i sing, i write. therefore, i am.
Sunday, January 30, 2011 @ about 3:48 PM
LΔN3WΔY
in one day, i..- made new friends
- high-fived 5 - 10 strangers
- lost my virginity (Ben & Jerry's virginity, that is.)
- walked in the rain
- ran in the rain
- played in the rain
- danced in the rain (in a poncho)
- invaded a hotel room. hahaha
- gate-crashed/snuck into a major event for the first time
with the help of this angmoh dude and his girlfriend. he gave me his ticket and before i knew it the girl was grabbing my arm and dance-walking. (i think she was high.) going in was the easiest part, the security guard didn't even look at me HAHAHA. ok so we went in, and the couple started making out and i was like… um ok, i will disappear now… but my god. i felt… infinite. - got shiny confetti thrown all over me! WHO DOESNT LOVE CONFETTI?!
- almost got grounded by my parents for the first time
because i "keep going home in the morning". i don't know why i find this funny. maybe it's cause it's pointless to ground me… i barely go out anyway. hahahaha.- did the epic dog walk:
and well, pretty much had the craziest day and night of my life,
and i spent less than 10 bucks! =D
i can't tell you much about Laneway
cause i didn't really go to listen to the bands...
i just wanted to sneak in HAHA.
CHEAP THRILLS. (free thrills, more like.)
all i can say is people danced more to the songs the DJ played,
than the songs the bands played.
it was strange.
but the DJ played songs Yeah Yeah Yeahs, MGMT, Metric and Kings of Leons...
who wouldn't dance?!?!
blast Sex On Fire and i will completely lose myself.
OH LIFE IS GOOD. LIFE IS SO GOOD.
thank you Ryhan, Jason, Farhan, Syafiq, Dillon, Shalyn and Jasmine
for being real good company. Y(^_^)Y
"It's funny how the people you meet in the weirdest ways,
are usually the most amazing."
Pictures shot by Ryhan.
Edited by me.
Nikon D90 + Fisheye lens.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011 @ about 10:35 AM
this could save me.
i should...
1. learn to appreciate people around me more.
2. trust my intuition, because goddamnit, it has NEVER failed.
3. make more friends... this is something i don't ever do.
4. do more chores.
5. eat healthy (i think i've been making significant improvement).
6. save money (i've stopped spending on inedible things!).
7. try harder in school.
8. confess to mom i almost burnt the house down on Monday.
Deshun showed me something very mind-fucking on Tuesday.
Pink is telling the truth.
Blue is lying.
*mind-fucked*
even colours, non-living things, are deceiving.
in any case,
i had a fantastic time with Farhan and Ryhan and Jason (and another guy i do not know) today.
Farhan and i went around school with a FREE HUGS sign
and hugged strangers.
it felt good and i was shy at first
cause i was afraid no one would wna hug me lol
but the number of hugs i got
was more than the number of people that rejected me! =D
the number of people that rejected Farhan
is more than the number of hugs he gave #IMJUSTSAYING.
ah feeeel goooooddddddddd nanananananana
i fell in love with countless songs this week, and countless bands this month.
i like falling in love with music
more than i like falling in love with humans.
i've got to be honest.
these few days/weeks have been very nerve-wracking.
and i'm not feeling very good...
but i promise to make the best of it.
you should, too.
anyway, see you at Laneway...
i might crash.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011 @ about 11:58 PM
go away
i don't know where they come from.
i wish they'd all just go away.
Sunday, January 23, 2011 @ about 1:06 PM
for you ♥
Photography: Tori Steffen
"Do not try to make me feel like less of a person,
just because I don’t fit your idea of who I should be,
and don’t try to change me to fit your mold.
If I need to change, I alone will make that decision.
When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad,
you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you."
— Stacey Charter
☺
Thursday, January 20, 2011 @ about 3:22 PM
dtvm
Creative Writing For TV & New Media.
Singapore Poly. hek hok.
this is actually a segment from my video,
i was trying to learn how to make gifs from videos... success!
(it takes a super long time to load, though. it's such a hugeass file)
Wednesday, January 19, 2011 @ about 9:17 PM
letdown
So many mistakes in such a ridiculously short span of time…
At this point, I'd give anything to get things right, for a change.
I'm not holding my breath. I'm certain this year is going to be the most anticlimax one yet. Daunting, nonetheless. A letdown that everything in 2009 was building up for. I am not being a pessimist, I've just grown a lot more grounded in the past year. I've learnt that life (and the world) really isn't all that pretty and people are far more deceiving than they'll ever let on, especially after my trip to Acres this morning. For the past year I've been struggling to hold on to all the things I believed in, but my head has descended from the clouds, and I don't intend to go back to where I was at all, even if it means being a more hushed, slightly less happier person than I was before. I'm staying grounded. I don't want to live in ignorance.
We've loved and we've lost
But life has a funny way of working things out
You think you're at the bottom, but you're really on top
You're the luckiest person if you get out breathing
And the strongest one to dare to keep on living... (=
But y'know... despite everything, I can't help having faith in the future...
Saturday, January 15, 2011 @ about 4:21 PM
x
If there's one thing I learnt in 2010, it is to not hope.
Because it is stupid. And useless.
Because you're just clinging onto a feeling,
just stupidly sitting there and hoping, as if it does any good.
If you badly want something to happen in your life,
you stand up and do it. Go for it.
And if you believe, pray.
Do everything you can to get what you want.
And if you don't get what you want, don't drown in misery.
Don't swim in your stupid self-sympathising tears.
It's pathetic.
Just pick yourself up, because no one can do it except yourself.
If you don't know how to, learn.
It takes a volitional effort but if you don't try,
you're just going to be sad forever.
And no one is at loss but yourself.
I have zero tolerance for people who are miserable
but don't do anything to get back up on their feet.
Life is too short for negative feelings and self-pity.
Keep in mind that when you hit rock bottom,
the only way is up.
They say life fucks us all.
If you think about it, fucking is pleasure... and a little pain.
D'you get my drift?
Overcome the little obstacle at the start, forget the pain, let it go...
then you'll be happy.
(... No, I'm a virgin.)
@ about 3:57 PM
picture spam
I'm not what I was last summer, not who I was in the spring
Tell me, tell me, tell me when will we learn?
We love it and we leave it and we watch it burn
Damn these wild young hearts
i dug out pictures from the first week of the first semester all the way to a week ago!
look how we've changed in just a year. ('=
(well, okay, the difference isn't HUGE but still)
the pictures are in order... i think.
and trust me, there're A LOT more where they came from.
LESSSS GOSSSSSSSS!!!!
taken in 2011:
