Holding onto silly things, I never learn
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard




hello World.
if you're wondering how I've been doing,
to be half-honest, IM DOING GRRREAT!


im surprised that some people actually think that im happy 24/7 or something.
i found a question on my formspring,
someone asked how i can be happy all the time and i my eyes literally went O.O
am i really?!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

okay maybe i am. majority of the time.
well if you want to know my secret,
i actually memorize this quote that helps alotttt
"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry,
Show life you've got a thousand reasons to smile."

yappppppppppppppppppppppp!
life-changing, isnt it?!?!
just think about alllllllll of the things that you are (or OUGHT TO BE) grateful for,
like, uhm, having shoes. or clothes on your back.
or a roof over your head. or food! yess food!!! =D om nom nom~
or or orrrrr friends. parents. education. everything!!!!!!!!
or maybe the fact that, despite the world being pretty messed up,
you're actually still ALIVE and BREATHING!!!!
well yknow, as much as i'd looooove to live somewhere that has four seasons,
im actually pretty grateful for the fact that im in Singapore.
i mean, it's so damn safe. =O

and i dont even care if we're not allowed to chew gum here!
who likes chewing gum anyway?!?!
it gets tasteless and rubbery after a few chews!
so weird.

so anyway!
to the passerby who tagged me
asking where exactly i'll be standing in the standing pen
this Sunday at Paramore's concert (HEHEHE),
well...
I DONT KNOW!!!!
how am i supposed to know?!
i laughed for two seconds when i read your tag hahaha thanks.
you wna see me badly right. jk lololol.

i have hired Cj to protect me
during the concert
but the problem is he doesnt have a ticket.
i was supposed to call the two people selling their tickets this afternoon
but i got too caught up reading some tumblr pages.
interesting stuff, really.

but anyway i told mom i wanted to withdraw
two hundred bucks from my bank account
so i can get merchandise
and she was like "!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
but i said that jokingly but i hope she knows that im serious.
ok not really.
but if she chooses to think im serious, its okay.
cause im kind of serious.
my brother said the people at the stadium sell drinks for twenty bucks.
and i told him he was being stupid.

my brother: im serious! trust me! i worked there! Singapore Idol and Paramore different.
me: what! i didnt buy water when i went to Singapore Idol.
my brother: ok fine but really its $20!
me: no its not. if water $20 then shirt how much??
my brother: shirt is cheaper lah!
me: wtf?!
my brother: yeah cause water is more important than shirt. you jump-jump mosh-mosh then you need water. you buy shirt then still thirsty you die what.
me: but i want shirt! )=
my brother: then you buy water, then make sure you bring more money to buy shirt lah.

so irritating, i swear!!!! ~!@#$%^&*()_+
but anyway he's in Thailand with his friends now!
heehee so cute right.
i hope when im nineteen
i get to go to Thailand with my friends too.
yay shopping!




ah yes PARAMORE IN THREE DAYS!!!!

yknow one of the things i truly loathe is people being stereotypical.
idk how to explain this
but ive got this pretty lousy/pathetic example.
i was chatting quite reluctantly
with some guy who just added me on MSN
and it was the awkward+annoying part
where he starts to ask stuff about me.
(i cant remember which boy this is)

boy: blahblahblahblah (talking)
zany: blah
boy: blahblahblahblah
zany: blah
boy: so you love baking huh!
zany: huh? no?

something like that lah.
seriously where in the world did i mention i love baking?
ive never loved baking before in my life and i have no intention to!
after i replied a huh and a no,
he had the cheek to say "oh i thought all girls love baking"
im not sure what i replied
but yeah like i said this is a stupid explanation
but it has some kind of link to tonight's dinner.
my dad was complaining about how i dont cook
and he said something like
"all girls are supposed to automatically love cooking."
and i tell you my blood go upstairs siaaa

i was like, "really? then how i come i dont love cooking?"
(am i not a girl?!)
and he said "you are supposed to!"
I HATE HATE HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY "SUPPOSED TO" IN THE STEREOTYPICAL SENSE
its like saying, "you're old, you're supposed to be in bed and dying"
or "you're a boy, you're supposed to be a jerk",
yknow what i mean?!?!?!?!?!??!

i got so pissed during dinner but i was too sleepy to argue
so i kept my mouth shut and went to the toilet to clear my bowels.
i think its a way to de-stress.

and yeah linking back to baking and cooking and how im 'SUPPOSED TO' love it,
really, dont tell me what i should love and what i shouldnt.
im not displaying teenage angst here,
i think i actually do have a good point.
the thing is, i have my strengths and weaknesses,
and if ever you are to taste my cooking,
here's my advanced apology and i strongly advice that you,
please, make sure you're insured.
:/
food poisoning awaits.

and i just dont like cooking, i dont know why, i just dont!


anyway guess whuuuuuuuut
Scotch Tape Mayhem's kind of 'back'
but we're still figuring some stuff out.
firstly, we've got a new drummer, yayness!
secondly, Cj is in the process of deciding
whether he will still be with us or not.
busy man, he is. tsk tsk.
meanwhile, we're thinking of songs to jam.
FOR SUGGESTIONS, LEAVE A FORMSPRING MESSAGE OR A TAG. ^.^

oh by the way!
for the first time EVAAAR,
mom likes a Paramore song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =O
however, it's Brick By Boring Brick.
:/
not their best song.
i've let her listen to Where The Lines Overlap and Turn It Off
but she doesnt like them!
surprising, really!

anyway i think ive been somewhat unlucky this week!
each time i turn on MTV i see Justin Bieber!
OH THE HORROR!!!!!!!
anyway isnt it coincidental how Justin Bieber's initials are JB?
Justin Bieber = JB = Jonas Brothers *GASPS*


... just sayin', just sayin'.


anyway he comes off as rather... desperate, the way i see it.
i mean, his three singles are about romance,
and in each of the videos hes chasing a different girl!
what the!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and maybe yeah he doesnt direct his videos blahblahblah
but as an artiste he should be writing his own songs right?
and as an artiste he ought to have a say in whatever he does right?
so why is everything related to romance?!
and how old is he anyway?!?!?!
yeah fifteen-year-olds can be in love too (pffft, yeah right)
but its sending out the wrong message people!!!!
chey, macam paham aje aku ni, sheeesh.
BUT HEY IM SERIOUS.
}:

it's all atrocious, whatever you hear on the charts these days!
and horrible autotune and shit (YES YOU JUSTIN DERULO MMMM WATCHA SAY?!!!?!)
eh but obviously Muse is awesome.
im not exactly a fan, but obviously, obviously, they're goooood. O.Oand i cant deny Tik Tok is growing on me.
Wake up in the mornin' feeling like P-Diddy...
NO! NOOOO!!!!! WHATS HAPPENING TO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE



haha look!
Ke$ha turned into a cat!

-_-

so yeah did i mention that a couple of days ago
i went for some medical checkup?
its a requirement for the whole poly enrolment thing.
it's so fascinating!
i went for an X-ray!
hell to the yeah!
i went for an X-ray when i was younger but clearly i didnt know shit.
i remember it was cause i THOUGHT
i had a candy stuck in my oesophagus.
of course at that time i didnt know it was called an oesophagus.
lol ok whatever.

what happened was, i was sitting on the rocking chair in the living room
(yes my living room used to have a rocking chair!!!),
and i popped a candy into my mouth.
then, my mom who just had a shower and had powder on her face etc etc,
left her room and entered the living room and i was like =O
cause somehow she looked extra beautiful at that particular moment
and then, yep you guessed it.
the stupid candy slipped into my throat.
sigh.

hmmm i never really realized before, but it was totally my mom's fault.
or maybe i really shouldnt have been sucking a candy on a rocking chair.
hehehehehehehehehe silly me.
i was seven, give me a break.

so anyway for the next couple of days
i was convinced the candy wasnt dissolving at all
and it hurt like crazy so mom took me to the hospital
and i got x-rayed and
i found out there's this R-shaped thing floating around my lungs area
haha so weird,
and as it turned out,
there was no candy stuck!
hahaha false alarm.... fail.

ah that reminds me!
one time i swallowed a huge block of ice at the airport
and i screamed like crazy
and my mom almost had a heart attack
and people were watching!
the stupid ice wasnt melting and it hurt like knnccb okay. );

okay where were we?
ah yes, my medical checkup.

X-rays are boring actually.
i told Hafi about it and she said she's afraid of X-rays
because of the 'radioactive shit' and
she doesnt wna turn into a mutant.
i found that rather amazing,
i totally forgot that X-rays have 'radioactive shit',
but i, for one, would be delighted to turn into a mutant!
=D

but four days have passed and i still cant walk through walls.
trust me, i tried.

when i was twelve i secretly wished that on my thirteenth birthday,
someone would tell me i had magical powers and can fly.
but no one told me anything like that and four to five years have passed now,
and i still dont have magical powers and i still cant fly.
yes, really, i tried.

okay where were we again?
ah yes! medical checkup!

for also the second time in my life, i underwent a PEE TEST!
how cool is that! =D
i dont know about you but these things impress me,
like how they can deduce and conclude such intricate stuff
just by examining your pee.
really, wow. =O

oh and the lady asked me if i was pregnant.
im sure she asked all you girls too but it was so funny!
she asked "so is there any chance that you might be pregnant?"
out of the blue
and my reaction must've been pretty epic
cause she started laughing and apologizing
which i didnt see her do with other girls HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

look, see, i told you no one should ever eat my cooking.
i cooked supposedly the best maggi in the world and LOOK!
im having diarrhea! )=



and yeah that is totally how my face looks like now.
ARGH, HOLY FISHSTICKS! >:(




well it was really fun typing out this blog entry!
yayness! today was wasnt productive but i sure had fun!
i didnt leave the house,
but i sang and sang and sang and sang and sang and sang my heart out
and i wrote a super long entry and i hope it made you happy, somehow.
(=