i sing, i write. therefore, i am.
Sunday, September 05, 2010 @ about 4:02 PM
i foresee failure
Well, now I'm told that this is life,
And pain is just a simple compromise
So we can get what we want out of it
Rewind - Paramore #nowplaying
MY EYESSSS!!! THEY BURNNNN!!!!!
so hi friends, guess what, im a free birdy now!!!!!
i meant to blog this on Friday,
i thought i'd be in the mood to celebrate and all
but after school me and Adrian were too aggravated to be smiling. =|
anyway the performance at Fort Canning Park
has been postponed i think,
to November or December, im not too sure.
i dont know if im upset cause we were all so stoked about it,
but i havent been singing the last couple of weeks
and i tried a few hours ago and i was absolute shit.
im really, really worried and demoralized oh god. )'=
but anyway we've got an invitation to Play-On
so we might be playing for that instead!
bro's leaving for NS in a couple of days.
im not prepared to be a lonely girl, im really not!
on the days mom and dad go on one of their dates
im gna be home all alone at night
and what if the stupid doorbell rings again?!?!?!
i'll be scared shitless!!!
k lemme tell you about the doorbell incident kay?
the other night... or morning,
around 1am to 2am my parents were asleep,
my bro was up.
i was sleeping, lightly.
im a really light sleeper,
the slightest noise or movement can wake me up.
so anyway all of a sudden the doorbell rang.
my doorbell sound is like "DING DONG _______"
the ______ is like a phrase or a word or a sound, like
"DING DONG asalamualaikum!!!"
or
"DING DONG *bird chirping sounds*",
yeah you get my drift.
we can choose the _______ that we want from the preset sounds.
so anyway this time the bell rang "DING DONG please open the door"
and it kept ringing and ringing
DING DONG PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR
DING DONG PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR
DING DONG PLEASE OPEN THE DOOR
and obviously this woke me up,
and i heard my brother leave his room to open the front door,
then he closed it, apparently the doorbell's still ringing
but no one's outside.
so he turned the doorbell speaker off.
okay this whole thing is scary in itself,
but dudes what if i told you that
in the preset sounds there ISNT
"DING DONG please open the door" ??!??!
WAH NBCB DAMN SCARY OKAY.
so we all know that it's the hungry ghost month right?
but ironically it is also Ramadhan,
hence my belief is that if the doorbell wasn't being retarded,
there was a good spirit just trying to have fun, y'know? yeah.
still, its scary isn't it?! gah.
but y'know what's scarier?
my results for CA10.
im pretty sure i screwed ALL my modules.
im living in fear right now.
especially for Issues and Viewpoints,
honestly i was bullshitting my way through.
worst. essay. ever.
seriously im not even asking for a C. thats too much.
and i didn't do very well for all my presentations either.
so anyway i've been clenching my teeth a lot these days.
on Thursday and Friday night it got so bad that i actually teared hahaha.
seriously, it felt like my teeth were falling off
and i ended up biting my thumb so that my teeth wouldn't hurt.
and now my ears hurt, because of this.
deep inside my ear, i think it connects to the jaw or something.
i don't know.
we didn't learn the jaw in Pure Biology.
so, i've got lots of free time in my hands right now.
what shall i do?
1. have frequent acoustic jamming sessions. anyone want in?
2. read Alice In Wonderland and Through The Looking Glass by Lewis Carroll because i do not want my brain to rot.
3. acoustic recording of three of Scotch Tape Mayhem's originals with Aiden + CJ.
4. play Pokemon Fire Red? should i? without bro to guide me at some parts i'll be screwed foshiz.
5. Escape Themepark, West Coast Park + Movie Marathon with my favourite girl Ashleigh Raye G.
6. … work?
i don't know man.
one thing's for sure: im gonna be taking lots and lots of pictures
because like i said bro's leaving for NS,
and he's leaving me three very important things:
1. his L'oreal Paris Studio Line Indestructible Gel
2. his contact lens solution and
3. DONUT!!!!!
Donut is his D90, with its fisheye lens fuck yeah.
DONUT IS MINE!!!!!!!!!
(starting from Tuesday, that is)
i've never been fond of DSLRs
but Donut and i bonded a lot
thanks to my Visual Communications photo shoot,
and i've grown very fond of it,
even though i left terrible marks at its bottom, sorry bro )=
(after seeing bro's terrible camwhore pictures
i had to teach him how to do it the right way.
i assume this is the result.)
Hehfiz came over the other day to help polish the cymbals.
they did a fantastic job lol
and Hehfiz tried to make small talk with me
in an attempt to 'catch up' and
he thought my course is called 'Creative Brain'.
ridiculous!
it's Creative Writing ya ol' fool. haha.
i'm going to ignore this and hope that he gets eaten inside out by guilt,
for not adding a "haha to indicate that he's not serious".
.... i love my cousins.
so anyway look what Asyiqin wrote to me on msn!!!
i haven't met her/spoken to her in agesssssss!!!
but sadly when i saw this she was offline
so i didn't get a chance to say thank you,
so here's a public thank you Asyiqin
and it's okay one day when you and Shafiq have your own house
you can paint it in all shades of blue!!!!!!!!!!!
and a rainbow in your room how cool is that!?!?!?!
ok bye friends that's all for this entry i think.
for now anyway… till i think of more things to talk about.
brain's been rather tired lately.
too many sleepless nights due to
last-minute determination to complete assignments tehehehe.
and still, i foresee failure.
what an epic fail i am.
ps. rest assured
i do still read tags i just dont reply them. i hope the
very few taggers who tag dont feel like im ignoring them lol im not, i'd reply if i could but i dont know how to do that, if not through my blog or making my tagboard an un-magic one. so yeah if you want me to reply please write on my
formspring instead!!! =D
to be honest, my tagboard's there just for show... it's too cute to be removed.
