an old picture,
nevertheless,
the fam = ♥



i sat for an Issues & Viewpoints paper today.
(worst essay ive ever written in my life, jfyi.)
question number 3 was:

What in your opinion is the greatest threat
the world is faced with and why?

it was so easy.
Lord Voldemort!




... fuck yeah. B-)






im gone from Facebook.
i seem to always end up reading or seeing things
that make me feel sad and insecure and uncomfortable.
so now im Facebook-free,
im left with Twitter and Formspring and well, this junk of a blog.

yessss no more Facebook!
no more mood-killers.
ah, ignorance is ultimate bliss... and my new best friend.


well. in the words of Sharul Azri,
Facebook is full of whiny kids anyway.









So this is how it goes,
Well I, I would have never known.
And if it ends today,
I'll still say that you shine brighter than anyone








because life's too short to be anything but happy



FYEAH IM DONE WITH CSM CA10!!!!!!
JUST NICE, 1799 WORDS!
TOOK ME SO MUCH PROCRASTINATION TO FINALLY COMPLETE THIS!!!!
(im not exactly satisfied with the end product
but for now im too ecstatic to care!!!)

oak now im left with Deconstructing TV
(WHICH I WILL COMPLETE TOMORROW,
ONCE I GET TO SEE ELSA'S QUESTION PAPER… I LOST MINE LOL)
Heroes Myths and Legends
(WHICH I INTENDED TO COMPLETE TODAY
BUT I DID Visual Comm AND Creative Story-Making INSTEAD HAHA)
and Visual Comm… halfway done, sorta!!!
just need a to shoot a couple more scenes,
insert music and im done!!!!!!!

im not so worried for HML, it's due on Friday the 3rd.
and DT's due Thursday the 2nd.
i don't know why im telling you this
but im pretty sure its so that i wouldn't forget my deadlines hahaha.

OH MY GIATTTTTTTT HIIII YOU GUYSSSS!!!
it's been a while!!!
i haven't properly blogged in ages!!!

so anyway,
i cant believe mom got me two sets of baju kurungs this year.
i told her not to get any at all,
cause i can wear the ones from last year,
and even the ones from when i was in sec two.
it's not like i grew much anyway!

but actually i like the one mom got me on Sunday.
we went to Johore (LOL FYEAH MALAYSIA JANNA'S HOMELAND!!!!)
it's a kebaya,
(LOL WTF I TYPED KEBAYA
AND THE STUPID AUTOMATIC SPELL CHECKER
CHANGED THE WORD TO KEBAB!!!)
yeah so anyway it's a kebaya and the top is white and bottom's black
it sounds so strange here but it actually looks pretty good!
the top was waaaay too big for me,
the tailor and salespeople said im really small,
which is quite shocking
because ive never really seen myself as 'small'.
=/
lol im not small!
i think 157cm is pretty tall! *trying to make myself feel not-small*

anyway the other set mom got me is maroon!
i went WATAFFFFF!? when i saw it
cause i do not like maroon at all, PERIOD!
i mean seriously, maroon?!
that's the colour of blood clot, damn it!
(i don't care if your favorite colour is maroon,
it looks like blood clot and i do not like it.)

im also wearing one of mom's old kebayas,
it's electric blue, and has like colorful streaks along the hem.
PRETTY COOL IF YOU ASK ME!
mom bought it when she was twenty-one.
she said she went out with her friends
and saw it and got mesmerized and bought it straightaway.
knowing mom, she NEVER does that.
she doesn't act on impulse,
she thinks for a few hours or even days and weeks
before doing something hahaha,
pretty much the exact opposite of me.

so anyway she bought it and shopped somemore and lost track of time
and she got home past midnight and got a spanking (i think)
from my grandpa!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA eh but poor mom )=
i don't get a spanking when i come home past midnight,
but i suppose it's cause i've got a phone and can tell my parents beforehand.
yay technology! =D

remember when i said my band scored a performance next month?
yeah lemme elaborate a little more on that.
it's for a fashion bazaar,
and im not sure if it's confirmed,
but it seems like it.
it's at Fort Canning Park and my bandmates are stoked,
so stoked that Kenneth Phooi is flying back from Australia just to play with us.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
so yeah, the good old bunch will be reunited once again.
whoopydoooo

... quite honestly im scared shitless,
every time i think about performing again
tsunamis start appearing in my tummy )=
but oh well lets live life to its fullest and not let silly fears take us down!

Dadi got me fairy lights for my room!
he is soooo nice. yay dadi!
(i want to spell daddy as dadi and mommy as mami from now on,
cause i think its cute lolllllll,
but i accidentally typed mom earlier,
and im too lazy to change that
so lets pretend i typed mami instead of mom)

so yeah now my room has fairy lights and i like to lie in
and watch them twinkle while listening to my player on shuffle.
i love it when my player plays Paramore.
ah, Paramore.



is it me or is Paramore so absolutely amazing it's almost surreal?!?!?!
and i don't give a damn that they've gone mainstream.
i've been listening to Paramore for so many years now,
and i still love them as much as i did when i first heard them.
im just concerned, why don't they release
their more amazing songs as singles for the world to hear?
songs like Brighter and Turn It Off and All I Wanted
and Fences and Never Let This Go sure deserve more plays.

y'know i don't like it when people diss bands that've gone mainstream.
why should i stop listening to a band just cause theyve gone mainstream?
what, is listening to mainstream music uncool or something?
go eat shit lah, i'll keep supporting my favorite artiste's music
as long as fame and arrogance don't conquer them.
i love them for the music they make not cause theyre 'underground' and 'cool'.
SO FYEAH PARAMORE FOR LIFE
(ugh i don't know whats wrong with me now im typing nonsense saoifjsjnjkdjkt)

well my point is i don't like it when people go
"paramore? eee mainstream."
i've heard that so many times that
im ready to kick ass the next time i hear someone say that.
stfu, music is music,
it's not like im not asking you to listen to Ke$ha or something.

haha i like to talk about Paramore once in a while in my blog.
if you havent already figured it out,
im trying to get people to listen to Paramore,
not just The Only Exception and crushcrushcrush and That's What You Get,
but pretty much all three of their albums. =D

anyway eh am i the only one in the world who hasnt watched Inception??
thats okay im going to go watch it tomr cause it's required for school =D
im so ready to be mind-blown!
(and be swept off my feet by Ellen Page.
yes, Ellen Page, not Leonardo DiCaprio.
Ellen Page is just the cutest thing in the world
... er, girl crush.)

ive run out of Capilano Honey i better ask mami
for some of her many NTUC FairPrice vouchers
(its like she has a neverending stash of them or something,
idk where she gets them from)

gosh im so hungry imma go eat my leftover McSpicy.


okay im backkkk!
and i just realized that i really want a ukelele.
HAHAHAHA i dont know how i 'realized' it,
but i just suddenly feel like i want a ukelele.
but i can live without it for now.
one day i'll invest thirty-five bucks on a cheapo one. tehehe.


so i was chilling in mah room the other day
thinking about life and i realized that i really do miss a few people
i havent seen since holidays began.

first up, Ahdila. definitely Ahdila.
we live just a few blocks away yet we rarely see each other.
we were hoping or red week (lol) would clash
so we don't have to fast
and so we can pig out in my room
but they didn't clash so plan = fail.
)=

second person i miss terribly is the R&B King, Mifdhal hahaha
we still text but i havent seen him for more than a month!
i didnt even celebrate his birthday with him!
geeez im such a lousy friend ._.

i wna go out with Ahdila and Mifdhal
and sit at Lido's McCafe and listen to R&B music
(i think that is the only time i listen to R&B)
while sipping on double chocolate frappe
and eating grapes Mifdhal got us!
YAY GRAPES!!!

i love grapes!
on Saturday i bought a box of grapes and ate'em while walking down the street feeling awesome.
i didnt even bother to wash them first cause ... well idk.
was i supposed to wash the grapes in the public toilet's basin or something? =/

yknow what can make me instantly happy?
someone getting me a box of grapes!!!!
seedless, of course.
if theyve got seeds you better compensate for it by getting me a balloon too.
i like balloons.
idk why im saying this when no one in the right mind
would get me grapes HAHAHA (except Mifdhal)
its ok i can buy my own grapes,
mami has NTUC vouchers remember?

anyway, another two people i miss are Adrian and Felicia!
gosh these are the only two people who would dance with me on the streets
and wouldn't give a damn about passers-by!
we'd mock tecktonik and laugh at their funny steps
but knowing deep inside that we wish we're really pro at tecktonik haha.
then we'd do the chicken step thing
that Zoolhayley likes to do in his jerkin' videos,
and Felicia and i would fail-moonwalk while singing
'i miss Michael Jackson, i miss Michael Jackson,
i miss Michael - I miss Michael - I miss Michael Jackson'

ah and of course there's Janna and her patriotism and endless loyalty towards her homeland.
and Deshun who tells jokes that he doesnt think are funny,
but everyone laughs their ass off anyway cause it's DESHUN, for pete's sake.
and Elsa, the best person to bitch about boys with, and the reason why i update my blog these days. =D
and well, pretty much the rest of DTVM/1a/02.


sigh, i miss friends. )'=
but then again i dont want holidays to ever end!
im honestly, not missing school AT ALL.
i want to rewind to post-'O'levels.
holidays from November to April fyeah.
im really gonna envy Madi and Syafiq and Aqil when they're done with O's.
bleagh.


o noes!
it's 2:20am and i need to sleep because
otherwise i might fall asleep watching Inception
(i always fall asleep in the cinema...
my attention span is THAT short).


g'night lovelies, have a great week!





BLOODY HELL!!!!
I AM SO FRUSTRATED
I SWEAR I CAN JUST THROW MY MACBOOK PRO
OUT THE WINDOW RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!
THING IS MY STUPID WINDOW HAS WINDOW GRILLES
AND MY STUPID MAC CANT FIT THROUGH IT!!!!


...

but honestly, even if the window grilles arent there,
i probably wont throw my mac
cause i might end up killing someone downstairs.
then i'll go to hell.
... not that im not already going to hell.

if i ever kill someone by accident i'll feel so guilty and kill myself.
but killing myself is already a sin in itself.
wtf am i talking about killing
i cant think straight this is so aggravating i want to cry

seriously, now.
WHY IS THE TIME LIMIT FOR THE VISUAL COMMUNICATIONS VIDEO ONE-MINUTE?!
WHY?!!?!!?!?!?!!?!??!?!
MR FRED YOU'RE KILLING ME HERE
I HAVENT EVEN SHOT ALL MY SCENES
AND I'VE ALREADY EXCEEDED A MINUTE!!!!
WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYHWYHWYHYWHYEURISJGHSGHS

OH LOL PERFECT!!!
ITUNES IS PLAYING 'EMERGENCY' BY PARAMORE HAHA
I THINK WE HAVE AN EMERGENCY I THINK WE HAVE AN EMERGENCYYYYYYYY
I NEED TO CALM MYSELF DOWN
SHALL LISTEN TO SOME PIANO MUSIC LOL
Love Story Meets Viva La Vida by Jon Schmidt!
FYEAH!


NO YKNOW WHAT.
I HAVENT PRAYED ZOHOR SO I SHOULD GET TO THAT NOW
LOL DUHHHHHHHH
EDIT THIS SPACE AFTER IM DONE


OKAY I AM BACK AND I FEEL BETTER THAN EVER!!!
I FEEL SO GOOD IMMA GO KICK SOME BUTT!
HAHAHA I JUST REALIZED THE CAPS LOCK BUTTON IS ON HAHAHHAHA
BET YOU FELT LIKE I WAS SCREAMING INTO YOUR EARS!!!!! =D

im gonna start on my Heroes Myths and Legends (HML) module's CA10 naoooo
so scared =|
please Allah let me have inspiration, lots and lots of inspiration,
thank you, Amin
K LETS KICK SOME HML BUTTTTTTTT





i'm not sure how precisely,
but i feel i've changed so much,
in ways that aren't visible to the eye.
i haven't decided if this is good or bad.
ha.

well. here're some good news.
i regained my imagination!
(and creativity, actually, but that'll make me sound like a braggart.
for one second i thought braggart sounds like a character from Harry Potter
but im pretty sure it's boggart.
the boggart in the wardrobe, yes?)
anddddd my band scored a performance, next month!
i'll update on that, but oh god, the heebie-jeebies,
they're killing me! )'=
i haven't performed since new years' day!
i don't know how to perform already, lol


on a sidenote,
i think you need to know that
each time i've typed out a long entry,
i delete every word and log out of Blogger.
due to this, i don't like myself very much.

anyway, today has been the best day of 2010!!!
(i say that once every month hahaha life is good)
im so stoked, the rest of the year's gonna be real good, i swear.
well IM going to make it real good.
im going to make sure 2010 owns 2009.
(but honestly, nothing can beat 2009.)

i'll stop here because im so exhausted
that my head is swinging side to side i look stupid, im sure,
but this fatigue is conquering my whole body i cant be bothered to fight it.
i installed a new old lamp in my room, by the way,
and it's such an improvement.

i like to lie on the floor in the dimness and just think.
thinking is good.
i like thinking more than writing.

i will log out now and do some thinking.
g'night blogosphere and existential readers
(who i assume have long since given up on waiting for my update)

gah, too tired now.
eyes, open, please, i need to click the Publish button.




thank you Aiden Lee Qi Zhi, for existing,
and picking me of all people to sing for your band.

seriously!
my life would be so, so different if i hadn't met you.
and im sorry for all the times i took you for granted,
you're really a pretty amazing guitarist
(lol, it's like practicallyeveryone in the scene knows you or something haha)
and composer too.
and youre like our mother (or father lol) or something,
everytime Ash and CJ and Kenneth and i
are like brats and refuse to practise hahaha.


ten years of friendship, and still counting.
i love you my friend,
for all the times you made me drink honey water
when my throat doesnt feel good,
and even made a cup for me the first time we met after 876368345 years.

happy 17th birthday.
(you get a blogpost since i didnt make a card or nothin')
let's grow old together
and rock out even when we're wrinkled and grey!




thank you for introducing me to Ashleigh and CJ and Kenneth,
who've become my best friends in the entire world.
(you're included too of course haha)



(whooohooooo old picture!)



HELLOOOOOO I TOLD YOU I'LL BLOG TONIGHT! Y(^_^)Y
so here i am,
i drank three full glasses of plain water today
and ive never been so proud of myself!
ive never drank (/drunk???) this much plain water in a day!
and im still going to drink about two or three more glasses later!
(and then i'll wake up every five minutes just to pee -_- )




haha old video!!!!!!!!
(if you consider a few weeks old)
i need to stop tricking people into thinking
that im taking pictures when actually i take videos
cause i accidentally tricked myself the other day wtf!
and i have the video to prove it!
hahahaha silly goose

so the ol' Scotch Tape Mayhem bunch got together on Sunday
and this was a conversation between the legendary Kenneth Phooi and me.

and Aiden was like HAHAHAHA KENNETH YOU JUST JACKED YOURSELF!!!!
Kenneth's still the same old asshole!!!! LOVE IT!!!!!!

one time we were doing a recording
so me and Ash were sitting on the floor in our ex-studio
and Aiden was setting up the mics and all,
and Kenneth was like
"WALAU i need to call my maid clean the floor already so dirty so much shit"
so i started laughing cause seriously, everything Kenneth says is funny.
but he glared at me and spat
"IM TALKING ABOUT YOU!"
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha ='D

so anyway he left for Australia again last night
so we only got to jam once while he was here )=

i dont remember much about yesterday cause so many things happened,
but i remember CJ sneezing mucus all over me.
CJ, Kenneth, Ash and I played Fifa on the PS3
and we wanted a girl and a boy in each team
and NONE OF THE BOYS WANTED TO TEAM UP WITH ME!!!!!
but i ended up on Kenneth's team
(cause he's is good and i suck, so we're even)

so it was
Kenneth & Zany
vs
CJ & Ashleigh

in the end i scored three goals
and Kenneth concluded than i own Ashleigh (and Aiden's) ass!!!!
(this is Ashleigh's cue to whine "BUT I WASNT EVEN GIVEN A CHAAAANCE",
cause CJ squashed Ash with his butt,
and gave her a wedgie.
CJ sabotaged his own teammate wtf?)

anyway Sunday was such a good day
i lost my voice and Ash and i started dancing and headbanging
and running backwards
while the boys jammed some songs
hahahaha whoooooooooooo

after that, popped over at Aqil's cause it's near Felicia's house
and we're (Janna, Adrian, Deshun) supposed to do some project work.

poor boy's still having fever!!!!!!!!
said Hi to Nadiah and Reyanna
and ended up playing Fifa on ps3 again HAHAHAHA
im such a loser i swear
idk how i ended up being the keeper
and Aqil was like "PASS TO ME!!!!"
and so i kicked the ball
BUT FOR SOME REASON I KICKED IT BACKWARDS
AND IT ENDED UP IN THE GOAL POST LOL WHUUUUT?!?!?!?!?!!?!
OWN GOAL!!!!!!!!!!!!

thank god it didnt happen when i was in a team with Kenneth
he wouldve chokeslammed me!
okay wait actually Kenneth isnt a very physical person,
he uses sharpness of his words to hurt people hahahaha!
so probably wouldve hurled a few insults at me!

haha okay so i laughed a whole lot on Sunday
and it that wasnt enough,
i still had to meet Adrian, Deshun, Janna and Felicia,
a whole lot more laughing
oh wow my whole body's STILL aching now im so tired.

i was out from nine in the morning to eleven at night
and when i got home, wow,
being home feels so amazing, i swear.


so anyway i saw Glee's Poker Face video on TV!
previously i listened to the audio on youtube
and i thought it was mind-blowing,
and when i saw the video i was like WTF IDINA MENZEL?!?!?!?!!!
IT'S HER!!! IT'S IDINA MENZEL!!!!!
she was in Rent the Musial! as Maureen!


WATCH THIS ITS MIND-BOGGLING:




NOW WATCH THIS, ITS MIND-BLOWING:





Idina Menzel and Lea Michele, perfect duo!
and they look so similar and have amazing vocal capabilities
its no wonder why she got chosen to play the role of Rachel Berry's 'mother'.
"She's got to love nobody" i never thought that line
can have such a strong impact on the whole song,
considering the characters' backgrounds.
AAAAAH I LOVE IT I LOVE IT!!!!


okay moving on,
ITS THE LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL!
AND I SURVIVED THE NINE-TO-FIVE TODAY!
WISH ME LUCK FOR THURSDAY!
12 hours of school awaits +_+
once i get that over and done with, im a ~free bird!


zany xo

ps. latest addiction = PRINGLES.

take a look at some stuff i found on the net:


from carteenahwilliams.blogspot.com




from taufiq.tumblr.com
(Aqil showed me this. it's his brother Taufiq's tumblr.)

i laughed for approximately ten seconds
when i saw this hahahahaha!!!!
it's too random!

oh and Aqil say i best in the world.
I IZ CHAMPION!!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA k nonsense lah he, ok bye everyone.
i will blog a longer entry tomorrow night,
cause i gotta do some project stuff tonight! ^_^


oh wait one more thing!
im completely changing my whole diet.
i mean, im not on a diet
but i need to do something about
the stuff i stuff into my mouth
cause i just found out
why my throat gets scratchy and all after i sing and i suck ballz.

apparently i need to strain cause im not hydrated enough.
anyway, today was definitely fruitful.
yohohohohoho


zany xo
"You do what you love, and fuck the rest"

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