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wiselion,
melli and
melo.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010 @ about 4:12 AM

mmmm.
remember the assignment i blogged about?
the one where we had to write our own Personal Decalogue:
A list of Ten Commandments (divine rules) we live by, as an individual.
after that assignment was done,
we had to write a story that reflected one or more of our Ten Commandments.
the commandments i chose were 'God exists' and 'Everything will be alright in the end.'
and this is an excerpt of the essay i wrote:
I reckon it's easier to live life without any struggles at all. When you're stuck in the middle of nowhere, in ceaseless dead-ends, running in circles, it is almost impossible to make sense of life. But you're never given even a little more than what you can take, because God will never burden any soul beyond its capacity.
I reckon it's normal to be dragged down by chains of wretchedness. You tend to forget to smile, you don't even know how to talk or make eye contact anymore. And even despite looking happy and beautiful from the outside, you're perished inside, and a hundred and one percent in disarray. You forget to have faith in God, you give up on his basic needs yet he never once did give up on yours. And so you're still breathing, and you never give up hope each day to keep on living. Because you know, everything will be alright in the end, and if it is not alright, it is not the end.
and you don't know how much i hate or feel inadequate/incompetent
showing people the essays/songs i write,
(in fact, i feel like shit now posting a part of my essay here)
but right now, at this moment,
these words mean more to me than anything else.