“It’ll happen once again, I’ll turn to a friend

Someone that understands, sees through the master plan

But everybody’s gone, and I’ve been here for too long to face this on my own
Well I guess this is growing up.”



the picture above is a GIF that makes me look like i have a serious case of epilepsy.
actually, i dont even know what epileptic people look like when they have seizures.
im just assuming...
okay the GIF gets scary after a while.


oh, i am seriously confuzzled!
(im not very sure what that means, i think it's confused + puzzled)


sometimes the pictures on my blog can be seen and sometimes they can't!
it's seriously the most annoying thing in the world right now,
apart from lizards. and my brother.


so tell me, can they be seen now?!
OMG PHOTOBUCKET MAKE UP YOUR MIND
D'YOU WANT ME TO UPGRADE TO PRO OR NOT?!
k it doesn't matter cause im definitely not spending
"as low as $1.67 a month" for your picture-hosting lol.


SO HAI FRIENDSSSS!
what's new and how are you?!
hahaha it's been a while!
i cant believe im blogging again!
hahaha… yeah… haha.........................


okay actually i don't even know what to say )=
my life has been unbelievably mundane lately.
i mean, seriously. it's so mundane you won't believe it.
even i can't believe it.
i've been skipping school quite a lot,
cause it's not like i learn anything there anyway.
and frankly, i think i've lost interest.


this morning mom got real mad at me cause i skipped lessons again.
she thinks it's cause i slept at 3am.
i had a hard time trying to explain to her that me sleeping at 3am
has nothing to do with the fact that i skipped school.
i sleep at 3am because i don't want to go to bed when im not sleepy!
i'll just end up laying in bed and thinking about things i do not want to think about.
like, y'know… things.


and i skipped school because like i said, we don't really learn anything.
Janna said the class did some voting and picked some concepts to write.
and im like meh.


anyway, i feel really shy saying this,
but i'd really like to thank everyone who've stood by me the whole of November.
people like Ahdila, Janna, Adrian, Felicia, Elsa, Syafiq, Sharul and so many more,
including the people who wrote on my Formspring,
and even the people who asked the mother of simple questions, "Are you okay?"
you didn't have to, but you did, and i really appreciate it.

and im sorry i lied to all of you when i said "I'm fine"
but im not lying now when i tell you im really really okay.
i really am! hahaha.
well, in retrospect, November really was ridiculous.
… but it's nothing that i can't handle. (=


oh and December didn't start out very well either
and this one's kinda personal so i can't talk about it.


ive been getting these crazy heart aches.
i looked it up on the net,
it's called precordial catch syndrome
and it's common and it happens pretty often to me.
i hate it when it happens,
i always think im about to die HAHA

and i'll start thinking things like "if i die, it's okay,
i did my best to live how i want to" and shit like that to make myself feel better hahaha.
oh and i also think of Peter Pan's quote,
"to die would be an awfully big adventure."
how nice!

"Patients often think that they are having a heart attack which causes them to panic."
- Wikipedia.


lol wikipedia is so funny.
but seriously it hurts a lot when i inhale and exhale so i stop breathing
but that makes me giddy so i breathe again
and then the pain just gets worse.
HAHAHA!!!
i don't know why im laughing. i guess it is kinda funny.


oh by the way, i still wont tell anyone my Tumblr url
so please stop asking me on Formspring or wherever
cause im only going to delete the questions.
I WONT TELL YOU MEANS I WONT TELL YOU LAH OH MAI GIATTTT. hahaha.
but if you happen to come across it, yay for you.
and if you were one of them who reblogged my headbang picture,
thank you! 5000+ reblogs and likes, you crazy!!!
i reblogged it too and i wrote "HAY! look, it's me!" hahahahahahaha
and Elsa said i am humorously egoistical or something like that.

i think i'm just plain egoistical.
but to be humorous is a wonderful thing.
okay i think i'm going to shower and sleep soon.
this is absurd im pretty sure i slept through half the day.
but sleep is good, i love sleep.

gunaik! (good night)

Be nice, or go away.
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