for her apparent lack of "

i dont use big words, at all, let alone use them to compensate for...
oh wait, is 'compensate' too big a word for poor old you?
im sorry.
i'll try again.
i dont use big words, at all,
let alone use them to make up for my apparent lack of...
my apparent lack of............
uhm... my apparent lack of WHAT?!?!

you didnt complete your sentence.
im thinking it's cause you ran out of ideas on what to say.
hahahahahaha,
thats kinda sad. )=

ps. P, hate-tagging is so four years ago.
my friends and i did that when we were in secondary one!

...how old are you, really?

meh x546387245458754

i text you, you ignore
i call you, you ignore
i talk to you, you ignore
i scold you, you ignore
i think i kill myself also you ignore!
alaaaa now i sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why oh why!!!!!!





)'=

2am phonecall with Spidey P. made me cry )=

Spidey, I feel blessed to know someone like you.
You're the best kinda friend anyone could ever ask for.
I swear.

We want the airwaves back
Everybody sing, like it's the last song you will ever sing
Everybody live, like it's the last day you will ever see
(Tell me, tell me, do you feel the pressure now?)






HELLO FRIENDSSSSSSSS (OR FRIENDS OF FRIENDSSSSSSSSS)
im so happy nobody pesters me for updates anymore!
finally it is understood that i have a life.
(and wi-fi on my phone
so i dont use the computer very much now,
= NO BLOG UPDATESSSS haha)

i like to drag my ssssss!

anyway,
looky here!!!



MY NEW SHOES! =D
YOU LIKE?!?!?!?!
i got'em shipped from the states!
my life is now complete!!!

i think i like'em more than my high-cut Chucks!



....
nah.
Converse ftw, really. *shrugs*

so anywaysssssss
i think i'll reply some old+new tags.
some of them are questions and compliments
and i feel mean for not answering and saying thank you
its like im some psycho stuckup bitch or something
which im totally not
and i dont think anyone knows
that sometimes i reply tags on my tagboard itself
but not many people know
that theres actually a certain method to read my tags
(but lets keep it that way hahahaha
hinthintrefreshbuttonhinthint)!

anyway if you want replies for whatever you want to say to me,

please write on formspring, not on my tagboard. thanksssss~

so yeah here goessss.
(i pick only a few random ones k)

passer: where do u buy ur blue skirt on the post - may 17 , 2009?
cotton on ^.^

passerby:): heyy.. you look super cute when youre small. :)
hahaha yeah gotta admit that, thanks.

hmm. what the hell happened? HAHA

passerby: hello, why dont you make your tagboard free for evryone to see ur tags? :(
cause it occupies so much space, its so annoying! haha!
and i like the idea of the tags 'disappearing into thin air'! O.O

pb: wht is ur weight?
eh?! 45 or something, i cant remember!

Nxsa: i like your hair. and i miss touching your ponytail in class. hahahahha :D
eh my ponytail now short and pathetic already.

hahahaha!!! thank you anyway!

spidey: when i think of you, i touch myself.
oh no you have issues. hahahaha

ola: ur pictures r REALLYYY big! how u do it?
er, they were already big when i uploaded them onto the computer? idk!

passerby: what is sidekicks?
google.com tells all!

SPIDEY: how come when you and ash dress like a boy, you look like girls?!?!?!!? :(
cause we have long hair! i think.

passerby: you're pretty :)
thank you. (=

some guy: have you ever thought of joining another band?
nope. never.

passerby: You Rock.....
awwwwwwwwwwwwwww...

i dont know what to say. HAHAHAHA!!!

mutu: ey how u find new/nice songs? youtube? itunes? or...?
is your name really mutu??

uhh idk i dont really find nice songs hahaha. try myspace.

HEY: I LOVEEEE THE WAY YOU BLOG. Love reading them!!! Keep going!!! :D
okydoky baby! thank you!

bloghoppperrr: ahhhhhhhhhh!!Such a wonderful blog:DDi love ur photograph-ies;) bloghopping btw:)
thank you, i remember your tag making my day that day i read your tag.

...yeah. haha!

AVD: hey hello^^ super duper awesome blog n pictures ! woaw, i like(: hahs. Simply beautiful, two thumbs up pretty!
yay thanks, pictures are mostly taken by my brother/Ahdl,

and edited by myself btw. (;

HEY: update longer posts!!! love to read them!! ^^
i'll try to take some time off my busy (and nonexistent) schedule! (=

HEY: hahaha yes happy to read your long post again^^
i also happy heehee~

pb: i think ure cool.:) even though i don't knw u ..
why, thank you. 8D

SARAHH! :D: paramore is awesome, keep on udpating yo, tapi takya panjang-panjang uhs :D
but i like panjang-panjangggg!

w: I was at the concert too! Hell yeah that was THE.BEST.CONCERT.EVER. Cheers to you Paramore fan! :)
I KNOW RIGHT! CHEERS TO YOU TOO!

pb: Zany! you're pretty yaw!!!!
thank you pb (=

FarahdF: Dear ZANY, I LOVE YOU, FOREVER MORE!!!!! hehehehehehehe
YAY FARAH TAG MY BLOG!!!! FINALLYYYYYYYY!!!

I LOVE YOU, UHM, FOREVER MORE TOO~~

matin: hey!do come down to my band's gig! 16march at Arts House!i know ure bandmate Aiden btw(: ask himm along! :D do reply by emailing to mmatin08@hotmail.com
Aiden says he doesnt know you! =O

Passerby: Hey, did you study overseas? So cool. And are you malay? You don't seem like a person who speak malay.
no i didn't study overseas

and yes im malay, a pure one, in fact. i do! i do speak malay!

schmate: zany!! i saw you in sch on talent week !! mygoodness! you were very pretty!! very !! but too bad i didnt have the guts to even say hi :(
thank you! not many people said hi to me why so scared!!!! )=

i sad you know. hahahaha!

jvsian: zany cant u see? so many wannabes in school are trying so hard to be like u! make them stop! :(
=O believe me yr not the first who told me that hahahaha

sooooooooo
sup people?!
hahaha.

guess what, this morning at approximately 4am
i woke up feeling the urgent need to blow my nose.
so i grabbed a tissue and blew my nose and the next thing i knew,
blood was being sprayed everywhere.
hahahaha now when i think about it, its kinda funny.

normally i like it when my nose bleeds
because i know i'll be able to brag to Syaifullah later
(Syaifullah gets really jealous
cause he wants to have nosebleeds like i do)
but today's nosebleeds were BEYOND ridiculous, i swear.

the 4am nosebleed went on for like half an hour or something
even when i held ice against my nose!
how annoying!
i am really really really pissed off with my nose.
such an imbecile.

and then at around 12pm it bled again.
and around 2plus it bled! again!!!!
i felt such a huge loss of blood
that i had to go lie down cause i was starting to feel giddy.

and, in addition, im having my period.
(apologies if you think being open is something to be ashamed of,
it really isnt.
like, i hate it when people arent open about farting or shitting or pee-ing,
i mean im not asking you to do it in public
it just shouldnt be something worth being embarrassed about,
yknow what i mean?
it just shows your body's functioning mighty fine, you dumbarse.)

so anyway ive been sick since tuesday night.
yeahhhhhhh~
however when i went to my secondary school on Thursday
no one believed i was sick.
wah wah wah!
just because im happy doesnt mean im not sick!
just because i choose to not behave
like im about to collapse the any second
and shrivel up on the cold hard floor and die,
doesnt mean im not sick.

been trying to explain that to teachers
since i was in primary school
but no one ever believes me
but whatever you know?
hahahaha!

so anyway i bought a book on Friday!
bumped into some people that made me happy,
people i didnt know but said hi to me,
people who knew me but pretended they didnt hahahahaha (Y)(Y)(Y)
ironic isnt it?!?!?!?!


yknow, i THOUGHT i had lots of things to talk about,
but now i realize that i dont.
(ok i just lied. im just plain lazy sigh)





hahaha!!!!
i lol-ed!!!!
(no seriously, i lol-ed.)

(click!)


last night was the best night.
EVAAAAAAAAR!
honestly!!!
im still in awe and i can still see hayley right in front of me, its almost scary!
i didnt take any pictures, thank god for that cause i cant take pictures while jumping. hahahahaha




"Paramore Live in Singapore, probably had the craziest audience ever.
It was filled with adolescences and teenagers.
I had a hard time concentrating on the show, picking kids out of the moshpit."
- the photographer of the picture above



so come come i tell you what happened.

firstly, bloody hell i waited since 7.25am to get to front only to be squashed almost to death.
so anyway i was at the front initially, just one person away from hugging the railing.
AND HAYLEY WAS SO CLOSE, SO CLOSE.
it was so completely surreal, i could see almost every detail of her face,
if it werent for people around me shoving each other.
its annoying isnt it, i mean if you want to be at the front so badly why dont you come early to queue?
idiots.

so anyway they opened with Ignorance
and i was not having fun at all.
AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this girl was dying and the people wouldnt let the guard carry her out
and Steph was getting very angry and shouting

"COME ON PEOPLE SOMEONE IS DYING HERE!!!!"
and i was drifting further and further away from the rest
and i couldnt fucking breathe.

i think it was the first time ever i thought i was gonna die.
i swear i thought i was gonna die right there.
and i thought "noooo im gna die at a paramore concert".
kinda sad right, to die at your favourite band's concert.
)=

but seriously though i thought moshpits
should only be at a certain area of the standing pen
but it was like the whole standing pen was the moshpit. )=

really, it sucked to see people fainting
and other selfish people not giving a flying fuck.
pissed me off, really, but it was hard to even fend for myself.

so anyway i told Steph i couldnt take it
then i tried my best to tug at the guard to get him
to lift me up away from the pool of barbarians
and guess what?
when finally he managed to lift me up
someone freaking pulled my ankles.
O.O

yknow it was like in a cheesy movie and im the damsel in distress
and the monsters below are tugging at me
while the hero tries to save me HAHAHAH WTF!

so anyway finally i could breathe
and i felt so depressed as i sat at the side
but at least i got a bottle of water worth three bucks. hehehehe.

(three bucks, bro. NOT TWENTY BUCKS. haha)
so i sat there through crushcrushcrush and That's What You Get
but i was soooo happy when i saw Steph running towards me
during That's What You Get!
SHES ALIIIIIVE!!!!!
i was wondering how the others were doing
and this girl who was standing around us in the standing pen got out too!
SHES ALIIIIIIIVEEEE TOOO!!!!
(i treasure my life alot more now, to be honest.)

i always thought the people who got carried out by the guards
were misbehaving or making a nuisance of themselves.
now i know, they were dying. O.O

such an awesome experience i swear.
BUT THATS NOT THE END!
Steph and I watched Looking Up from the sides,
GOD KNOWS THE WORLD DOESNT NEED ANOTHER BAND WHOA OH OH OH, WHOA OH OH OH
yay!
and then the guard made us go to back
and im like, shit, the back?!
but when we got to the back, holy cowpers there was so. much. space!!!!!
i could still see Hayley clearly (she wore leopard pringz btw),
and the sound was great and there was plenty of space
to dance and jump and headbang
and even LIE DOWN!
(which i didnt, of course. why would i wna lie down?!?!)

so anyway when i got to the back it was exactly at this part:




WE!
WE!
WE!
ARE!
PARAMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORE!!

best. part. ever.
and then they played freaking Careful.
dude, its CAREFUL!!!!
best. song. EVAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR

so i pretty much got crazy and danced and headbanged like theres no tomorrow.
apparently there IS tomorrow which is why im here typing this now.
but anyway thats not the point.
even in my room behind locked doors i'd never headbanged as hard as i did last night.
and yes my neck is going to fall of any second now.
you wait and see. hahahaha



(click!)

Hayley's classic headbang. B-)


and if Careful wasnt awesome enough, they played LET THE FLAMES BEGIN right after that!!!
yes, with the Oh Father outro and Hayley kneeling down on the floor!
HOLY COWPERS!
i cant find a video of it on youtube im so sorry
but you can look at the ones they played in other countries, like in Final RIOT!.

ah AND I MANAGED TO SEE THE FLIP!!!!

its THE flip!
PARAMORE'S SIGNATURE FLIP!
DUDE!
OH MY GOD?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

if you have no idea what im talking about, watch this (0:16 to be exact)




but of course Jeremy flipped over Taylor, not Josh cause Josh is getting married hehe.



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OH OH OH!
and The Only Exception was sooo sooo soooooo beautiful i melted.
and Hayley said they're sorry they took a time to come to Singapore
and she knew we waited lightyears for this.
she also said she was surprised MTV Asia plays music videos. whuut?
and that Paramore videos were so overplayed that she got sick of seeing her own face.
gotta love that yelyah girl.



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Where The Lines Overlap and Misery Business and Brick By Boring Brick was stupendous.
they're coming back within five years im so excited i could cryyyy
oh gosh seriously it was so amazing im sorry i simply cannot get over it!
I CANNOT! I CANT! EVAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRR

$111 wisely-spent, baby.
i didnt get any merchandise but whatever.
I WAS THERE. ^.^

~teeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeee


ohh by the way!
i love Valerie and Ariani!
THEYRE ALIVE TOO, THANK GOODNESS.
i hope Gilda and Hannah are okay,
they were microscopic among the screaming fans!


and Steph, to be honest, I don't know what I would do without you.




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ps. new friends at the queue attempted to teach me to play 'taiti'!!! fail :/

ps. today i bought a dress and a top and tshirt for $25. WTF, WOW?!?!?!?!
cheap deals, i like.

Holding onto silly things, I never learn
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard




hello World.
if you're wondering how I've been doing,
to be half-honest, IM DOING GRRREAT!


im surprised that some people actually think that im happy 24/7 or something.
i found a question on my formspring,
someone asked how i can be happy all the time and i my eyes literally went O.O
am i really?!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

okay maybe i am. majority of the time.
well if you want to know my secret,
i actually memorize this quote that helps alotttt
"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry,
Show life you've got a thousand reasons to smile."

yappppppppppppppppppppppp!
life-changing, isnt it?!?!
just think about alllllllll of the things that you are (or OUGHT TO BE) grateful for,
like, uhm, having shoes. or clothes on your back.
or a roof over your head. or food! yess food!!! =D om nom nom~
or or orrrrr friends. parents. education. everything!!!!!!!!
or maybe the fact that, despite the world being pretty messed up,
you're actually still ALIVE and BREATHING!!!!
well yknow, as much as i'd looooove to live somewhere that has four seasons,
im actually pretty grateful for the fact that im in Singapore.
i mean, it's so damn safe. =O

and i dont even care if we're not allowed to chew gum here!
who likes chewing gum anyway?!?!
it gets tasteless and rubbery after a few chews!
so weird.

so anyway!
to the passerby who tagged me
asking where exactly i'll be standing in the standing pen
this Sunday at Paramore's concert (HEHEHE),
well...
I DONT KNOW!!!!
how am i supposed to know?!
i laughed for two seconds when i read your tag hahaha thanks.
you wna see me badly right. jk lololol.

i have hired Cj to protect me
during the concert
but the problem is he doesnt have a ticket.
i was supposed to call the two people selling their tickets this afternoon
but i got too caught up reading some tumblr pages.
interesting stuff, really.

but anyway i told mom i wanted to withdraw
two hundred bucks from my bank account
so i can get merchandise
and she was like "!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
but i said that jokingly but i hope she knows that im serious.
ok not really.
but if she chooses to think im serious, its okay.
cause im kind of serious.
my brother said the people at the stadium sell drinks for twenty bucks.
and i told him he was being stupid.

my brother: im serious! trust me! i worked there! Singapore Idol and Paramore different.
me: what! i didnt buy water when i went to Singapore Idol.
my brother: ok fine but really its $20!
me: no its not. if water $20 then shirt how much??
my brother: shirt is cheaper lah!
me: wtf?!
my brother: yeah cause water is more important than shirt. you jump-jump mosh-mosh then you need water. you buy shirt then still thirsty you die what.
me: but i want shirt! )=
my brother: then you buy water, then make sure you bring more money to buy shirt lah.

so irritating, i swear!!!! ~!@#$%^&*()_+
but anyway he's in Thailand with his friends now!
heehee so cute right.
i hope when im nineteen
i get to go to Thailand with my friends too.
yay shopping!




ah yes PARAMORE IN THREE DAYS!!!!

yknow one of the things i truly loathe is people being stereotypical.
idk how to explain this
but ive got this pretty lousy/pathetic example.
i was chatting quite reluctantly
with some guy who just added me on MSN
and it was the awkward+annoying part
where he starts to ask stuff about me.
(i cant remember which boy this is)

boy: blahblahblahblah (talking)
zany: blah
boy: blahblahblahblah
zany: blah
boy: so you love baking huh!
zany: huh? no?

something like that lah.
seriously where in the world did i mention i love baking?
ive never loved baking before in my life and i have no intention to!
after i replied a huh and a no,
he had the cheek to say "oh i thought all girls love baking"
im not sure what i replied
but yeah like i said this is a stupid explanation
but it has some kind of link to tonight's dinner.
my dad was complaining about how i dont cook
and he said something like
"all girls are supposed to automatically love cooking."
and i tell you my blood go upstairs siaaa

i was like, "really? then how i come i dont love cooking?"
(am i not a girl?!)
and he said "you are supposed to!"
I HATE HATE HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY "SUPPOSED TO" IN THE STEREOTYPICAL SENSE
its like saying, "you're old, you're supposed to be in bed and dying"
or "you're a boy, you're supposed to be a jerk",
yknow what i mean?!?!?!?!?!??!

i got so pissed during dinner but i was too sleepy to argue
so i kept my mouth shut and went to the toilet to clear my bowels.
i think its a way to de-stress.

and yeah linking back to baking and cooking and how im 'SUPPOSED TO' love it,
really, dont tell me what i should love and what i shouldnt.
im not displaying teenage angst here,
i think i actually do have a good point.
the thing is, i have my strengths and weaknesses,
and if ever you are to taste my cooking,
here's my advanced apology and i strongly advice that you,
please, make sure you're insured.
:/
food poisoning awaits.

and i just dont like cooking, i dont know why, i just dont!


anyway guess whuuuuuuuut
Scotch Tape Mayhem's kind of 'back'
but we're still figuring some stuff out.
firstly, we've got a new drummer, yayness!
secondly, Cj is in the process of deciding
whether he will still be with us or not.
busy man, he is. tsk tsk.
meanwhile, we're thinking of songs to jam.
FOR SUGGESTIONS, LEAVE A FORMSPRING MESSAGE OR A TAG. ^.^

oh by the way!
for the first time EVAAAR,
mom likes a Paramore song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =O
however, it's Brick By Boring Brick.
:/
not their best song.
i've let her listen to Where The Lines Overlap and Turn It Off
but she doesnt like them!
surprising, really!

anyway i think ive been somewhat unlucky this week!
each time i turn on MTV i see Justin Bieber!
OH THE HORROR!!!!!!!
anyway isnt it coincidental how Justin Bieber's initials are JB?
Justin Bieber = JB = Jonas Brothers *GASPS*


... just sayin', just sayin'.


anyway he comes off as rather... desperate, the way i see it.
i mean, his three singles are about romance,
and in each of the videos hes chasing a different girl!
what the!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and maybe yeah he doesnt direct his videos blahblahblah
but as an artiste he should be writing his own songs right?
and as an artiste he ought to have a say in whatever he does right?
so why is everything related to romance?!
and how old is he anyway?!?!?!
yeah fifteen-year-olds can be in love too (pffft, yeah right)
but its sending out the wrong message people!!!!
chey, macam paham aje aku ni, sheeesh.
BUT HEY IM SERIOUS.
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it's all atrocious, whatever you hear on the charts these days!
and horrible autotune and shit (YES YOU JUSTIN DERULO MMMM WATCHA SAY?!!!?!)
eh but obviously Muse is awesome.
im not exactly a fan, but obviously, obviously, they're goooood. O.Oand i cant deny Tik Tok is growing on me.
Wake up in the mornin' feeling like P-Diddy...
NO! NOOOO!!!!! WHATS HAPPENING TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE



haha look!
Ke$ha turned into a cat!

-_-

so yeah did i mention that a couple of days ago
i went for some medical checkup?
its a requirement for the whole poly enrolment thing.
it's so fascinating!
i went for an X-ray!
hell to the yeah!
i went for an X-ray when i was younger but clearly i didnt know shit.
i remember it was cause i THOUGHT
i had a candy stuck in my oesophagus.
of course at that time i didnt know it was called an oesophagus.
lol ok whatever.

what happened was, i was sitting on the rocking chair in the living room
(yes my living room used to have a rocking chair!!!),
and i popped a candy into my mouth.
then, my mom who just had a shower and had powder on her face etc etc,
left her room and entered the living room and i was like =O
cause somehow she looked extra beautiful at that particular moment
and then, yep you guessed it.
the stupid candy slipped into my throat.
sigh.

hmmm i never really realized before, but it was totally my mom's fault.
or maybe i really shouldnt have been sucking a candy on a rocking chair.
hehehehehehehehehe silly me.
i was seven, give me a break.

so anyway for the next couple of days
i was convinced the candy wasnt dissolving at all
and it hurt like crazy so mom took me to the hospital
and i got x-rayed and
i found out there's this R-shaped thing floating around my lungs area
haha so weird,
and as it turned out,
there was no candy stuck!
hahaha false alarm.... fail.

ah that reminds me!
one time i swallowed a huge block of ice at the airport
and i screamed like crazy
and my mom almost had a heart attack
and people were watching!
the stupid ice wasnt melting and it hurt like knnccb okay. );

okay where were we?
ah yes, my medical checkup.

X-rays are boring actually.
i told Hafi about it and she said she's afraid of X-rays
because of the 'radioactive shit' and
she doesnt wna turn into a mutant.
i found that rather amazing,
i totally forgot that X-rays have 'radioactive shit',
but i, for one, would be delighted to turn into a mutant!
=D

but four days have passed and i still cant walk through walls.
trust me, i tried.

when i was twelve i secretly wished that on my thirteenth birthday,
someone would tell me i had magical powers and can fly.
but no one told me anything like that and four to five years have passed now,
and i still dont have magical powers and i still cant fly.
yes, really, i tried.

okay where were we again?
ah yes! medical checkup!

for also the second time in my life, i underwent a PEE TEST!
how cool is that! =D
i dont know about you but these things impress me,
like how they can deduce and conclude such intricate stuff
just by examining your pee.
really, wow. =O

oh and the lady asked me if i was pregnant.
im sure she asked all you girls too but it was so funny!
she asked "so is there any chance that you might be pregnant?"
out of the blue
and my reaction must've been pretty epic
cause she started laughing and apologizing
which i didnt see her do with other girls HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

look, see, i told you no one should ever eat my cooking.
i cooked supposedly the best maggi in the world and LOOK!
im having diarrhea! )=



and yeah that is totally how my face looks like now.
ARGH, HOLY FISHSTICKS! >:(




well it was really fun typing out this blog entry!
yayness! today was wasnt productive but i sure had fun!
i didnt leave the house,
but i sang and sang and sang and sang and sang and sang my heart out
and i wrote a super long entry and i hope it made you happy, somehow.
(=

music camp? yes? no?
hmmm okay why not?
i only live once anyway. *shrugs*