“Have you ever noticed that happiness is not a dependency, it is a decision?
You don’t actually need anything to be happy. It’s not something that comes from outside,
it comes from inside, and when you radiate a happy energy
you’ll be amazed what it attracts into your life.
Don’t worry, be happy…sound familiar?

Decide now, be happy,
and watch magic begin to enter your life.”


- Innerspace



this sounds a little cheesy and cliche, but it's undeniably true.

CJ MADE ME DO IT, I SWEAR.
im not a huge fan of The Only Exception
and i wanted to do Where The Lines Overlap but he refuses!
)=
i is sad!
but i guess its okay cause i kinda like how we did the chorus lol.




oh and one more thing.
WHY DO WE ALWAYS FAIL AT IGNORANCE ACOUSTIC COVERS?!!!?!
angry!

You can’t see where you’re going, you don’t have to be afraid
So what are you waiting for?
What do you have to lose?





harru world!
let me start off by saying that
i've more or less been having the time of my life!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA


i was late on the first day of school, today.
im so pathetic really.
De Shun and Felicia texted saying i wasnt the only one late, no worries.
but just as i alighted the train at Jurong to get to Dover,
De Shun said i was the only one left. D:
haiyaaaaaaaa
im never punctual, really.


the journey in the train was horrible.
i felt so giddy and then i had to climb up the hill, gosh.
but i'll get used to it i think.
but im definitely taking the bus tomorrow.


school was great.
great is, as a matter of fact, AN UNDERSTATEMENT.
i'd say stupendous and extraordinary and pretty much nothing i'd expected.
Creative Writing isnt all about writing, apparently.
and my lecturer is Stella Wee who wrote scripts for Phua Chu Kang,
Living With Lydia, Red Thread, Police and Thief,
and started Maggie and Me from scratch.
she's pretty special.
and twisted, as Adrian would say.


so anyway DUDEZ I IS SEVENTEEN NOW!
why you all never wish me on my tagboard huh huh huh
hahaha juuust joking.
my wall on facebook was flooded, it felt good.
so i replied everyone one by one teehee.


oh and i spent some time last week deleting people off my facebook.
and the next thing i knew someone asked on my formspring,
"why did you delete me off your facebook?"
well it could be
1. you added me and and didnt acknowledge me. eg. comment on my status, write on my wall, Like stuff.
2. you are dead. on facebook, that is.
3. you do not treat me like a friend in person. (this is just one person though), or
4. I DONT EVEN KNOW YOU, DAMNIT. (and maybe i dont want to, either)


so yes i narrowed my contacts down to like, 600+ people?
most of whom are/were from Jurongville.
and about a hundred people whom i do not know in person
but at least they acknowledge me, you see.
i dont want you to be adding me
just to view my pictures silently like some ninja stalker.
eeeee.


so yeah this is was what happened on the eve of my birthday:


▲ my cousins (big ones and little ones) came over and we hid ourselves in my room with the aircon on and the lights off and sang showtunes like the epic Can You Feel The Love Tonight and If We Hold On Together, and classics like Overprotected, Baby One More Time, Uptown Girl, Lemon Tree, Shut Up, Hey Mama and hit tunes like Boom Boom Pow, (PEOPLE IN THE PLAAAAACE, IF YOU WNA GET LAAAAAID hahahaha) and TIKTOK.
omg yknow what? im sooo freaking good at imitating Ke$ha! at least i think so. HAHAHAHA! i practised really hard okay! hahahaha! so anyway we opened the songs on youtube so they flash the lyrics too so we sing off the screen and waved lightsticks in the air! it was so awesome.
oh and we sang We Are The World and Syafiq did a reasonably good attempt at imitating Wyclef Jean, and when it came to the part where Celine Dion sang Well Well Well WELLLLLLL!!!! everyone started screaming and trying to hog the limelight HAHAHAHAHAHAHA gosh i loved Saturday (L)


▲ at around nine plus or ten i was shitting and when i left the toilet my mom was like "EH PEOPLE CALLING YOUR NAME FROM DOWNSTAIRS!" and i was like "uh?" i thought my cousins forgot their stuff or something so they were screaming at me to throw their stuff down at them hahaha. but i recognized Mifdhal's emotionless voice almost immediately so i took the lift and ta dahhhh!!!!! Ahdila, Mifdhal, Radzi, Hafizdj, Amirul Iman and Rafiq okeydokey were there!!!!!!!!!! with chocolate cake from Coffee Bean, an endless supply of sushi, and a lighter! the lighter was supposed to act as a candle and so i had to blew the lighter's flame hahaha so cute really. =D


i'd never had anyone surprise me on my birthday before.
hahahaha.



on my birthday i went for a picnic with Hafi and Madi
and there were sushi, kupang (mussels), pocky, kinder bueno,
chicken nuggets, SARDINE'O and many many mooooore~
sadly it looked like it was starting to rain. )=
so thats how i spent my birthday, avoiding rain.
NOT THAT IT ACTUALLY RAINED ANYWAY.
but i did practise my Ke$ha skills!


oh and i bought this thingamagik from the toyshop!!!!!!!
i showed it to some of my classmates and the lecturer too lol
everyone loves my thingamagik! YAY!


i got tons of awesome presents.
alot of them are handmade!!!!!!
Amira Azmi the princess slipped a card under my front door today!
i am hap hap happy!
its pink and brruuueee like my vans and nails!
and and and it has pictures of me in it O.O
HAHAHAHAHAHA!


De Shun gave me a card too!
super cute ah he wrote everything in PENCIL!
HAHAHA and drew a Pikachu too!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!


Ahdila and Farah made me a doorhanger with my name on it and a duck (?) HAHA
and a pillowcase handwritten with the words
"Today you are you that is truer than true,
There is no one in this world who is youer than you!"
=D
and a card with a picture of me and Hayley Williams.
HAHAHAHHAAHA.


Madi got me a lion keychain! the lion is full body!!!! that's a fricken plus.
Hafi got me a notebook from Millimetre Milligram!!!!!!!
its pink at the front and orange at the back.
and she got me a MY LITTLE PONY!
ITS PINK! AND ITS A MY LITTLE PONY!
O M G!
to be honest (and thickskinned) ive always wanted a My Little Pony for my birthday.
dont judge me! hahaha!


i got lots of money and an ice-cream cake,
and a Fossil purse and a Fossil necklace.
i gotta tell you something about the necklace.
it's a pretty amazing piece.


yknow those long necklaces that has a birdcage pendant thing?
yeah mine is something like that but in the typical birdcage necklaces you see in town,
the bird is INSIDE the cage right?
NOT ON MY NECKLACE!!!
the bird on my necklace is OUTSIDE the cage, and the cage is EMPTY!!!!!!!!
IT OBVIOUSLY SIGNIFIES SOMETHING!
LIKE, FREEDOM!!!!!! *gets over-excited*
hahahaahhahaha IM SERIOUS! DUDEZ!!!!
it's genius!!!!!!!!!!!!!


and im against birdkeeping anyway.
birds are supposed to fly and be free you idiots.
i honestly dont see the point in keeping a bird caged up.
like Hafi said, people who cage up birds should be CAGED!
i am never going to the Jurong Birdpark! NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER!
anyway what thrill do you get, looking at a bunch of poor birds being caged up?
and no i dont get thrilled when i go to the zoo either.
but the one at Indonesia was really cool
cause the animals werent caged up!
not even the lions and tigers!
a bit dangerous but that was okay,
we were in the van the whole time
and they wouldnt hurt us as long as we didnt disturb them!
eh, who want to go Night Safari with me?


anyway, ive got a bag full of new stuff and alot of money
i wish flag day had come earlier i wouldve stuffed some into my can and taken ten stickers.

oh and my brother got me an instax! the cream/pink one!
ITS SO PURRRDDDYYYY!!!!
ive taken seven pictures so far!
and im gna get more film tomr EXCITASIONZ!!!!!!


and many sorrys to Syafiq Syariff cause of the sushi incident today. )=
i still feel really guilty but at least you got to eat the sushi right.
hahahahaha.


yknow the other time my mom and i were talking about one of my friends
who always kept things to himself
and didnt participate much in conversations.
to my surprise she said "good lah. it shows that he is mature."
and i went "huh? mature?"
(i honestly didnt think not being being open = being mature)

and then she said that when you grow older you tend to realize
that it's better to be quiet and not say what's on your mind.
i dont know how true this is because im only seventeen,
and i am not a very mature person.


sometimes i speak my mind, i know when i should and when i shouldnt.
and i am more than happy to express my feelings.
i cry when i am angry or sad and i jump and laugh and skip around when im happy.
when we were having the conversation
i concluded that lack of self-expression
really is one of the the things that is wrong with the world.
i read this quote somewhere, and i think it is 'truer than true'.


"I think that’s what’s wrong with the world. No one says what they feel, they always hold it inside. They’re sad, but they don’t cry. They’re happy, but they don’t dance or sing. They’re angry, but they don’t scream. Because if they do, they feel ashamed. And that’s the worst feeling in the world. So everyone walks with their heads down and no one sees how beautiful the sky is."



sometimes i feel sad for people who keep things to themselves.
i dont think they know how free it feels to be open;
to have nothing to hide.

i dont think they know that really, its okay to be themselves.
i dont know about you, but i AM a genuinely happy person.
some people believe that the people who appear the happiest
are the ones who saddest deep inside
and to be honest i think thats bullshit.


i didnt use to be this content,
until probably a year ago when i realized that i have loads to be thankful for.
but ive seen people who appear to have everything,
(or at the least, have a loving family and get what they want),
and theyre still not happy.
still angry. still angsty.
i dont understand why.
if i had HALF of what these people have i'd feel blessed already.



so anyway after school Felicia Adrian Li Ling and I were so desperate to eat
but all the food courts were full so we took a cab to Holland Village
to eat at Burger King and IT WAS UNDER FREAKING RENOVATION!


we were sweating like pigs by then, if pigs sweat.
and Adrian and Felicia are convinced that Burger King owns all other fast food restaurants
but i beg to differ, really.
i think Mac is awesome!
yeah it's unhealthy but it's fast food, for pete's sake.
it's not really meant to be healthy,
and at least they try to be nutritious.
i think?
oh and who can ever resist Happy Meal? seriously!
ive got little Barbie(s), Uni (Neopet) plushie, a mini My Little Pony,
a Bubbles (PPG) headband, and countless Pokemon stuff!
HAPPY MEAL FTW! WHO'S WITH ME?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?


so yeah we resorted to Swensens
and were like yay finally... FOOD!!!!
and then the lady said we'd have to wait 45 minutes to an hour.
THAT SUCKSSSSSSS
so we headed to Sushi Tei and there was no buffet.
THEN WE SAD AH!!!!!
so we ate at Thai Express where i spent ten bucks on a plate of Seafood Fried Kway Teow.
which was delicious, to be honest.
HAHAHAHA.
and free water eh! that's a plus point!!!!



tomorrow night im having dinner with a couple of my bandmates, including CJ.
i cant wait! I MISS CJ LIKE CRAZY, I SWEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


okay imma go do some research on some stuff we touched on during lesson today.
brothers grimm, catskin, little prince,
and the real versions of fairy tales that Walt Disney adapted.
itching with curiosity!!!
and who knew Little Red Riding Hood has some implicit sexual references?
and Hansel and Gretel is related to cannibalism?
and Goldilocks is a brat with no manners?
who is she, going around and damaging private property! KEEEEEL HERRRR!!!!
honestly, i am such an ignorant twat. )=
my course is a huge eye-opener.


oh and im gna fill up my planner! i bought a planner! HAHAHAHA
im so not the planner kind of person, but oh what the heck,
i need to organize my life. for once.
ive got a hell lot of goals at the moment,
and im finally taking Scotch Tape Mayhem seriously.
like ferrealz!


we got offered a gig at St James by the way.
i dont know what the event's like but it's worth a shot.
it's about time we stopped rejecting offers and opportunities.
I CANT WAIT TO JAM OH MY GOD *spasms* *faints*

"Even I can't pinpoint who or what I am,
and I've always kind of taken pride in that.
I'm not just one kind of singer, or one kind of... person.
And, I mean... you know if I can't even label myself
I don't think it's necessary to BE labelled.
... I just love to sing."
-Siobhan (very classy.)



Siobhan Magnus 2 | Simon Cowell 0



PWNED!!!!!!
LOVED her killer glare at 5:47.

C#5.
highest i can go so far without wobbling.
planning on raising it to at least a STABLE E5,
within the next couple of months.
i have to do this, i cant stay within this range forever.
right now i cant sing an E5 without sounding all whiny. )=


i watched the videos showing the vocal ranges of
Hayley Williams and Demi Lovato
and i was so impressed,
and i felt so lousy hahaha.











so anyway.
one girl from my course said she read my blog before.


and one boy from my course said
he never thought black sheer stockings look good
until he saw me wearing it.


and one girl from CASS said
she thinks i have a hint of Eurasian look.
(thats a first. its quite flattering cause mixed people are mostly beautiful.
a weird comment though. maybe its the dyed hair. idk)


and one boy from my course went "OH MY GOD so YOU'RE ZANY?!?!?!?!?!?"
when he asked me what my band's name is
and i said Scotch Tape Mayhem.


and one girl from my course said everything about me is so special.


*touched* ('=
i felt shy so many times today, alamak.




oh and i officially love dancing.
we danced hiphop today,
typically i thought my group was the best HAHAHA.


ive been making too many friends.
but then again, you can never have too many friends right? =D


this girl called Chelsea, from DMC,
she danced beside me and
we managed to squeeze in fist bumps in between dance steps HAHAHAHAHA
idk why but everything we did made me laugh so hard
i pee-ed a little in my shorts.
we're so foolish and clumsy, really!
i laughed the hardest i ever laughed, today.
havent done that in a long, long time.


and i still dont know why i laughed so much.
i was so happy!
its like i sucked in a whole lot laughing gas or something, seriously.


so anyway i like CASS alot.
it has only been three days, but already it feels like home.
im gonna make these three years the best time of my life.




guess what! im turning seventeen on Sunday!
seventeen years flew astoundingly fast.
i like how my life is, eh,
aint no boy gna bring me down nuh-uh

WAZZZAAAAPPPPPP
i met my coursemates for the first time today.


my class is grawsome!!!!
(great+awesome, taken from Hannah Montana lol)


ive never had such a good feeling about a bunch of people before.
everyone was uber friendly,
there wasnt a single quiet/shy/antisocial-looking person in sight.
im not joking!!!


i havent made friends with the whole class
but the people sitting around me were pretty awesome.
there was a girl with a really boho-looking headband,
and a guy with a Diana F+ hanging around his neck,
and a girl with really voluminous hair,
and well you get my drift everyone was really different from each other.
cant wait for tomorrow, omg, semangat poly dokkkkkkzzzzzzzz




k bye and oi i said already,
if what yr about to tag on my tagboard requires an answer from me,
ask on my formspring,
not on my tagboard,
cause i reply tags like once a year or something lol.
and many thanks to those who complimented my new layout!
;D

ps. there is a gay person in my class. my life is now complete. (Y)

Could you look me in the eye,

and tell me that you're happy now?

hellz yeh paper clouds all around my Tiffany wallzzz
Y(^_^)Y


ugly picture taken on my 3.15megapix camera phone hahaha wtf?
ive never used the camera before.
the pictures within the picture are falling down!
but im taking them all down sooner or later anyway,
replacing'em with pictures from my brand-new Instax!
(which doesnt exist... YET! lol)


i cleaned my room from last night til early this morning
and man, im beat.


every single corner of the room is clear now,
i can see my corners again!

and i threw out all the junk i didnt need.
i found my old Pokemon toys and Uni (Neopet) doll.
and my patchwork elephant purse.
and my Holga buried deep in the mountain of clothes in my wardrobe.
i have a special drawer for presents and cards ive received over the years!
naise.
and a special drawer for paper bags cause paper bags are awesome.

oh and i hung the doodle magnetic board thingy
on the back of my door!
like Joey and Chandler's room!
if you watch Friends. hahaha.

it's something like this:



except mine is uhm, less impressive. hahaha!
mine doesnt have colours... or shapes.
but thats okay, its practical. kinda.
and i got it from Syaifullah and Jiali for my 15th birthday! =D


i hope Madi's mom will agree to me and Madi trading tables.
she needs a study table to study for her O's
and i dont need my study table, it's huge and i dont even study.
and when i do, i dont do it in my room - far too many distractions.
mom scraped off the lumps of dried superglue on the table
so that it's not ugly anymore
so i hope we'll get to trade.


problem is, ive no idea how we're gonna transport my table.
erk.





ah, me. productive day indeed.
=D


time for spicy tuna, toast, and icy cold milo!

ROFLWAFFLE!!!!





mmm... waffles.

Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today


Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace


You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one


Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world


You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

(this is the most amazing GIF in the world, wait for it to load!!!)


oh! i forgot to add 'headbanging at Paramore's concert' to my Best Feelings list. =D

▲ Staying in and reading a book on a rainy day
▲ Donating (and getting a sticker hahaha)
▲ Dancing, with the right people at the right place to the right music
▲ Adrenaline
▲ Hearing someone say they love me for the first time
▲ Waking up to my favourite weather
▲ Accomplishment
▲ When someone I like likes me back
▲ A smile from the right person
▲ Sitting on a swing and feeling the wind in my hair
▲ Singing songs by the campfire
▲ Hearing someone say something good about me to someone else
▲ Being alone at the right time
▲ Relief
▲ Freeing popcorn/gummy/a piece of vege from between my teeth
▲ Getting thanked for something i've done
▲ Sitting by the fireplace when it's snowing outside (ahhhhh! [= )
▲ Feeling wanted
▲ Complimenting someone
▲ Being complimented
▲ Digging my ears
▲ Shouting OMG SO CUTE at a baby and seeing his/her parents smile
▲ Friends understanding me without having to explain myself
▲ When my dad ruffles my hair
▲ Singing a note i'd never been able to sing before
▲ Going on a road trip
▲ Losing my phone and knowing that the founder had been trying to reach me =D
▲ Throwing a surprise birthday party for someone
▲ New socks! =D And shoes.
▲ Striking a Cadd9 chord with a soft pick
▲ Owning someone (like, in the 'pwned!' sense)
▲ Teaching someone something new, like origami
▲ Playing a trumpet solo
▲ Releasing pee that i had to hold in for hours
▲ Walking out of a plane and stepping on foreign land
▲ Blowing bubbles and seeing someone enthusiastically pop them

Shooting moons from the sea wall
Rattle the ocean till it falls
I don't know who you'll be


It's amazing strange how we all seem to change





well hello there landlubbers.
as you are soundly sleeping
and enjoying the comfort of your mattress,
i am up and behind the screen of Nutmac,
typing with my eyes wide open
and chewing on a piece of rather hard bread smeared with Nutella
on my bed in a fully-airconditioned room
with Tiffany walls with wooden floors and a white ceiling.



click!




hell yeah. this is the life.




so anyway, a couple of hours ago i had a conversation
with the most intriguing, vague,
and somewhat charming person ive ever known.
besides Siobhan Magnus from American Idol Season 9,
who's not counted cause ive never actually had a conversation with her.


why are mysterious people so alluring?
wouldnt it be cool if ALL my blog entries only consist of four-liners?
okay not really.
that's just not me.
how do these annoyingly perplexing creatures be so... perplexing?!?!?!?!?!?!
argh!


im an Aries!
idk if that has anything to do with anything
but i guess that makes me pretty open, by default. =/
but still i want to know the art of being dark and and uh, obscure.
it's so cool. *.*


im starting to think this is a really pointless blog entry
but whatever you know?
its not like ive got anything better to do anyway, at this hour.
(its 3.16am by the way)
in the past, i couldnt stay awake past 2am
HAHAHAHAHHA seriously!


now i sleep at five plus and wake up at noon!
SLEEPING PATTERN SCREWED BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




so anyway i failed to sign up for
School of Communication, Arts and Social Sciences' camp. )=
to be honest im quite relieved
cause this means i'll have a week more for some ME time.
hahahaha yeah right, but seriously though.
i wna try record some shit on Garageband.
maybe i'll record a few random covers or something.
any suggestions? no? k never mind )=
hahahaha


im seriously hooked on my blogsong.
it's actually a cover of a song by Pixies.
i like the cover better.
im kind of sexist when it comes to vocals.
i like female vocals better HEHEHEHE


okay im done with my nutella bread
now lets see if ive got enough willpower
to send the plate back to the kitchen.
mmmmmmmmmmmmm
nope. not a chance.
i cant even be arsed to get out of bed HAHAHAHA
but i have to anyway.
my feet are cold and i need socks. )=
i think i'll wear the ones with rainbow polka dots
=D


i'd take a picture of my socks using Photobooth
but like i said i cant be arsed to get out of bed.
i really really need my socks though,
i can almost feel the icicles forming on my feet.
but thats kinda stupid cause for icicles to form
there should be water dripping from my feet.
and its not good to wear socks when your feet are wet.

i dont know where i got that piece of information from but i think it makes sense
cause my dad told me i shouldnt wear damp socks.
im not sure why though.
i never get any reasons or explanation from him.
its like when i asked him if i could get my hair dyed.


Z: dad, we cant dye our hair cause hairdye consists of alcohol so its haram right?
D: yah.
Z: so, if use halal hairdye means can dye ah.


and dad was quiet but no matter how many times i asked
he said no no no
and i asked why why why
and i never got any reasons, let alone GOOD reasons.
sheesh, fathers!


but i am patient and persistent.
i always get what i want.
eventually.



my cousin Hafi is an evil evil evil girl.
firstly, when my brother was little she bullied my brother in ways you can never imagine!
when we were little my cousins used to act like we were characters from Rugrats.
my brother was Chuckie,
i was Chuckie's japanese stepsister, Kimi.
Hafiz was Tommy,
Syafiq was Tommy's little brother, Dill.
Madi was Lil and Zakir was Phil.
and Hafi was of course, the evil Angelica!!!!





sooo as i was saying,
Hafi is evil. )=
first she filled my mind with how 3am is a satanic hour,
according to the priest from The Exorcism of Emily Rose
(cant seem to bring myself to watch that movie... i tried, i really did)
and then she kept repeating, every day,
"its almost the satan hour, make sure youre in bed already"
and variations of that.
and then!
she showed me THIS!!!! :





OH THE HORROR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
to be honest i cant decide if i was supposed to laugh,
or run and hide for fear of my life
because for some foreboding reason
i felt CURSED after watching that video!
imagine watching it LIVE!!!!
but then again if im part of the live audience
i wont really get to see his/her face up close right?
serious, oh the agony, and look at what he/she was wearing!!!!!!!!
it's like Big Bird gone wrong!!!!!!!!


im thinking of getting a book next week
but i cant seem to decide what.
Notwithstanding by Louis De Bernières was my first choice,
but i was at Borders the other day and saw a copy of
Alice's Adventures In Wonderland by Lewis Carroll on sale.
keywords: on sale.
hahahahaha.
but anyway ive been wanting to read Alice
cause i saw a bunch of quotes from the book years go
and i have to say theyre BEYOND bloody brilliant.


'Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?'
'That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,' said the Cat.
'I don't much care where —' said Alice.
'Then it doesn't matter which way you go,' said the Cat


and the like.
i dont know about you but reading bits of the book
makes me feel happy and calm,
any calmer my heart would stop beating.


okay that settles it then,
im so getting a copy of Alice's Adventures In Wonderland!
i really need a book at the moment,
especially considering the excruciatingly high possibility that
i will never see my favourite book, The Perks Of Being Wallflower, again.
yes dooood whose name starts with the letter A.
it's still with you and stop ignoring my texts.
my patience is wearing thin.
I WANT MY BOOK BACK.
thank you (=


oh yeah you might be wondering why i dont wish to borrow books from the library.
hahaha!
well i just feel that if that certain book belongs to me
it makes it more personal.

or maaaaaaaybe i dont wish to borrow books from the library
cause my ezlink / library card has some sort of problem
and i shy to approach the librarian )=
im a shy girl!!!


but seriously though i like to take my time to read books.
unless theyre so mthrfckng good like
my-favourite-book-which-someone-refuses-to-return-to-me.
and No One Belongs Here More Than You by Miranda July.
okay im probably boring you to death but oi i didnt ask you to read my blog lor.
but thanks for reading anyway =D


ooooh goody!
its 4:07 am and im still not sleepy!
i really need to stop taking baths at 2am,
it makes it harder to sleep.
sleeping with wet hair sucks big time
and if i use the hairdryer
it'll just wake the whole neighbourhood up!
(or else least the whole house -_-)


i feel like deleting hundreds of people off my facebook.
ive already done that on MSN.
i feel like an open book, which isnt wrong but idk,
i guess im getting tired of seeing faces of people i do not know on my News Feed.


but its gna be super tedious, deleting hundreds of people.
i dont want to delete people ive interacted with on Facebook or wherever
even though i dont know them in person.
i want to get rid of the stupid existential mute ones, damnit.
but i cant seem to remember which are which, lol!
i feel guilty rejecting friend requests but i feel stupid approving them
aiyah whatever lah deactivate facebook lah!


last night i ate Seafood Cheese Baked Rice for dinner.
it was terrible.
well, that's all.
bro bought this really cool melamine sponge for two bucks
and wiped his disgustingly yellow MacBook.
its now pearly white!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D
so, to all you Macbookers with yellowing Macbooks,
get a melamine sponge from Daiso!!!!!
=D
awesome shit! like magic trick!


speaking of magic trick ive got this guy on MSN
who keeps trying to get me to
'watch his aunt do magic tricks' on his webcam.
O.O
weird, right?


okay guess what its 4.23am right now
and i think im gna go listen to some piano versions
of Paramore from Tribute To Paramore
and let my brain chillax.
not that it needs chillaxing.
it has chillaxed enough.
well, one more week of chillaxing left
and hello to Creative Writing For TV & New Media.


(dont know if i should jump for joy or be depressed.)

okay i've decided!
im not gonna reply questions on my formspring
until i get like maybe thirty questions or so?
hahaha thats a lot.


today the doorbell rang and i ignored it
cause the last time the doorbell rang i looked through the peephole
and it was a cute little boy scout
but i didnt answer it cause i didnt want to buy his cookies.


and so he walked away
and i suddenly remembered that
boy scouts dont sell cookies.
they go on camps and sit by campfires and roast marshmallows!!!!!! =D
(i think)
so anyway that poor boy scout!!!!!!!!!!!
i had to live with the guilt and pain and agony for hoursss!!! )=


so as i was saying,
the doorbell rang and i ignored it.


a few seconds later my brother came into my room
and threw something on nutMAC
and i was like whuuuuuuuut
and turned out it was some
orange Nail Art glow-in-the-dark stickers!
HAHAHAHAHA SOMEONE WAS GOING DOOR-TO-DOOR
SELLING NAIL ART STICKERS!
and bro got one pack for me HAHAHA DAMN FUNNY LAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!


im gonna save up to go to Universal Studios with Ash!
MUAHAHAHAHEHEHEHHHOHOHUHUHSJFHASDFNWEIOCNJLSDNFSEFSFK
today's weather is the best weather EVAAARRRRR!

Had a GOOD Good Friday with Ashleigh Raye GOH HUA!
People dance at clubs,
we dance at roadsides!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA! vids at facebook! =D

omg i luv you woman!

actually we were at the airport cause it was our last time seeing Kenneth )'=

dearest Kenneth Phooi aka Loof,
you are one of the reasons why 2010 is my favourite year.
Scotch Tape Mayhem ftw, even though you're not a part of it anymore.
(feels empty, really.)

hope you'll have the time of your life at your new home,
dont forget us!

(kenneth didn't wna hug me or Ash,
and his dad said there's a possibility that he's not straight.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
but he hugged us anyway. hesitantly.)

no, i did not use Photoshop.

i dont know how to use Photoshop at all.

in fact, i dont even have Photoshop!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

well i just cut it all out and scanned'em.

that's all.

oh another frequently asked question,
'do you wear dresses?'
idk why its an FAQ, can someone tell me?
hahahaha.
and yes i do.


but when i wear dress, i shy.

All April Fools joke played on me = FAIL

meh. and they call ME gullible.

In another moment down went Alice after it,
never once considering how in the world she was to get out again




omgggggggggg what is wrong!!!!!!
my tummy's been really nasty to me lately.
imagine going to the toilet every two minutes
and leaving it feeling as shitty as before
when clearing my bowels should be a joyful and satisfying activity.

gah i feel so shitty.
LITERALLY SHITTY.
.____.

ITS SO PAINFUL
AND ITS BEEN GOING ON FOR MORE THAN WEEEEEK
Mifdhal said it could be gastric
and Chris says i should see the doctor.
but what if it turns out to be serious
then i'll get sent to the hospital
and they'll cut my stomach open
and then staple it together again
oh the agony!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT THIS CANNOT GO ON!!!
i cannot eat charcoal anymore!
(dad made me eat charcoal to heal the tummy aches.
it worked for a few hours.
no, not those bbq charcoal from 7-11 you dimwit.
its in the form of a pill.
but maybe it CAN be used for bbq-ing.
idk, really.
fascinating stuff, huh?
very intriguing.
note to self, google this later)

seriously though,
if i have to eat another piece of charcoal i'll HURLi tell you!
(actually i only ate one tiny pill
but whatever it's horrid stuff)

okay it's settled then!
im going to see the doctor!
this takes willpower because these days
i cant be bothered to leave the house.
the only time i do that is when
im starved and curled up in a ball on the kitchen floor.
or on my room's floor.
same thing.

i was so determined to satisfy my craving
that i left the house to get oreo cheesecake.
i got home happy and contented
and ate my cheesecake while watching raywilliamjohnson on youtube.
EQUALS THREE FTW!
if you've never heard of him it's cause youre an ignorant twit
heheheh juuust joking,
you know i love you right?

hence, i shall post an EQUALS THREE video here!



i just picked one at random
sorry if it isnt funny hahahaha!
okay i just watched it its not that funny
but whatever you know.
hahahaha



sooooo... whats up?
okay stupid question.

im listening to VersaEmerge right now.
idk why when i used the computer and blog while listening to music
i cant concentrate at all
but when im on this laptop, i can concentrate, perfectly well!
and its so cute the way the msn icon bounces
whenever i get an instant message from people.

... okay now its just getting annoying.


eh guess what Zoolyelyah just tried to pull an April Fools prank on me
but he failed!
hahahaha loser sia omg hahahahahahahha
oh my god wait what its April already?!??!
so freaking soon?!?!?!
im turning seventeen next next next Sunday!?!?!
noooo way!
i still look like a stupid happy kid!
hahaha.
hahahahaha

and oh it's April Fools = 1st April = Arai's birthday!
so
hapi barfday araiiiii!!!!!!!
that's bigger than a size 12 k!
happy? im so kind =')


oh yeah i was talking about VersaEmerge right?



thats VersaEmerge.
i never really liked them until right before my trip to Indonesia.
desperately in need of songs,
i just downloaded a couple of their songs
and i gotta say im quite impressed.
i didnt like them initially cause they dressed up as Paramore on halloween
and Sierra the vocalist attempted to headbang
which appeared more like she was trying to mock Hayley.
so yeah. ew, really.
but dude this girl's got chops! (chey step Kara Dioguardi hahaha)
but really, she's got power!
*coughcoughcassadeepopeisownedcoughcough*
*just sayin', just sayin'*

listen to Past Praying For and Moments Between Sleep,
i like the guitars and her vocals!
and their acoustics arent bad either.
theyre darker than Paramore
and their lyrics are more vague.
definitely in a different league from Hey Monday.
okay sorry i simply cant contain my disdain for Hey Monday.
although i have to admit ive got 6 Months in my ampeefour.
sigh. *dies in shame* )=

im gonna get a copy of VersaEmerge's album! =D


okay this paragraph is dedicated to Hatadi Haziq aka Zeek aka tbff aka temporary best friend forever.
he wants a paragraph dedicated to him, sheesh, people.
okay well here goes.
OUR CONVERSATION ON TUESDAY NIGHT DID NOT HAPPEN.
I REPEAT.
IT DID NOT HAPPEN.
(but its all in my mind hahahahaha)


anyway Joshua Pereira said that i cant ever be fierce.
how can he say that!!!!!!! )'=
okay the story is,
i told my parents i smoke and they didn't believe me.
i wanted to act all fierce and hardcore and stuff
but JP says i can never be fierce!
i can lor!
i really can!!!!
)=

i feel so helpless now!
never mind!
one day, i will show all of you!
hehehehehehehehehe

okay my tummy hurts so much i cant concentrate
and itunes is playing Razorblade Limeade by Evan Taubenfeld now,
im melting on my bed wheeeee